So the longggggg awaiting so-called skip-3days-and-get-more-than-a-week-off holiday is here. Just finished ENT exam ystday and it was, urm, the paper smashed me basically. Just pray hard and hope everything will turn out fine.
Best friends left for Nepal. And at this moment of time I still wonder whether my decision to not go with them is correct. Another upcoming exam in early Nov and I am nowhere near to being prepared. Whole book to read and rmber and I just cant imagine myself sitting in the exam hall waiting for time to pass. *scary*
These 2days are quite screwed up for me so I kinda went into an emotional breakdown. Falling sick, getting the highest temperature that I have never gotten in my life, start preparing for an exam one week prior, mood swings like roller coaster a day before exam, and a screwed up paper. Everything came in a sudden and I think its normal not able to handle it properly.
But I keep telling myself that I am strong.
I can stand disappointment.
There is always a reason as to why things happened that way.
God knows whats best for me.
I am not a person who prays regularly/have strong beliefs in religion/burn incense wood at home. But I noticed that I become more religious now- am still in search of the path to hand myself into the correct religion, but afterall for me there is one GOD in the world and He is just transformed into different forms in different religions.
I believe trusting God is a heart consoling thing. At least there is someone to lead me in my heart.
Gotta take a shower and leave for friend's house. Overnight at her place and attend class mcm budak baik tomorrow. Uffff.
These days I am kinda addicted to the Cari chinese forum. You really get ALOT of information there regarding everything. Can learn alot and enhance knowledge. I always think that girls should know at least a little bit in every field, yea EVERY. Politics, finance, health, photography, travel and etc.
You make your world shines, no one else does.
Best friends left for Nepal. And at this moment of time I still wonder whether my decision to not go with them is correct. Another upcoming exam in early Nov and I am nowhere near to being prepared. Whole book to read and rmber and I just cant imagine myself sitting in the exam hall waiting for time to pass. *scary*
These 2days are quite screwed up for me so I kinda went into an emotional breakdown. Falling sick, getting the highest temperature that I have never gotten in my life, start preparing for an exam one week prior, mood swings like roller coaster a day before exam, and a screwed up paper. Everything came in a sudden and I think its normal not able to handle it properly.
But I keep telling myself that I am strong.
I can stand disappointment.
There is always a reason as to why things happened that way.
God knows whats best for me.
I am not a person who prays regularly/have strong beliefs in religion/burn incense wood at home. But I noticed that I become more religious now- am still in search of the path to hand myself into the correct religion, but afterall for me there is one GOD in the world and He is just transformed into different forms in different religions.
I believe trusting God is a heart consoling thing. At least there is someone to lead me in my heart.
Gotta take a shower and leave for friend's house. Overnight at her place and attend class mcm budak baik tomorrow. Uffff.
These days I am kinda addicted to the Cari chinese forum. You really get ALOT of information there regarding everything. Can learn alot and enhance knowledge. I always think that girls should know at least a little bit in every field, yea EVERY. Politics, finance, health, photography, travel and etc.
You make your world shines, no one else does.
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