Critics, critics n critics..

Dun misunderstand, I am not going to comment about what people critic bout me behind. (juz because they critic behind me so I wouldnt know if they do!)

Well, in the world of genius (i mean KoleJ Teknologi Timur where the college is so lame yet students have the same IQ level as Einstein, Newton or whoever gotten Nobel Prize before), there is a gang of ppl, ooopss, nono, particularly one, that makes me feel nasty and obnoxious. I cant say it is a gang of people because some of my frens are in that gang, i mean JUST SOME.

Until now I have no idea of where this person is from, and I dun think I have the interest to know. What he did that makes me feel disguist?

1. Watch porns in college compound (How do I get to know this?My fren told me)
2. Influence people to watch porns (There USED to be a guy who had never ever watched this kind of things before, but since they are in the same gang, or mayb live under the same roof, he tends to "follow" his housemates' footsteps, And the worst thing is, he is indulged in it now!!!)
3. Save pretty girls pictures in his own computer (I dont know whether these gals are naked or not, but he tends to save my friends pictures as well--his "so-called" collgemates where he grabs all from their friendsters)
4. Watch porns using HIS FREN'S LAPTOP. (sad to say, the friend is my friend--a kinda close one)
5. Dont wear socks to classes (I have no comment on this!)
6. Simply throw his underwears in his apartment (I really forgot where I heard this from, but accuracy of this news can reach 99%)
7. Talk big-"blow water" as what Chinese like to say
8. Use rough and rude words when he talks (really wonder why he loves greeting people's mummy so much..)
9. Dressed up like a gangster/beggar/primary skul kid when he goes for class (overall meaning superb untidy)
10. Talks loudly, or rather scream, at the middle of night. Please-laa, dont you know that KTT is juz a small compound where de echo is easily heard?
11. Like to take opportunity on touching gals and his eyes are never apart from some "special" parts of a gal's body. (bust and hip of course)
12. This one is abit 18SX: imagine some obnoxious thing with de female character being my good friend AND TELL ABIT THIS TO DE WHOLE GANG. (i mean he is brave enough to say that: how good if XXX can do XXX with me because she is so pretty and sexy n.....) {get what i mean?}
13. Nobody will believe this: he is a JPA scholar

The worst thing ever is: he is doing MEDICINE. oh my goodness, this despicable and unscrupulous human being is going to be a doctor. I mean, DOCTOR!

who can believe this?

Farewell..

One fine day I was chatting with my fren on msn, n i got to know tt she's leaving to Australia. I was very shocked at first bcoz I tot she wans to complete her MUFY in Sunway College(what normally Malaysia school leavers will do), but I have never thought that she will b doing her MUFY in Melbourne. And she is going to departure in 27/1!

Dunno how to describe my feeling, perhaps my english is not good enuf for me to express myself thoroughly..Glad bcoz she has gotten a golden opportunity to do wat she wans, sad for being apart, disappointed for not spending enuf time with her, and all n all..

Although we are not de best fren ever, but when a fren is going to sumwhere else n u may not get a chance to c her in the following years, a surge of dunno-wat-u-called feeling will accelerate from the bottom of ur heart..After offline-ing only I realize that not only her, sum of my frens are goin to further their studies next year.

Friendship is one of the things that I take very seriously, and I really hope that what we normally say in primary school: F.R.A.N.C.E will come true.

Friendship Remains And Never Can End

Our hearts are always together, no matter where we are. Bon Voyage!

Friendship

I think I am a good fren(not to b boastful), but I dont think my secondary skul frens treat me as 1..

Long old grandmother story again. And I juz wan to make it short and sweet. I can feel that they dun really enjoy my company, or in other words, they dont like me. Never inform me bout any outings, talking bad bout me behind, etc n etc..It hurts me, truely hurts me.

I appreciate sum of them who really treat me as frens, but at the same time, I appreciate those who hate me like devil or distorted monster. I cant really mention names, bcoz perhaps sum of them hate me from de bottom of their hearts, but intelligently covered it up with a fake smile. (Sorry I dont mean to accuse anyone, juz tt this is wat I really feel from how u all treat me)

My teacher told me once: 有缘就是朋友，无缘的话怎么勉强也不会是朋友.
I bear this sentence in mind for many years, n of coz whenever I think about how they treat me. Stil remember last time I cried many times for this matter--bcoz I really care. I care alot bout them, without caring wat I manage to get in return.

Now, I learn to be stronger. No matter how they want to treat the friendship between us, I still appreciate the days of havin them in my secondary skul life.

I am really glad to have you all in my life, thank you 5 Tanjung gals.

Some Pictures..I LoVe everything tt they gave me..

Me and my roommate Nikki..

Me and pretty charming Feeyonar..

(From left: Me, the ever popular Andrew, and Math Queen Sherlyn)

interested in my frens?so sorry..they r occupied..wakakaka

Family Portrait. Bapa Ayam, Ibu Ayam, and Anak Ayam-s.

ALL 15 rockzz!

*Sigh*

I screwed up my Bio Paper 2. Totally screwed.

Staring at the whole block of KTT, I wonder why am I here. I dun think tt i belong to this place, a place full with clever ppl who own a shocking IQ value. I doubt whether I am a part of them, especially after this exam.

Haizz..I really dunno wat shud I say to myself, frens n family. Bearing a great pressure, I really think tt my wire is going to break, although it is made of rubber. I dare to say tt I really worked very hard for this exam, especially on my bio..I studied so hard...nobody wil know tt a crazy gal who always spend her time loitering around skul compound wil study bio textbook for 5times repeatedly..EVERY SINGLE WORD!!
I really read, sacrificing my time for leisure n enjoy..

But wat I got at last? 1hour and 15min of dull sitting in the examination hall, thinking what should i write on de test paper. I juz cant figure out what I shud write on de blanks..
What i hope is go back..go back..stop staying here..
After de paper, I went back to my room, without even a sense of relief. Although I m really sad n depressed but tears couldnt even rolled out of my eyes.. The extend of sadness is indescribable.

The next day, another worst Phy paper..it was out of my control, and i really feel like jumping down from my balcony.

Everybody thinks tt FuiBee can do everything, score 100 for math, n 90 and above for every single subject.


Sorry, I know I disappointed u.
And shall I be in KTT, i doubted.

Hill of Romance

The best part of KTT is that there is a mountain behind it..

I spent my 17th mid-autumn festival there with a group of frens, where an Indon bound guy confessed to an India bound gal in front of so many ppl..
It was a very touching night. The guy's frens all helped n supported him, although they know it will b a bery tough journey to go(a very long distance relationship, 6years isnt a short period huh?). They brought guitar up to the hill, sang for de gal, and i can c the happiness in the gal's face.
The sad thing is tt the guy is a banana..so he only sat there looking at the gal(dunno whether they hold hands or not). They sang many many songs, the touching ones..Honestly, which gal can resist it?

For some reasons I really love tt mountain. It brings me hope and happiness. Many ppl like to go there and watch sunset or sunrise, and when they cum down from the hill, they started theri relationship. Tts y i m not courageous enuf to go there with anybody.

He asked me to go with him on MSN juz now(but i dunno how true is tt) for a sunset or sunrise. But i dunno whether shall i go or not. My frens started suan-ing bout me n him dy..*sigh*
Perhaps i really have to consider properly. Juz feel that i m treating him differently from how i treat my fellow frens.

Many things can happen in 7years right?

KTT aka Kolej Terrible-Terrible

Kolej Teknologi Timur!!!



I hate it!!

haizz..what to do..



i owe JPA money so I have to be their doll..

Irregular Blogger

I am not an irregular blogger(omg..it is so obvious bcoz i hv never updated my blog for 1month++), paiseh to all..

Finally found myself a free and peaceful afternoon to sit in front of the computer writing sumthing about myself, although the exam is juz around de corner. Pretty cool.

My life is filled with books and notes. This is what i chat with my frens on MSN:

XXX : hey, what is the topic tt shurabil asked us to do for IELTS essay?
Bee : Ermm..no idea..i dun plan to do since he has given us a choice on doing it or not..
Bee : Ohya, how to differentiate between random n systematics error?
XXX : Wait, u teach me how to calibrate microscope first..

N the conversation continues between both of us, chatting about STUDIES.

Even when my fren called, I wil start by asking "how's ur chem practical?managed to get the blue percipitate?"

People muz be thinking tt i m totally indulged in my A-level, but honestly i am not (but at least i enjoy doing ME in math textbook). Studies causes stress, dont u think so?My mum even adviced me not to pia til so hard. She is afraid that i wil go mad before departuring to the path of tertiary education.
was what i used to answer my mum. But now, i m very unsure. Perhaps one day i will ask my fren how the mechanical energy changes when u move ur glass of water from the table to another position. Studies makes me mad!!

Learnt from my fren tt doctors muz practise saying things but giving enough evidence. So lets discuss bout it.

C uncle lim(i mean Tan Sri Lim Goh Tong). He came to Malaysia with USD2. UNEDUCATED. This is de essence of all. UNEDUCATED. But with his fantastic idea and ever-frightening diligence, he managed to turn an outskirt and rural hill into a land of indulgence for everybody. Marvellous, huh?

Study means nothing. No matter how hard one studies, provided if he doesnt apply what he studied in his life, he will never succeed.

I have never thought of becoming de second Uncle Lim, or getting ranked in the TOP 10 MAS RICHEST MAN(although sumtimes I would rather to marry one). I juz want to try my best to pay back what government is giving me with my results, though it is not pretty good.

Ohya, my first exam results has been released lately(which was approximately 1 month ago). The grading system sucks. I have never seen such a lame grading system before.

A: 90 and above

B: 76 and above

C: I dun remember-lah..Bcoz i dun wan to get such a grade

My "shocking" results:

Biology: 82

Physics: 89

Chemistry: 80

Mathematics: 98

hooh..kinda proud of my math..but such a silly me dun understand what is meant by EXACT VALUE (plz la PB..surd form-lah..) -.-'''

Next exam is cuming..Hope i score..Wish me luck everybody!!!

P/S: I discovered a fantastic blog today, For further assistance, kindly click the name "unknown BPHS guy". A great applause to him.

Title-less..

Two of my frens are "on" finally..

Hope that they will enjoy each other's company from now onwards..

All de best for u, S&J..

I Love The Song!!

I love the song "take me to your heart"..
I simply love it, until the extend of singing it with my housemate EVERYDAY..

Hiding from The Rain and Snow
Trying to forget but I won't let go
Looking at a crowded street
Listening to my own heart beat
So many people all around the world
Tell me where do I find someone like you girl

Take me to your heart take me to your soul
Give me your hand before I'm old
Show me what love is - haven't got a clue
Show me that wonders can be true
They say nothing lasts forever
We're only here today
Love is now or never
Bring me far away
Take me to your heart take me to your soul
Give me your hand and hold me
Show me what love is - be my guiding star
It's easy take me to your heart

Standing on a mountain high
Looking at the moon through a clear blue sky
I should go and see some friends
But they don't really comprehend
Don't need too much talking without saying anything
All I need is someone who makes me wanna sing

Take me to your heart take me to your soul
Give me your hand before I'm old
Show me what love is - haven't got a clue
Show me that wonders can be true

I dunno whether I love this song simply because it is nice,
or
there's sum other reason beneath that..

Study study and study..

Frankly speaking i expected dozens of nerds appearing in front of me everyday..but luckily i din see them!!hahaha..(mayb becoz i din cum out from my apartment though..)

Days are really passing by without my realize. Students of 1year programme are going to face their Pre AS next week, but fortunately i am the 1 1/2 years ones, if not i would have been torturing my brain with de ever think Biological Science in my room now..

Haizz..Actually i really feel "sien" staying in my apartment everyday. This condition happens everyday:
My housemates will be sitting still on her chair doing physics
My rommate will go library and study (or mayb go talk to her admirers perhaps, hahaha..)
And I will be lying on the bed listening to songs..

This is not a good thing lar..not that i am enjoying myself..but i feel so guilty for not studying..
And yet the laziness lied beneath my soul is so lazy to move away, making me the most stupid lazy bump..

Sob, sob..
Speechless..
They say college life is the most enjoyable one..although i do enjoy, i demand for more..

ASK FOR MORE is wat pepsi says..

~Badminton+Phoebe~

I think creatures living at Jupiter also know that I LOVE badminton more than anything..Girls like to comment that why guys will be enthusiastically attracted to a game where 11guys fighting for a small football, what is so nice about seeing people jumping down from a high dashboard as if they are commiting suicide in the most elegant way, what is so attractive about hitting 10 small "bottles" with a probably 13pounds bowling ball, what is so exciting about 2 normal human beings smashing the shuttlecock on opponent's body, and etc..

Well, although I am a girl, I do not really agree with what they often say. Sports may not be my specialty but my affection towards sport is no less than how the sportsmen treat it as, especially badminton..

BADMINTON is actually not a word in the T9 hp dictionary..(everytime when I am about to type "badminton" in my text msg, it shows "no such word"..sigh!!) My fren used to say me watching badminton because the players are handsome or pretty or I support them due to the same reason as well. However, I think that this is really untrue..(although sumtimes I doubt myself that am I really observing their skills but not how trendy their hairstyle are..)hahaha..well, sumtimes it is just out of my control la please..*wink*

A fren of mine say I am a "pembelot nusa dan bangsa" because I support China in every single game..haha!!But a special thank for her because now I am writing this to prove that how much I love badminton..(and China of course..)haha!!

When badminton is mentioned, who will u think of?

1) Lin Dan?

2) Lee Chong Wei?

3) Taufik Hidayat?

4) Koo Kien Keat and Tan Boon Heong?

5) or whoever that I am not thinking of right at this moment

I pretty love Chen Jin..not many people are aware of the presence of this person because he is still very young(only 22 my god!!) And he is often eliminated before semi-final (for instance the most recent WBC, he is beaten by a Singaporean player)..But his skill of playing is really very good(though uncomparable with world top-ranked player), precise and accurate. The slow-paced but carefully-handled game has always been the mark for him.

Let's give him a great applause!! I will always support him!! *He has the chance of competing with world top-ranked player in next year's Beijing Olympic game!!*

Another player who plays Men's Double is also the favorite of mine..(Supposingly I should mention both because they are playing in pairs..)--Cai Yun and Fu HaiFeng--Everybody knows how well they play and it is useless for me to mention again..Love them!!!

They are the creme de la creme!!

Always support them!!

Thank you..

Seriously,

I feel that it is a must for me to spend my time on this.
Saying thank you to you is really necessary.

Thank you for looking down on me,
never ever thought of me being one of the brightest student.


It is a very sad thing to say that you do not remember my name, or even if you do, you dont normally call me up for questions or what-so-ever.


You only remember my frens' names(the prettier or smarter or students whom their parents play a pivotal role in society)..


I want to thank you because u lead me along the way, and although I am not successful now, I hope I wil be in the future..


For those who are concerned:


Never look down on yourself. U can do everything above people's expectations.


One day when you are successful, stand still in front of the person who looked down on you, tell him/her that you are not a loser!






I guess I am being too emotional at this particular moment..
Because one wil never understand what is the feeling of being ignored frequently..

**Hormone imbalanced perhaps**

hahahaha..

huh..finally a mid sem break!!

finally there cums a 1 week holiday for me after the annoying mid sem examination..

i always wonder why ppl do study everytime, despite there isnt any exam going on. But now, I have finally understood..becoz i became a part of them!!

(i have becum more hardworking eventually..yeah!!)

They say college life is the funniest of all, and I definitely think it is right..Although so many ppl holding books wherever they go, there is still a minor group who will go to de lounge and watch Summer 8 Live Concert, (shouting I Love You, Faye{FIR} in front of the TV) though tomorrow is the first day of exam n the paper is BIOLOGY..

But everything having nasi goreng ayam is not a good thing. I hv fallen sick for N times after going there..sick n recover seems to be a normal thing for each n everyone of us..

I swear to myself that I will enjoy this holiday thoroughly(but I went to Dynamic for books the 2nd day of holiday..sigh!!)

And, I swear to myself that I will not call n sms as I like..I am using my hp credit lik opening pipe water..

Nothing much to say..So I think I will just post sum perasan photos up..(coz I am staying with a very pretty and perasan gal named Tee Pei Sen..haha..)so I am deeply influenced by her..

Life in KTT..

KTT is more well known as Kolej Tangga Tangga according to my fren..
actually it is not as bad as i have thought..
mayb becoz i know lotsa new frens here, n i really enjoy de time i had for almost 1month..(despite bearing with de stress n tension of seeing ppl studying everday)

I dun know why I (n my frens)feel like we have known each other for years, although we juz know them for 3 to 4 weeks only..sitting in the library to talk, laugh and gossip is not a fresh thing for us..at here, i realize that there are still nerds around, who carry books wherever they go..but there are also couples "coupling" around, pakto in the Lecture Hall(this is de best place with air cond..)..haha..

n me n my frens, talk from day to night n night to day..
i feel it is funny n ridiculous to say tt at de first week itself we hav already started to talk bout who is after who..(not a matter of 38 but it is true!!)
now everything is juz following a slower pace and we hv to start studying again, without any further delay..mid sem exam is cuming!!!


Hope that i wont have to turn my head and go when I c sumbody at de corridor..
Hope that i will do well for midsem..
Hope that they will stop gossiping about me n him..WE ARE REALLY CLEAN N CLEAR PLZ!!
Hope that we can laugh more in the library..
Hope everything turns right for U and Me..

This Mr/ Miss VIP..

well, sumthing stupid happened..

Please refer to de comment stated by Anonymous on my 2nd post...

I assume he is a guy, so I better use "he"..

I dun know am i going to c him in KTT next month, but I sincerely hope I do..(juz wan to c who is there to condemn me without leaving a name..)

This Mr VIP, makes me feel so surprised upon his presence. (and then i hv to post sumthing regarding this..) Only my frens know bout this blog, JPA n everything tt happened. N i really cant believe that he is one of my frens..

Again, I juz wan to clarify that my blog is juz for sharing purpose, creating laughters n wasting people's time..haha..who knows sumbody appeared and gave me a very good SHOOT..

kinda disappointed with myself, because my languange is not good enuf n make ppl misunderstood what i meant..but wat to do, sigh!

I am who I am, I am myself.
If u really dun like wat am i saying here, please leave.
Oops, 1 more: Thanks for ur time to repost a comment to me..
I wil still continue to write watever I lik here.

Hope to c Anonymous soon.

Starting coordinate of the disaster..

Haha..got urged by my frens to update my blog..


CLARIFICATION: Not that i didnt bother about updating it, but I have written sumthing,indeed,quite long to be posted. However, who knows it will disconnect when the process of publishing the post took place. My titik peluh is totally gone..Herg!!!


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Ok, new post new stuff..I went to my future college, KTT in Sepang tt day. I have heard my fren saying tt it is a very lousy shoplots and I have mentally prepared to face all sorts of nonsense tt i will meet there later on..But, when I reached there, things dont go the way my fren told me..IT IS EVEN WORST!!!


A brief description:
Ground floor: A minimarket owned by our beloved bumiputra, a canteen(again, Malays), another canteen(also, Malays), a library(dominated by Malays), staffroom(mainly Malay lecturers), Office(Malay principal)..


1st floor: Classrooms..small like hell..those tables n chairs are exactly the same as what i had in Minda Ceria..(Minda Ceria has better equipments and environment though)


2nd floor: apartments..wait, look again..APARTMENTS!!! for who? for students..STUDENTS!!!meaning me...sob sob..first time in life staying on top of my classroom..sounds pathetic right..
Haizzz..after peeping into people's apartment, It is even more scarier..small, messy, dirty, smelly n every obnoxious word tt i can find to describe it..(but not til the extend of being nasty ok..)



Going home with an I-am-dead face..


Tell me, how am i going to suffer there?for 18months!!!not 18days!!!


Seemed that it has been my luck since I was 12..first disgusting skul: SMK Puterijaya..(couldnt even transfer due to the "excellent" management who throws away people's appeal letter..)



second disgusting college: Olympia College..went there for SAM though..juz to waste sum money n intended to learn new stuff..but at last, nothing did cum to me..(dun feel lik condeming this best college again, I hav totally fed up with it!!!)



the third one is this KTT..luckily i went there under JPA..if not I would hav gone to some better place indeed..


Hope my luck does change..I really wan to end up in a prestigious college in India..(although I am pretty sure tt de best AIIMS will not wan a weak student lik me..)


Sigh!

THE LETTER IS HERE..

WOW..
finally i managed to get de letter..
it is an ENORMOUS parcel..with so many things inside..
and the contract..have to sign 3times..n the content IS EVEN WORSE THAN PERJANJIAN PANGKOR..
well, working for them is sumthing that i have known about long time ago..
but the duration is really shocking: 10YEARS!!!


now: 17
after A-level: 19
India medical course: 24
Housemanship: 25
Medical Officer: 28
Working in government sector: 38

oh my god..38-year-old..shit la..i am sooooo old n hv to live depending on a meagre salary given by the government..

sob sob..

ok..i am gonna announce: I AM GOING TO RETIRE OFFICIALLY AT 40!!!

marry a rich engineer, doctor, or 2nd Bill Gates..and enjoy my old-princess life..

"WONDERFUL", huh?

KEPUTUSAN PERMOHONAN BIASISWA PROGRAM IJAZAH LUAR NEGARA (PILN) 2007 JABATAN PERKHIDMATAN AWAM

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Kursus
PERUBATAN
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TAHNIAH
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what i have hoped for long..
finally it CAME!!!
but not ireland..sob sob..
want to start this blog just to share my life from now onwards..
day 1 stepping into A-level course..until de last day of my housmanship..
Hope everything is just fine..n may i receiv de letter by today!!!
yeh!!!