TWO more to go this week.

Must really say that Taylor Swift is a very talented artist. But I always find someone singing her songs better than she does hahahaha. 

After exam I shall download and compile a whole new collection of my favorite covers. But ufff that level of difficulty when you gotta select the favorite songs ONLY because your old and aged  still functional mp3 player can only accomodate 1GB of songs. And my pinky gotta be multitasking for this coming trip- as a phone+camera+song player+facebook+twitter. 

Planned to study after lunch but now I think I should take a nap after listening to this for FIVE  TEN times. 

Loving him is like driving a new Maserati down a dead-end street
Faster than the wind, passionate as sin ending so suddenly
Loving him is like trying to change your mind once you're already flying through the free fall
Like the colors in autumn, so bright just before they lose it all

Losing him was blue like I'd never known
Missing him was dark grey all alone
Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you never met
But loving him was red
Loving him was red

Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you
Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song
Fighting with him was like trying to solve a crossword and realizing there's no right answer
Regretting him was like wishing you never found out that love could be that strong

Losing him was blue like I'd never known
Missing him was dark grey all alone
Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you never met
But loving him was red
Oh red
Burning red

Remembering him comes in flashbacks and echoes
Tell myself it's time now, gotta let go
But moving on from him is impossible
When I still see it all in my head
Burning red
Loving him was red

Loving him was red :)

waaaa using new app!

lol just wanna try out the new app. good night! :)

November! Time flies.

Ohhhhh maii gawdddd its already November! 2012 is ending next month. Actually I didnt SUDDENLY realise this because I follow Santa Claus on twitter and he kind of countdown ___days to Xmas everyday. These days I am

THEORETICALLY busy

PRACTICALLY free

PHYSICALLY inactive

MENTALLY congested

SOCIALLY awkward

PSYCHOLOGICALLY- well, I think I deserve grade A.

November is such a cheerful month for me compared to Oct, ufff hated Oct 2012. Basically nothing special happened still I am feeling thankful, grateful, and full of appreciation for everything I have. Gained another level of maturity huh? I will be studying halfway and suddenly thought that ehhh, no powercut today, thank God. Or taking a shower feeling grateful that I can have a hot water bath in this cold weather! But my threshold has gone down so low these days- keep having cold clammy extremities and I actually need to wear sockssssssss in the room *omg faint*

So yea, I basically appreciate everything that I have, very very much.

Especially stubborn people who still choose to text me even though I pissed them off so much.

And the girl who is always willing to open up to me about how much she loved, cared, and being hurt eventually. (Yes I will give him a big slap if I happen to see him in the future)

And the other girl who always tolerate all my nonsense, whom I have so many things in common with. We even have the same thing happening to us at the same time! Always! That makes me believe in horoscope even more hehehe.

And the boy who I can always cry/groan/complain about my shoulder ache and stomach ache and period pain to. (Ohya I always wonder how boys respond when they hear the word "period pain", my rank #1 most annoying reply is LOL swt. followed by silence and crows flying over. )

And the long lost friends who suddenly appear on your whatsapp list out of nowhere asking how are you doing, is everything well, miss you so much hun, was just thinking of you. These people make my day better, knowing that you are actually remembered. I love the feeling of being remembered =) And, who doesn't?


And funny conversations go on. Like the one I received yesterday, (we were talking about a common friend getting engaged)

Me: So yea, when is your turn?
X: I will get married when you do. 
Me: You will invite me one right? Haha even if you dont also I will attend. *muka tembok*
X: Sure. We will get married on the same day. 
Me: Owh, invite me to be the bride la now?
X: Yea, why not? 

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Yes, kawan macam ini really make you look at the phone screen and laugh like an idiot.

Till then, time to study commed and drool saliva on the book.

P/S: I am going to North India next month! *sing and dance one more night*

P/S 2: Imma berry addicted to tweeeterrrrrr. More than facebook. How ah. Haih.

Jason Mraz is not an ordinary human being, he is a genius.

Tyler Ward is not an ordinary singer, he is an angel.

Because his voice cures hurt souls, gives people strength to hold on. Not sure whether it is applicable to everyone, but at least for me, yes he is more than just successful. (And thats what singers aim at right? Being able to convey message and heal broken hearts through songs).

Sometimes you get touched not because of the song, but the lyrics is exactly writing what is in your mind.

Feel so broken-hearted the first time I listened to this.

Yea, I wont give up on us.

Home alone day 1.

So the longggggg awaiting so-called skip-3days-and-get-more-than-a-week-off holiday is here. Just finished ENT exam ystday and it was, urm, the paper smashed me basically. Just pray hard and hope everything will turn out fine. 

Best friends left for Nepal. And at this moment of time I still wonder whether my decision to not go with them is correct. Another upcoming exam in early Nov and I am nowhere near to being prepared. Whole book to read and rmber and I just cant imagine myself sitting in the exam hall waiting for time to pass. *scary* 

These 2days are quite screwed up for me so I kinda went into an emotional breakdown. Falling sick, getting the highest temperature that I have never gotten in my life, start preparing for an exam one week prior, mood swings like roller coaster a day before exam, and a screwed up paper. Everything came in a sudden and I think its normal not able to handle it properly. 

But I keep telling myself that I am strong. 

I can stand disappointment. 

There is always a reason as to why things happened that way.

God knows whats best for me.

I am not a person who prays regularly/have strong beliefs in religion/burn incense wood at home. But I noticed that I become more religious now- am still in search of the path to hand myself into the correct religion, but afterall for me there is one GOD in the world and He is just transformed into different forms in different religions. 

I believe trusting God is a heart consoling thing. At least there is someone to lead me in my heart. 

Gotta take a shower and leave for friend's house. Overnight at her place and attend class mcm budak baik tomorrow. Uffff. 

These days I am kinda addicted to the Cari chinese forum. You really get ALOT of information there regarding everything. Can learn alot and enhance knowledge. I always think that girls should know at least a little bit in every field, yea EVERY. Politics, finance, health, photography, travel and etc. 

You make your world shines, no one else does.

Good night, beautiful world.

Post title using SiWon's favorite quote =P

静静的晚上听首老歌再睡吧。记得调去 720P 哦! 

I am emo again why.

The song that I have been listening to for the past few weeks, REPEATEDLY. Ya almost like 4-5 times a day. So sometimes when I get bored of Bruno's voice I listen to Alejandro's version :) But no way will I ever get bored of this song. and the lyrics, yea thats the main part.

I haven't figured out a good title for this post yet, probably because I dont even have an idea on what I am going to write about. When people ask hows life my forever-the-same-answer is Mah like that lor, everyday class study sleep eat. Sometimes I dont understand why am I feeling so not myself, so diffident , so inferior, so disturbed that I wanna hide under my blanket and think of whats wrong. Yea undoubtedly something is unhealthy in my mental counterpart. I can be so vain and confident in front of certain people but everything just seems to disappear once I am back to my own room, sitting on the table facing a screen which never talks.

Shall I define it as loneliness? No its not an accurate term. Am still in search of that kind of persistent optimism which makes you bubbly in front of everyone. That is the kind of people I wanna be, a person who gives positive energy to people around you. Ok geminis are really scary. Their mood swings is hundred times worse than PMS I know. 

Hahahaha actually I am not feeling that bad la at this moment. Because I just got up from bed and am waiting for the heater to heat up so I have to spend my time on something. But the emotional outbreaks that I am encountering this week even surprised myself. I cried when my sister failed( ok yea she passed also I cried), I cried when I watched One Day and some not-meant-to-be-cried-for korean movie, I cried when my close friend shared her problem with me, I cried when everyone asks me about Nepal every freaking day, I cried when someone said he was such a noob not confessing last time, I cried when I finally knew that some rumours back in KTT were actually real and I missed those times badly. I thought a sign of growing up is that you dont handle things with tears again?

Screw the travel part la because from it I came to know that a lot of people really dont understand me. Sometimes you get surprised by how distant you have become. Thats why I appreciate those times I spend with some of my college friends. They do know me.

Listen to the song again la. Roommate's lovely dinner for tonight :D

Thanks to PPS for disallowing all my Taiwanese shows.

PPS在印度区域收不到台湾节目了，所以我们吃饭时看康熙来了和大学生了没的习惯也就不了了之啦！最近开始用非诚勿扰来取代，有点听不惯太正统的华语哈哈。这个节目在大陆一向都很火红，但是一集要花1小时半才看完，很浪费时间！而且好像有点假，这世上真的有那么多的一见钟情吗？还是纯粹是为了节目效果？

Ok 重点好像摆错了。我想说的是看了非诚勿扰后又有人介绍我看中国好声音 The Voice of China，节目宗旨不错，单凭歌声选人，撇除了很华人的一个概念：歌手一定要有特定水准的外表才会红。

很久都没被一把声音吸引住了。第一次听这个人唱歌就好喜欢！搞到现在每天都在重复听~ 样子长得普通，坦白讲其实在华语音坛真的很难会被注意到的。Anyway 希望他可以越唱越好，支持！:)

The Voice of China

Abortion: Mother or the Baby's right?

A very interesting case was discussed in Community Med posting today, which has created chaos among ourselves judging where is the grey zone.

25years old lady G2P1L1, literacy level 2nd PUC (equivalent to STPM/A-levels/SAM/IB etc) came with the history of passing large clots per vagina since 2days. After eliciting a detailed history we found out that she went to a clinic which is like miles away from the usual hospital where she attends her regular antenatal checkups, and consulted a nurse for abortion. (She is currently 7weeks pregnant) So the nurse gave her some medication and she consumed it, after which she develops pain abdomen and starting passing blood PV. (She comes now due to unstopped blood flow and symptoms of anemia)

When we asked why she decided to abort the fetus, she said its because her first child (girl, 4 years old) is currently preparing entrance exam for pre-school. Hence she thinks its difficult to manage a pregnancy now. We stared at each other for around 10min trying to understand what stupid mentality is this. 

The question arises here, does she have the right to do so?

Her husband is also an educated person and SE status of the family is high (Indian standard). Definitely they can afford to have another kid but the thing is they chose to abort. We cant categorize this under "failure of contraceptions" as an indication for MTP (medical termination of pregnancy) because from the history, she says that her copper-T expired and she got it removed, after which immediately she got pregnant. Meaning no contraception was adopted during intercourse. She then said that she wants a planned pregnancy after 5 months. Which means, if she gets pregnant coincidently within these few months, she will go after the same method of termination.

Hypothesis:

1. She really meant her reason. 

2. One girl is enough for the couple.

3. They came to know that this fetus is a baby girl.

Coming from a religious background (my lecturer says that is a hotspot for illegal abortion) and with all the information we have in hand, this is most likely to be the cause. 

Female foeticide is a very rampant thing in India. Even though the doctors are told to seal their mouths about the sex of foetus, still a lot of doctors and paraclinical staffs are going after this. For money honestly. Some parents will pay alot to the doctor just to know the sex.  Foetal sex determination and sex selective abortion by medical professionals has today grown into a Rs. 1,000 crore industry (US$ 244 million). 

They use names of the God or Goddess to inform the parents, for eg God of XXX has sent you a baby. Getting known that the baby is sent by a Goddess is a very sad thing for the family it seems.

Or they will simply draw G letter on the top of scan representing girl. 

So, do the parents have the right to stop a fetus heart from beating? Seeing a cardiac movement or feeling the kicking of baby in their wombs, are still not sufficient for them to appreciate the arrival of new life. So pathetic isn't it?

A son is often preferred as an "asset" since he can earn and support the family; a daughter is a "liability" since she will be married off to another family, and so will not contribute financially to her parents. Often, when the mothers disobey the husband’s family decision to abort the female fetus and report it to the authorities, the suits are ignored or given a light sentence and the pointed finger targets the mother for bearing girls and disobeying the family’s decision to abort the child. She may even lose her job, exposed to constant death threats, and be left with unresolved cases. In addition, others who give birth to girls are prone to violence and even if she is able to give birth to the baby girls, the family is likely to not report the birth and even murder them.

{Italics words are all quoted from wikipedia}

A very questionable issue right? Some couples tried for years to conceive, while some just kill their babies so cruelly. I personally still think that they have the right to survive forgetting their viability. Its a human's life, how can they be so particular about the gender?!