Miracle

Sometimes competition is not just about winning. I participated in the 1st table tennis competition in my life yesterday. Undeniably, it was really fun. Although I have losed all 3matches, I feel I did my best because I just learnt and practised for 1day!!

The first match was against Chew and Esther. I think nobody can beat their teamwork, because this two state players were couple. My partner and I losed 21-13, 21-15. Well, I surrendered myself. They are just too strong.

The second match was against my sifu-s, Li Wei and Zhen Liang. I always practise ping pong with them but impossible I can win my sifu-s right?They smashed like mad and I couldnt really focus. First and foremost, I was too tired. Secondly, I was distracted by blue house supporters who cheered loudly when I missed a point. I finished the game terribly, couldnt even get to score 20points for the 2games!

I won the first game for the third match, opposing a lenglui senior who serves with the ball spinning and the guy who is my friend. I was under extreme pressure as I do not want to lose terribly anymore. Yes! I did my best. It was the most perfect match that I had ystday. Actually we stand a chance to win the match but my partner was so anxious and nervous until several points were just delivered to the opponents easily. We losed again.

But I wasnt sad at all. Sometimes competitions are just not about winning, it is about doing your best and dont feel regret after that. I did perfectly, not even a single error is made. My friends are very proud of me, and I am proud of myself too!

The most touching part is that I realized there are so many people around me who care and love me very much. My friend purposely asked Chew not to smash at me because I am a beginner and I definitely cannot handle smashed balls. Another friend of mine is very good at smashing, but he didnt even smash a single ball to me ystday during the match. Just because he knows I will feel nervous when I hit smashed balls and I would lose points because of that. They did so many things behind to help me as much as possible.

Thank you my respective coach Jian Hui for teaching me the basic of serving. Although your words are sharp and hurting, you are the one who let me know what ping pong is.

Thank you Li Wei, Zhen Liang, Alex, Kean Seng and Jerry for teaching me. I was so touched when you all told me that I did very well.

Wei, thanks for asking Chew to not smash at me. You know who you are. And thanks for your support and cheer when I scored. I dunno wat to say except for thousands of thank you.

And lastly, thank you dear for your ultimate support. Thanks for staying up til 1am to teach me, and broke your promise to your friend just bcoz u wanna stay to watch me playing without even telling me. I would be so nervous if I know you were watching. Hope you really enjoyed my match!

Hope I didnt disappoint anybody who had faith in me. I know it is very impossible to represent my house for PingPong after a 1-day practise, but I managed to do it! Thank you for being proud of me. Love you guys much!

And yeah, I am very satisfied with my performance.

Forgiveness

In my silence I would love to forget

But restitution hasn't come quite yet

And with one accord I keep moving forth

I stretch my heart to heal some more

It used to be all I'd want to learn

Was wisdom trust and truth

But now all I really want to learn

Is forgiveness for you

As my seasons change

I've now grown to know

When one's heart creates, one's soul doesn't owe

So I wash away stains of yesterday

Then tempt my heart with love's display

It used to be all I'd want to learn

Was wisdom trust and truth

But now all I really want to learn

Is forgiveness for you

I always assume that I will never forgive him in this life, Oh No, I just dont understand myself well enough. Actually without my realize, I have forgiven him long time ago. I mean, a very long duration ago when even myself didnt realize that.

Anyhow I wont reply him no matter what he sends me. Hope this can be a very good experience for him.

Just want to tell you: I still treat you as my friend. Dont forget me when you have flied to Czech Republic next time!

Updates!!

Finally I realize that people do not like to read things that are written in paragraphs. So I just KISS--keep it short and sweet. (My mad chemistry lecturer taught us that)

Well, several updates are in town:

1. I have a new boss!! Datuk Liow Tiong Lai (sorry if I spelled his name wrongly). But sadly he is not a doctor. The first decision he has made yesterday when he was announced as the Health Minister is to shift private doctors to work in government hospitals. OH MY GOODNESS! What a lousy decision..Doctors do not wish to serve for government simple because they want to get a better pay, shorter working hours, and enjoy the fame that a doctor has. (Government doctors are known as slave-low pay as well as lengthy working hour). Now, due to his marvellous decision. private doctors are back to government hospitals again. Sigh. But not my problem right?Why am I over-reacting? Isykk.

2. I have decided to change to a twinning programme. Yeah, I love India. But I love Malaysia more!

3. Yoon Seng actually thanked me in his blog for giving him a chance to act out what he wanted to act. I didnt know that he is so interested in writing and acting until I saw his blog, where he even uploaded pictures on it. Thanks YS for thanking me, hope you make it to UGM.

4. IELTS results for 1year programme is released. 2 students of my college scored Band 8.5. Haizz nobody scored Band9, and it makes me think of him again. Perhaps I really like him, but i just dont have the gut to tell or even hint to him.

5. Entrance test for University Gajahmada Indonesia is going to be held next week. Hope all my Indonesia bound friends can pass it and fly there this coming August.

6. My hatred towards him has reduced for no reason. My friend says my biggest problem is that I am not cruel enough to hate a person. Whenever he apologizes, I forgive him no matter what he does. Just because I dont want to lose a friend who treats me so well. I wont forgive him this time, because I want him to learn a lesson- Dont lie to girls. Dont scold them no matter what they did to you, and how much they hurt you.

7. Hottest rumour in my college- Wing Seng and Variant. I pass the privilege of Variant calling me "honey" to WS. Hope you two can start officially!

8. My practical examination for all 3papers falls in the morning, i mean, 8.30am! 1st batch some more. Sob Sob. Luckily YongYau is with me..Hahaha!! Lattest name for him--P3 practical examination answers provider.

Basically thats all for the update. I am stil continuing my life as a normal student who lepak around college compound when I am supposed to stick my butt on the chair and study. Ohya, I am in love with PingPong.

How nice if he can teach me..

Sudden emo-change

When 2 friends of mine couple up, I lose 2 friends..

Recently I feel that I am having lesser and lesser friends, simply because my distance with them increases.

Yet I am still very happy for them as they finally found their true love. Losing two friends is so "negligible" compared to the happiness that they managed to find with their partners, isn't this true?

dILemMa..

I just came up with a fact- Kasturba Medical College in India is not recognized by Singapore Medical Council (SMC).



Damn it!!!

I never know that an advanced country like Singapore does not recognise the MBBS of Kasturba Medical College, both Manipal and Mangalore which is ranked 5th among medical universities throughout the whole nation of India. Damn!

https://www.smc.gov.sg/html/1153709442948.html



I am on the tough way, a long road ahead. Robert Frost said that every decision will lead to the different pathway in life, changing the whole structure of your future. Yeah, I am standing right at the middle of a triangle now. Which corner shall I hide myself at when enemies attack? IMU, MMC or KMC?



Actually I was thinking about choosing either MMC or KMC-namely Melaka-Manipal College and Kasturba Medical College. MMC provides me with the duration I want, but it seems that their course structure is simply too easy. Maybe everybody will think that what is so bad about a relaxing lifestyle of a medical student? Perhaps my mindset is different, because I think that a person has to suffer alot before he/she manages to get what he/she wants in life. The same theory applies on this condition. Without tasting the bitterness in life, you wouldnt know the sweetness of sweet. Actually I rather suffer in India so that I am generally declared as a good doctor in the future, but it takes such a long time to complete my course there! 5.5years+extra housemanship before I can proudly get my certificate from the Dean. I love my family more that anything else, that's why I feel that I shouldnt go for it. One will certainly lose something in order to gain what he wants. Answer this question honestly: What is the value of a medical degree if you have missed many other things in life: family, love, or perhaps friendship?



Well, I must be a doink. Why am I keep persuading myself not to go for the full course?



This is the first decision in my life which I make according to what I want and what my heart thinks. I will not follow blindly where my friends are heading to, or the rumours saying that which place is better than the other.



Ming keeps persuading me to go for MMC. But my heart tells me that it is not as good as what people think. I know why he hopes I will go MMC, because he is there!!!Ok, I admit it is a nonsense explaination. Sometimes I feel very grateful because God has granted me with so many things in life, including this everlasting friendship. He hopes I will be there when he is sad or despair over things, or when he finally managed to get hmself a girlfriend. I always pray hard for him to get one, he is just too cool! There was once I asked him, would we still keep in contact after we have flied to different places? He said of course, but his answer is so uncertain. I am worried. Sometimes when you are used to having a person in your life, you will really feel sad to think about being apart.

(Pure friendship is impossible in my college, so we are trying very hard to let people think that we are strangers. I HATE rumours!)



Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,

and Sorry I could not travel both.



Robert Frost chose the one less travelled by. How about me?

Hilarious..

Watch this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-TSWaKWiAhY

Memoirs of A Geisha by MadTV. Funniest video ever.

Rating: 9.5/10
- 0.5 marks of deduction due to the physical appearance of main character--should be uglier I think

Comments: I was wondering who came up with such an idea to alter the main theme of this movie, or perhaps the aura of a geisha. Proven that mankind has unlimited creativity and innovativity to create laughters.

Good job MadTV!

Triumph.

It was a great success.
For the past 11years, there wasnt a lion dance being performed in college compound, and we made it!
For the past 11 years, there wasnt any CNY celebration in college, and we made it!

The first peak in my college life. I have never expected it to be so successful. Thank you very much for the hardwork everybody contributed, sacrificing their study time, sleeping time, dota time, pakto time, crapping time and so many others!

Inviting lion dance to our college was definitely a smart choice, so many people enjoyed it!Luckily Uncle Parang didnt come down and stab us with parang for being too noisy and chaotic.

The 3 dances were great! Fan dance which portrays our tradition has made everybody indulged in it, great job Anna and JuoPei! The couple traditional dance was so sweet! MJ dance was such a success!

Thank you Xiang Wei for her GuZheng performance. Although she has not been touching it for te past 5years, she was willing to try again and present to us. Her "aura" is so irreplacable!

Thank you for all instrumental performances: Piano, Guitar, Violin which had created "ohm-s" for the night! JunJun, XiaoChien, Fiona, WenMei, YiTeng, Muruga, Rooben, Andrew, Jesse, YiYou, you guys did the best!!

Not forgetting my beloved sketch. I could still remember the dilemma and the arguments I had with so many people because I wanted to protect them. My determination to let you all perform for the sketch was proven to be correct! No matter how hard it was to convince people that you all could do it, it was very worthy. Thank you YoonSeng for not disappointing me, and bared with all my rules and regulations to produce a script of exactly what I want. You are a man!!
Honestly I was very touched with their performance in the sketch. Although they have to prepare for IELTS, entrance exam, and A2 syllabus all at once, they still manage to practise and perform the best. Thank you WingSeng, LianJae, Leon, Yan Yii, Hsiao Suan, Zhung Shen, Tharan and Chew. I cannot message you all one by one to thank you guys, but I hope you guys enjoyed the performance. Love you guys so much!

Thank you Lee Suan for your marvellous skills of being the MC!

Thank you Kean Seng for helping me throughout the whole program. He was the one who worked even harder than many other committee members who didnt make any effort throughout the night. A great applause to you!

It's time for me to change my bad habits. I have very low EQ and I got irritated very easily, especially when people do not play their roles at very moments. I am sorry if I uttered some words which hurt people during that moments, but I really dont mean it. I just want to make sure everything is on the right track. I promised myself that I will try my level best to increase my EQ level!


Anyhow I think that this will be the last fun we Chinese had in the college. I cannot guarantee that we will still remember each other after we have graduated. 6years is definitely not a short period right? But I will definitely remember this event throughout my life. It gives me the motivation to work harder for things and makes my life more contented than before like a rainbow after the rain!

Raymond Lam in town!

Hottest topic for my family: My brother-in-law is in town!

Proudest topic for my family: I am going to meet him in a fans gathering!

Actually I did not have any special feeling about the gathering when my sister just told me at first, because I just see him as a normal TVB actor who tries very hard to succeed in his career. But my sister is deeply in love with him, maybe because he is TOO handsome with the 100TW eyes which act as electrical generator, or mayb she sees his talent in this field.

When he first came into the broadcasting room of 988, I was kinda $%%(^&#!) (Please take notes that I am not scolding him, just that the feeling is kinda indescribable)

Perhaps I have not seen his real person before, so I have the feeling that I am dreaming!

But the dream is very real as I could touch him. His hand I mean. After the gathering we are supposed to go back but some of them followed to the next destination of his promo tour-Sg Wang.

Well, miracles do happen in life. My sister and I were supposed to squeeze into a lift where most of the participants of the gathering were in. But my shoe lace dropped so I have to tie it before I walk further. Obviously meaning that we have to wait for another lift. When the door opens, guess who I saw?

Hohoho..Raymond Lam was inside. Thanks to God of Fortune, who brought me moments of precious time to be in the same lift as him. I requested to take a picture with him since I couldnt have a chance just now, but the irritating 988DJ-who-must-not-be-named rejected my request with the lame reason: erm, we are short of time now.

^%*#*$^@ (this is meant for scolding)
How long it takes to capture a picture? What can you do in the lift except for waiting for it to go down to de ground floor? Why cant I take a picture with him? Do you think there is always a chance to stay in the same lift with a celebrity?Why?Why?Why?

Anger+Frustration keeps nagging me to stab that DJ with a knife if I had one tt time. ISYKKK!

After that I went to Sg Wang and again, I met Raymond Lam there. My sister and I had lunch before queueing up for him to sign one of our unsigned album. He saw me on the stage but he doesnt seemed to recognize my face. Impossible, his memory power is not that bad to the extend of forgetting a girl whom he saw tt morning. Perhaps he was too tired tt time, after signing for so many albums and calendars. I forgive him. (wakakaka as if he knows that i forgiv him)

There was another fans gathering following that, but it consisted more fans there.(The one which I attended in the morning only give the golden opportunity to 20 lucky ones) I didnt follow my sister there as I stil prefer shopping. Wakaka XD

Attached to this long draggy old grandmother story are some pictures captured by my sister that day:

Topic-less

My friend who went to further her studies in Aussie sent me a card before she left. I was kinda surprised with it because I have never thought that she stil rmber sending me one. Thanks Siaw Wei! It is a CNY greeting card of course, but the first sentence she wrote was "Bao Chi Le Guan" (be optimistic).

Kinda terasa, becoz she used to read my blog (i dunno whether she stil reads it now or what)

Ok then, be optimistic!
This is the brand new year, 8days after CNY..
My new year resolutions which I plan every year but none of it can be done:
-force myself to study
-stop watching drama
-stop chit-chatting downstairs when students are supposed to study in the apartment
-stop walking aimlessly around the college compound
-stop thinking about impossible things, thinking that I can make myself happy through that
-stop daydreaming!!!!!

Well, these are basically my resolution for the year.
I heard that Horse doesnt really have good luck this year because they are opposing Mouse. Being a superstitious one, I trusted it and it makes me feel SO sad..Anyhow, life has to be continued and I cant do anything to oppose God.
I believe that if I am diligent, I still can pass my Alevels with flying colours, and of course with a good band for my IELTS.

Wish me good luck in life, thanks!