Supposedly I should write this post yesterday, i mean last year. 31st Dec 2007.
Basically I dont know how to describe the feeling of now, but there is a surge of blood that runs through my body, wanting me to conclude wat I encountered throughout 2007.
Well, 2007 is the first year I left skul, de skul tt I hated so much. But when I think back now, I dun think I can have wat i am having now without SMK Puterijaya.
Lets make it short and sweet.
Jan 2007: It was the brand-new year, after being a skul leaver. I am no longer a secondary school student who have to wear the maid-like pinaform to school. And I enrolled in a college, doing SAM. Actually I dunno why I chosen SAM at the first place, probably because money plays a pivotal role in my family. My sister gave me a long lecture about my family's financial state after I told her that I wanted to do MUFY in Sunway. Hah, I was too naive that time. It was so not possible for my family to support me financially to step into that "kolej yang berstatus tinggi". So later on I made up my mind to go Olympia, since it is nearer to home and it is considerably cheap.
Feb 2007: Knew a bunch of friends from that college, and sooner or later, I realized that I picked the wrong college. Although the Indian frens that I met are alright, but this college really sucks. Lecturers dont speak proper English, management is having a big problem and etc. Well, I am fed up. What I can do now is wait for my SPM results to be released, and see wat are the choices for me ahead.
Mac 2007: First time in my life feeling successful: I got 12As for my SPM. Perhaps it may be easy for some people, but it is definitely not for me. Uncountable sleepless nights, mental emotions got up to the maximum level, problems with friends, tension and pressure from everybody..... I know I have to bear with it, or otherwise the string is going to break. And I combated it at last, getting cheerful and proud faces from parents especially mummy, and siblings, I felt that everything that I encountered is worthy. Really worthy. Busy photostating certs and results slip, applying for scholarships was what I did for half a month. Ohya, not to forget the exposure programme organised by JPA, Thanks to JPA, I know another bunch of friends and I really learnt many things from de professional medical practitioners. (And experience the labour pain within 0.2m from a pregnant woman)
April 2007: While waiting for the several notices from scholarships boards, I continue attending my SAM classes. But life was too easy for me, attending classes as I want to. Perhaps this is the time I enjoyed my life to the fullest. Received interview announcement from JPA, and I went for it without any high hope. JPA is just not my standard.
May 2007: My birthday! Basically I didnt get any surprise for that, but I think it is a nice birthday experience spending with family. I truely love them.
June 2007: Out of my expectation, I got JPA--medicine in India. I know I am going to spend my whole life to the medical field, curing countless of patients and sleeping with thick scary encyclopedia. Because of this scholarship, I started writing blog. I wanna share my life with everybody, as well as giving myself a place to vomit out dissatisfactions.
July 2007: Started my college life on the 2nd. Orientation week was the nicest of all because I got to know frens from all over Malaysia, and I really appreciate their presence in my life. Stress hasnt overwhelmed me at the beginning, as there is still time for me to chit-chat with my frens downstairs talking nonsense: commenting who is the most handsome guy, the prettiest gal, the most horrible lecturer, and of coz, the new-born couples that pop up every single day.
Aug 2007: Started to be eaten by pressure. Books, revisions, exercises, tutorials..My time for TV and online decreases as I am surrounded by the growth of tension. I started thinking, am I supposed to be here?
Sept 2007: Totally regret with my choice of choosing medicine at the first place. The great force exerted on my brain nearly caused me to break down. Am I a human being, or just an electronic device?
Oct, Nov 2007: Reason of combining two months together is easy--I have nothing to do in my life except for studying. Feeling guilty for not bringing books back home during weekends has already become a constant emotion. I just couldnt control myself from feeling guilty! I couldnt!
Dec 2007: This year is going to end. Classes going on as usual, and I undego a robotic life. Anyhow an interesting incident happened- There was a night at home where I finally say hi to a senior, a senior whom I admire for long. Dont simply think! Definitely not what is passing through ur brain now. Keeping him in my heart is a nice thing, for he is my first idol in 17years of my life. I was even more overjoyed when we chatted for 2hours, and he is just not as cool as what other people commented!!
The anxiety and curiousity for 2008 started. This year I am going to sit for my another major exam--A level, a boarding pass for my entrance in medical faculty. And I know I am going to start another long journey, settling down the problems that I am facing now.
Goodbye 2007.
Welcome 2008.