I really dont know how to blog using Iphone.

So I chose to come online. Despite having thousand pages left to be studied.

Thank God I still have this small space to blog.

I am being very emo today God knows why. Probably because I havent been crying for so long and my eyes are urging some tears out. So I kinda sobbed when I was reading an artist's blog. He has spoken about dreams and how he felt after moving out a first step of starting fashion business in Tokyo. Wasnt his best post I would say, because he writes so awesomely. But it really did touch me as I was thinking- yea I am one of those people on the way chasing dreams too.

This path is difficult. I know since the first day. ( I am writing in Mandarin because I cant adjust my mind when I am listening to Chinese songs while blogging. )

我在听五月天的《诺亚方舟》，英文译为 Noah's ark, 就是一艘把人们带去另个世界的船，当世界末日时。

很多人不知道为什么我会那么爱这首歌，因为我第一次听到的时候就哭了。现在是第二次。

终于没有更多的明天要追。

听到这句歌词会想哭的人，应该活得不太开心吧？

有点累了吧？人每天有读不完的书，做不完的工，想不完的事。每个早上都在想今天是为了什么而起床，为了什么而生活。如果没有明天了，那该多好啊。每个人都会说应该把握和珍惜每一天，但是有多少个人做到了？

看到很感动的那篇网志也是阿信写的。下几世如果认识他我好想问他，是不是每个追梦的过程都是辛苦的，为什么人不能开心，轻松的去追梦？为什么是人追梦，不是梦来找我们？

2011 剩最后三天了。我记得去年说过，我会开开心心地过这一年，所以今天是2011最后一次不开心。

今年我回家过年了，很开心。

今年我从医院学到了很多，也很开心。

今年我才知道学校里很多人都认识我，原来在医学院考80% 是件很了不起的事。

今年我生日去了老人院喂他们吃蛋糕，很感动。

今年我去了DUBAI，是我2011最难忘的7天。

今年圣诞去派食物给穷人，贫穷把他们变得比人更贪心，自私。

有个朋友一直觉得我对自己要求很高，时常都想我爱自己多一点。

好想告诉他，我今年很爱我自己。

明年2012，我22岁。

世界末日不会带来恐惧，对于未知的明天，我们要有希望和勇气！

So it's June already!

Hehe finally done with exam few weeks back, and there wont be any for the upcoming 5months yay! Yea just cant help feeling excited about it since I study in a horrible school which RELUCTANTLY gives us 10days off in a 1.5 years duration phase. Haih India.

Cant wait for July because it is full of plans <3 Malaysia yayyyyyy!

Btw OMG Mysore has become famous for the first time thanks to the wild jumbos. The news is even on BBC I heard :P And I gotta thank them too because they gave us a day off :)

(Hopefully next time some tigers/lions are escaped then the government will declare a week off)

Actually I wanted to blog about the tumor I saw in OT last Tuesday. But I forgot where I put that picture at @.@ Luckily I tweeted about it!

http://twitpic.com/589nor nah this one. The cyst grew within the right ovary, there are few minor cystic lesions on the left ovary, and hyperplastic endometrium on uterus forming a leiomyoma(fibroid). Belongs to a 40yrs old lady. AWESOME-st cyst because we could really appreciate the vascularity on the cystic surface! Exactly like what we see in angiography.

Yeala I admit this is the only thing I like about JSS Hospital :P

Yalah I know I should study but I am not.

Cant study during weekend because of muscle cramps. Haizz.

Had an awesome spicy dinner at juniors' house warming just now. Hmm nice and well-labelled food. The mutton was so yummy~! (even though most of the dishes were cooked by their maid lol)

Hmm but one thing, your religion teaches you not to go against what is told, but didnt they teach you to respect other religions also? Ohh well yea Malaysia is a multi-racial country so I suppose ALL OF US ARE OBLIGED TO RESPECT THE CULTURE AND RELIGION OF OUR OWN RACES RIGHT?

We are so pantang about pork/pig/babi because in Islamic context it is haram. So yeah fine we should help them to wash all utensils that might have been contaminated with Chinese Corner food. (because it is non-halal)

But that doesnt mean you can think yourself as more superior than other religions to actually serve BEEF in front of INDIANS. Indians who are VEGETARIAN. and yes, I am talking about Indians originating from the same country as you and me. M-A-L-A-Y-S-I-A.

And not forgetting to mention that those dishes containing BEEF are not labelled. For the information of others some Buddhists are strictly not allowed to eat beef as well.

Can you please think in their shoes if they do this to you? Not that we dont mind ok, its just that we are too lazy to mind.

And another website I just discovered,

http://leggingseksi.blogspot.com/2011/04/orang-kafir-kata-legging-itu-seksi.html

Their slogan is: LEGGING ITU LUCAH. Wear it if you wanna look naked in public.

And the best-est part is

HANYA WANITA PORNO PAKAI LEGGING DI TEMPAT AWAM. ADAKAH ANDA SEBEGITU?

Owhh missed out this.

Yea I wanted to say that I miss ZiXuan so much already! Eunice told me that she is hospitalised again due to high-grade fever and LRTI. Pity her, had to take up all the pain for injections and asthmatic exacerbations.

Ya so it also reminds me of why I chose this path and make my own life so tough. Sometimes we just need some stimulant to reach that threshold of motivation. Is like all those cases I saw in hospital. How amazing life is and how God has created all of us. Like my lecturer said today: God has created 2 humerus so that we can compare and spot the abnormalities.

And not to forget the tiny human I saw in USC scan. 20th week anomalies scan where we can already make out the structures of the baby and his/her heartbeat!! I have to believe that life is just more than wonderful :)

Sobs it's summer again.

The weather is freaking hot these days *sobs*. Return me my winter!! Somehow started missing those moments where I would cuddle in my comforter while the alarm clock keeps yelling. Because Mr Alarm(India brand) is jealous of me being so intimate with my bed hehehe. And everyday(yes, I swear) I wanna wake up at 6.30am because apparently it makes me feel fresher, but I am such a lazy bugggg. Keep telling myself "its ok another 5 minutes" and when I wake up its 7 plus already isykk. Useless betul.

My life is not as interesting as those who have great opportunity to tour around. Routine continues, yeah a freaking boring one. Ohh the only interesting incident in this week is that we celebrated Cheng and MeiYee's birthday together. Started talking after we reach-->during dinner-->after dinner-->till they want to close the shop-->they already closed the shop(yea we were standing right in front of their closed shop and continue with our chats. Eventually everyone gotta squeeze into SzeKin's car. Like 8 of us in an Alto whose capacity is hardly bigger than Kancil.

Juniors are coming so more to join us I assume :)

In the bus with Varsha. Since Radio posting hardly takes an hour/day, we gotta do steam bath in the bus. Whooaaa I think the juniors 10 years younger than me will enjoy an air-conditioned bus by the time they attend postings =) So meanwhile camwhore abit lah hehe.

Psychiatry OPD. Curi-curi taken this picture when Dr Rajesh wasn't around. He is a psychopath eeeee :S

Awhh my hair grows long already now. Tak sampai 2 months pun.

Tmrow is a Saturday. OMG saturday means got patho class and saturday's patho class means that weirdo will come and that weirdo will come means I have to be the "last bench first girl". Ok this is supposed to be an inside joke from Vaishnavi =)

It's time to wipe my dusty blog.

Hmmm actually I dont have any updates to share about. Basically my life is pretty boring. And I dont know why I am SO x10000 tired everyday. 8 hours of sleep seems to be insufficient, maybe something to do with my REM and NREM sleep I guess :D

So now I am in Psychiatry posting. Previously I used to hate that HOD so much because he keeps talking on the stage even though we have put up a very sengsara face staring at him. And apparently after a week of attending posting, I realized he is the MOST NORMAL STAFF in that department *applause* You seriously cant imagine how crazy/weird/depressed/schizophrenic the other staffs behave.

And I think I have become like them too :( Because I have hallucination that I have done the work but apparently I didnt. So another week to go and I am done with this crazy department.

Ohya 2 more days to Chennai trip. Bekah kept asking me why I want to go to that place for so many times. (Its the 2nd time in this 6months lol). Hmm with scorching sun and stinky odour. And not forgetting that 8-9 hours of bus journey.

So my friend and I are hunting for swimsuits now =)) That's like the best thing that is happening to me in this week. {This is supposed to rank num 2 if they are giving us a day off for Swamiji's birthday tmrow *big sobs*}

My books are as dusty as my blog now so I think its time to polish it. (I think I say this to myself everyday LOL)

Bed time now after coming online to halau someone to sleep. Some people just cant change their bad habit sleeping at 4 everyday =.="

Good night peeps!

P/S: Chris Medina rocks!

So as you see my blog doesnt come in a flow. The flight of idea is so fast that it is incompatible with my typing speed. This is a symptom of mania.

And my comprehension sucks like hell. I like to stop wherever I want to. This is a symptom of schizophrenia.

So HI to all you have crazy friend =P

Brand new start.

Fresh from Malaysia yeah~with the odour of Msia's wind blending with AirAsia cabin!

*ok actually already washed off since last week*

Had a wonderful CNY celebration back in Malaysia. Really salute myself for having such a courage to bunk classes+postings for 10days. And the feeling was superb abandoning all my troubles and worries on India's land then cabut balik home. Awww I miss home already!

Basically i just informed a few friends that I was gonna be back and intended to meet them before I left Msia again. (Ohh but eventually someone becomes too rich this year so she celebrated CNY in China and decided to come back only on the day I leave--so as a punishment NO GLEE FOR HER *KEKE EVIL GRIN*

Watched "I Love HK" with family on the 1st day of CNY. Look at the crowd. People nowadays prefer cinema to open house :)

Using Nokia 5800 Express Music to camwhore will make you blind. They should do something with the horrible flash.

*hehe* spot the difference.

Someone please teach me how to resist this.

Famous Ha Chai Rojak @ Teluk Intan

And last but not least the idiots who paid for autopay at Pavilion but sat in the car and chatted for an hour before exiting. The most embarrassing thing was those cars which followed us behind at the exit and we had to keep giving hand signals asking them to reverse. Who says only smart people go to med school LOL.

You cant blame me for getting depressed because all I have to complete before going back to Malaysia next is those things printed on this list.

Guide:

1. Look at the last row.

2. Focus on the word "Anaesthesia"

3. Read horizontally and count how many upcoming postings I have.

4. Congratulate me on the day the word "CM" ends.

Till then, Happy Chap Goh Mei and Happy Belated Valentine's.

Yayyyyyyyyy tmrow =)

Finished my exam yesterday hehe. Didnt really screw up but sort of. Ok who cares CNY cookies are obviously more important than my internals :P

(But still deeply worried about that mad guy complaining about me to the principal. Haizz cross my fingers and hope everything turns out alright)

Was watching PS I LOVE YOU for the second time after reading the book twice. Just cant help feeling touched and shed tears *oh no*. And also the youtube video my friend sent me yesterday, regarding a guy who didnt give up on his fiancee even she suffers from a horrible brain damage. (==> on my facebook)



Dont really like Hilary Swank. Yea maybe is her mouth prob. And her way of talking lol. Yet I repeatedly watch this movie because it is simply.too.awesome.



Hilary Swank and Gerald Butler. Or precisely Gerry and Holly Kennedy.

Think I am gonna watch this again next month.

P/S: Jeffrey Dean Morgan is hot. I mean the different types of hotness from Brian Austin Green. Let me classify it next time! =P

5 more days.

Super anticipated to go back home this time. 5 more days to go yay, and 2 more pracs exam haih.

Basically 3rd term pracs are craps. I mean total craps. Yea I know I cant be expecting easy questions to be asked, but they cant ask us things that we are GONNA STUDY IN THE FUTURE right. *got brain but dun wan to use*

And I am so sick of getting insulted in hospital for things that are not our mistakes! Drag us to the hosp everyday for 3hours but teach in 30min. Whats the point someone tells me please! And when we dont go they say we are not interested, useless, dumb ass that are so not gonna pass final exam.

The worse thing is, they expect us to attend classes when exam is going on. Meaning that we gotta wake up early in the morning, crawl to 8am class and then posting and then sit for exam in an exhausted state. Oh come on. They just enjoy torturing us mentally =(

And I am not gonna say how bad exam goes. Because when they want to fail you no matter how much you studied you will end up not being able to pass. Thats their mentality. Owhhhh why am I stucked at this place!! (ok please let me say "bloody place" at least for once)

Ok 2 more postings and I am not gonna see their faces. And I will get my self-declare 10 days off from this hell.

-exam mode- Ila.

Ehhh this is the 201st post..

Ok I admit that I am updating my blog because I have nothing better to do now. So sick of books. Sick of seeing chapters by chapters. Sick of throwing everything into my brain and, hopefully, permanently storing it. But at the same time I am sick of making blunders too. And yes, WOO FUI BEE is sick of all the expectations out there. *haizz life*

Had a pretty great meal yesterday to welcome 2011. Dinner buffet at a 4-stars hotel. Food was yummy, ambience was fine too. But there were 2 ang-mohs who keep staring at us whenever we go and take food. Maybe because we went too frequently. (And obviously deep down they are wondering "whats so nice with the food out here".

Yalah of course la you all are rich people ma. Unlike us poor school kids who hardly spend on food.

And after food was internet session!Phone calls and chatting and skyping and replying msges. Marathon =) Heard the tanjung girls voices for the 1st time in I-dont-rmber-how-many-years already. And skyping with Shirley.[I think the last time we skyped was, erm, 2 years back?]
Yea, started missing Puterijaya ALL OF A SUDDEN. Didnt expect this to happen OMGGGG. Like how often we used to say that I DIE ALSO DONT WANT TO GO BACK TO KTT, and everyone end up missing it soooooooooo much :(

Haven't really thought about my new year resolution. I remember having one last year. Like a list of 20 must-do things in 2010. Ok its time to scroll back and read what silly stuff I have written :P

Will summarize that in next post!