Job!

Life is as busy as usual because I am burdened with tonnes of works. Registering patients, assisting doctor, bringing patients from the ward, do round as usual routine and etc. Actually I am quite contented with my job as I really get to learn a lot of things.(currently memorizing the uses of each eye drops, always get confused between nevanac and patanol lol XD) But sometimes I feel angry and irritated by my own mistakes, a lot of small tiny mistakes that cause a very big problem to the clinic and patients. For example wrong biling(which means that I have to pay back patient's medication using my HARD-EARNED salary) but thank God this hasnt happened to me so far haha. Or always forget where to send the documents to(meaning that patients cant claim from their insurans, AND EVERYBODY STARTS FINDING WHO TO BLAME).

And I know what EFFICIENT and SYSTEMATIC means--great applause to Eunice, my lenglui mother-to-be colleague. She actually notices the difference between sending 1 file to doctor and 2.(because the 2 files are information for 2 subsequent patients) She says doctor gets confused easily if I am to give him everything one short. I was like WTH. Got difference meh?!?!?!
No wonder she gets such a good pay lol XD

Days pass by very fast, I'd like to describe it as LIGHTNING. Maybe because I have so many things to do at once so I dont really realize that time actually passes LOL. Haha I like Minako so much. She works as a japanese translator in hospital who always introduce patients to us. Maybe one day I will learn Japanese from her if both of us are free(which is kinda impossible)

How unbelievable it is that you this TAI SIU JEH actually started working for 1month!
**Quoted from CCHui**

Gambate!!I will work harder!!

P/S: If anybody has problems with eyes/ trying to look for a good ophthalmologist, try to look for Dr Cheong FM at Gleneagles Intan Medical Center KL. (He is really damn good at cataract surgery, pterygium, I&C)

Stepping out for something different

I will start working on Monday, I mean WORKING. Unbelievable, huh? I always wanted to work, but my wish is always blocked by alot of things happening around me. No time-lah, lazy-lah, cant find a suitable job-lah and etc etc.

But surprisingly I found something suitable for me. A clinic assistant at Gleneagles Intan Medical Centre KL. Precisely, an opthamology clinic conducted by Dr Cheong FM. He gave me a very good+deep impression from day 1 because I din expect that he is the one who replied all my e-mails that perhaps disturbed his precious time. Normally what we see is that reply letters or e-mails are usually written by assistant or whoever is it except for the doctor himself. Is every doctor having good manner?I cant be sure on that, but definitely Dr Cheong is.

The interview is basically about why I want to be a doctor, rather than why I applied for this job. But I didnt reach the answer he expected, so what he replied me was: Maybe you are not up to the level of maturity in answering this question. Embarrassed. Went to the clinic again yesterday after receiving an e-mail from him which offers me the post. He was on-leave for the whole week so I have to go to catch up with those works before he comes back to Malaysia. Thank you lovely Eunice for teaching me with 100% patience.

Gotta start studying on eye anatomy I guess, definitely I dont want to be embarrassed by those Dr/Datuk/Datin patients who will shoot me with alot of questions. Dr having 2 surgery on Mon, but I guess all works are well prepared by Eunice. Tuesday will definitely be a nightmare for me because Eunice is not around, leaving only me and a girl who previously worked in this clinic and now coming back for only 2weeks. Hope things go smoothly. No complaints from patients please!!

Went for dinner with Say Li yesterday plus a few kilometres of pasar malam walk(It was raining).Supposedly was a farewell dinner by Say Li and I with Shirley because she is leaving to NY on Monday. But I think she was busy so she din turn up.(Fong fei kei as always XD). Shirley, all the best in ur future undertakings. I know you can do well in the field you like, because you just simply have the talent to speak out loud. We are friends since Form1, 5years already-lah! Still remember last time you always bring 3 bottles of 1.5L water or 6bottles of 500mL in a white bag to school. Haha, and you are always walking with a water bottle by your side. I have already forgotten how I knew you, think is not through some special incidents right? Just remember that you transferred from SMKPP on the 2nd or 3rd week of F1. Then we started talking and becoming friends, and my parents just like you LOADS!! No matter you can see this post or not, I just wanna say:

Wei ya, I mm seh tak you la. Since you are going there for degree means you wont come back Malaysia anymore right?I miss all those times we had in school-laughing, crying, shouting, arguing, and so many more that perhaps I wont forget for the rest of my life. I will always remember you in my heart, for you being a best friend that we spent so much time together. All the best again, take care, love you!

Have to change the mood, because my lou gong zai is coming to Malaysia today!!Love him more that anything else.

Back!!

I am finally back!!!
Actually I should apologize bcoz I am supposed to be back a few days ago, i.e Friday after coming back from that idiotic camp. But I am too lazy to update my blog (have to type ma..so tiring..)

Actually I have thousand words to comment on my graduation day and the camp that took 5 of my precious holidays. Hope the force be with me and I am diligent enough to exercise my fingers soon!!

Went for the 5-hours ceramah for driving today. So bored!! But luckily I saw 1 lengzai there!! Hahahahaha.. How lengzai? Very lengzai. How to define lengzai? Lengzai means lengzai. Small eyes like JJ, sharp nose like those gorgeous Russian ladies, etc etc.. In conclusion, HE IS REALLY LENGZAI LA!!(Abit of Taiwanese star Ruan Jing Tian, geng!)

I am going to attend an interview at Gleneangle Intan Medical Center tomorrow, for the post of a Clinic Assistant. Hope that I can make it!! Actually my aim is just to gain experience in the medical field, because this job requires an excellent communicating skill and a lot more. Update soon ya!! Anyhow, even though I dont get this job, I will apply for attachment in some hospitals.


I will never stop myself from achieving my dreams, no matter how tiring and tough the process is!!

FREE!!!!

I am free!!
I am officially graduated from KTT!!!
I am so happy!!
I am lacking of words to express my feeling!!!

Have a visit on my friendster or facebook profile to know about my graduation day..

Unpredictable waveform

Huh!Finally finished with P3. It sucks actually because me this careless girl didnt see the part (ii) of that vector question, meaning that I nearly lost 6marks to the respective CIE Mat Salleh. Great applause to myself.

Anyhow I managed to grab the last 1minute to do that question. Really wonder how I could stay calm to do that question without using a small bit of my brainpower. All conquered by my nerves I think. Hope I can do well for Stats paper next Fri.Pray hard for me.

Top in the world list is out. Kinda sad because I wasnt one of the 15 genius that got Top in the world for Maths. Actually I didnt feel any surprise when I first know about the list until this scenario appears to me.

Haziq: Hey Pb congrats!!
Pb: Huh?What are you talking about?
Haziq: Dont fake la!!Top in the world right?
Pb: Nola I din get.
Haziq: Really? TIPU!!!
Pb: @$^$#@$%%$#*

I hate people for having high hopes on me. I hate people for expecting me to get something impossible. I hate to make people feel that I can do everything. I hate people who think that I am so great! My dear, I am not that good. Maybe sometimes I can do very well but it doesnt mean that I can achieve what people expect me to do. The feeling of sadness starts to overwhelm me for the whole day after that. I am not Milton ok!!! Anyway I am still very happy that my darling yys got Top In Malaysia for Physics. She deserves it muackss!!

Only until yesterday that I feel that I am so loved. Many people actually know that I care about this A2 exam, so their phone calls and messages reach me before my exam.Thanks JH for your precious RM2 message from HK. Thanks for still remembering when am I sitting for exam even though you are so busy with tonnes of work. Thanks CH for your phone call from Poland. It warms my heart and boosts my confidence. Not even once you missed wishing me for exam since I know you, You really made your promise, I know you are always with me no matter where you are. Thanks mummy for all the nagging and phone calls. I dont feel any pain and bitterness of suffering through all this hard time when I think of you. I love you all. (I know Murugs is praying for me as well, just that he didnt msg me because I didnt reply his message. So sorry I dont know how much is it to send a message to Russia)

Its time for me to study again. Yeah finally tonight can use the RM300 duit terkecek to eat kao-kao with Andrew they all! Hope exam finishes asap so I can go eat the most well-known Fo-Tiao-Qiang in Sepang!

"Slow like your daaaughter..."

My daughter and her bro..

Abstract love and care nurturing to lil tortoise..

P/S: Finally gotten my IELTS results, not a good one indeed just band7.5.(meaning that I really have to work harder to improve my english!) *Lousiest scorer on Earth*


*GREATLY RECOMMENDING: WHERE RAINBOWS END by Cecilia Ahern

Pig-Cow

There will be an enormous change observed in me from today onwards. Change from a pig to a cow.

I was a silly little pig who wasted water and electricity at home for the past 7days, undergoing the life and routine as a pig, sleeping at 2am waking up at 12pm. This kind of life is exactly what I want. Wakaka this shouldnt come out from me. Even my friend asked: Since when you bcum so lazy?

Silent.
No acceptable excuse.

After a short 1week break which followed the long war journey of AS, I have to go back to the world most lousy college. Routine continues.

• Wake up at 7.50am if my class is at 8am. (I know this is what guys normally do, but please forgive me. Maybe a slight of testosteron is working on me.)
• Go to the library for newspaper. Yes, you have to "fight" for the newspaper which usually come later than what we students expect.
• Lunch at the horrible miniature cafe. Same dishes everyday: They fry chickens with surplus of oils. They use the yellowish kunyit to cook vege and fishes which I have never ever tried(no guts to) in my life. They use the same fried rice to serve people for dinner. They do this, and they do that. Kinda unbelievable that I manage to survive for 1year under that kind of conditions.
• Start studying and try to understand new things by myself. Yeah, this is a must. Nobody doesn't do this in my college. Everybody depend on themselves especially in studies.
  
• Study
• Study
• Study

That is my life
which I have to encounter
for another 6months,
180days,
4320hours,
259200minutes,
15552000seconds.





Oh yes, the clock is moving.

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Call me an ADULT!

Wakaka. So "syok" the feeling of being surrounded by cool stuff that I like and which I dont have to spend money on. So ss+perasan+l*ly.

My Chocoberry birthday cake from Secret Recipe. Thanks to my mummy and jiejie.

*New Watch*
My dream MCKY bag!!!Still cannot believe that it is under my bed now..

My dear monkey. Sorry because his eyes got prob so cannot look directly to the camera.

Cute but elegant bag from my sisters-XC, Feeyonar, Nikki, etc etc..
Haha never know he this kind of da nan ren knows how to choose girls shirt. Nice shirt. (Ignore the red ugly pants please)

*And not forgetting the "invisible" present from Jun Horng. Visit http://youroldbean.blogspot.com. The entry about cats. Thank you so much ya!

I am finally an adult.
I live on this earth for 18years.
How I went through these days?
I dunno.
Forget the past, and look forward!

I am 18!

Kinda unbelievable that me this childish little girl has finally turned 18. Indirectly meaning that I am old. *sob sob*

It was a normal and peaceful night where I went classroom, as usual, to study for my Math paper which is supposed to be 2days later. Then, Sherlyn text and asked me to go down for a walk, claiming that her mood wasn't good because she was scolded by Datin as she couldn't manage to reach the cut-off point for trial. UNDOUBTEDLY, I went down anxiously because she sounded so stressful and depressed. We were walking and talking together until I saw XiaoChien and Variant who were walking downstairs as well. Actually I should have suspected something because both of them rarely walk downstairs at night. They joined us so we walked together to the dustbin area.

And the most stupid thing happened. They started saying how nice and round the moon that night was. So UNDOUBTEDLY I looked up again. Immediately a bunch of people walked from back singing birthday song. I was so stunt with the sudden incident, to the extend that me this stupid idiot asked Variant some nonsensical questions. Below is our dialogue:

Me: Eh Variant whose birthday-ah? Variant: OMG!Yours la!!

Imagine how shocked was I at that instant! Okay the next moment started with suan-s and embarrassment. I didnt know whose brilliant idea was that to ask Ming to carry the cake to me. The worst part was that they even asked us to freeze our motion to take picture. Luckily his face didn't turn red, neither did mine. Wakakakakaka.

Then we just eat cake and chat for a while. I knew something bad is going to happen, birthday bash I mean. When Andrew came near me, I quickly ran away yet I couldn't escape from the bash. Please-lah he is the champion for men 400m k!! Again I am so curious to know whose idea is that. The saddest thing was everybody ran away when I walked near them, as if I was a ghost!!

Yala cannot blame them also. I was bashed with the mixture of eggs, orange-flavored toothpaste, EXPIRED mayonnaise, and some unidentified substances. It smells like VOMIT. Now I can understand how a person feels when the person next to him/her vomited on him/her body. Yucksss I cant forget the smell until now.

But my papa ayam is the saddest case indeed. I had a big physical fight with him until he fell down and hurt his knee. It was bleeding some more. Die, his girlfriend will definitely come after me. Haha.

I sacrificed my newly-bought shirt because of the bash. Because my pure white shirt becomes ORANGE!! Thanks to Ming for choosing that toothpaste. But anyway I enjoyed it alot, despite the fact that we forgot to take group picture. (I only have the awkwardest picture of Ming and I standing together, OH MY GOD!)

Thank you so much for the bash my dearest friends. What I could smell that night was only the smell of love and sweetness.

This is for you all: Muackss.

Distorted face.

Can you recognize who is this? Bingo!It's me!
I'm recently playing Face Warp..
Wakakaka..

FOS

FOS= Free of Stress

Finally exam is finished, meaning that I am heading to another part of A-level. A higher one. A tougher one.

I was deeply exhausted, depressed, and also disappointed over my performance in AS for the past 1month. I guess I flunked my chemistry practical, which honey says its impossible to get A for it. Yup, I totally agree with her now. Sometimes I tend to think of what I was thinking about during exam, because I am so used to coming out with stupid theories and answers which Professor(Yong Yau) will laugh at me when I tell him. This is the difference between the brain structures, I guess.

Ok I must seperate this part from my overall post. Exam is just a minor part of my life. Even though I didn't do well, I am still glad that I get a chance to sit for the exam, unlike those victims who suffer so much in ChinaQuake, especially the orphans.

____________________________________________________________________

This would definitely be a very long post as it has been a long time since I last submitted a post. I am still trying very hard to upload a song here, a song which I would like to share with everybody I know. (Hope she knows that I am deeply in love with her song, although I know it is impossible)

1 year students are leaving, in fact today is the last time I get to see them before they fly. Kinda sad actually. Friendship is a very strange thing. It comes so naturally, yet it seems to be going away soon. Sigh. College will be so damn quiet without Hao Chii's voice, Chok's story, the Dota gang's shoutings, "zen me ban" and "wu niang" 's syndrome of Klinefelter Disease. (Extra X-chromosome on a guy i mean). There are so many of them whom I will definitely miss especially Kean Seng-our mummy. Lets hope Daddy Alex will find us a new cheerful mom, but we promised to leave an empty space beside Alex when we take pictures during birthday celebration. Then we will upload and send him the picture so that he can add his head in to complete the family portray. Wakakakaka.

Hope pre-A2 does not clash with their departure date. I promised so many people to go airport that day!! Sometimes it is so hilarious to think back what happened for the past 1 year, about how much I hated that college, about how stressful the life there is, and so many other things. Life wouldnt have been so exciting and enjoyable without them. And yet they are leaving. Perhaps some days after 5years I will meet them back in hospital-as doctors. Pray hard that I can still recognize them by that time!!

I was still thinking to farewell with Muruga yesterday night, despite everything that happened between us for the past 12months. The plot is so dramatic when I think back about it, but everything that want to go away has left. What remains is only the memory and happiness that is carved in my heart. Just wanted to tell him that no matter what he did(right or wrong), I always treat him as my friend and I hope him to think the same way. Thanks for loving me before. And all the best in your future undertakings.

They entered my life, leaving footsteps of joy and sorrow, then leaved. It is always sad to be apart, but they are always in my heart.

To all my Indonesia, Poland and Czech bound friends: I am so lucky to get a chance to know you. Hope you will be successful in life and come back being a well-known doctor!

Relationship with friends.

Erm, for me this topic means relationship with friends. But for the one of the characters in this situation, love-life should be a more appropriate topic.

Ok, I am going to tell a real story which happens on me recently(Kinda unbelievable coz I dunno how I got myself involved in this kind of situation). Sigh.

A and B were like strangers last time. B is a very rumour-prone guy who has been involved in all kinds of rumours in college. However, I forgot how A and B get to know each other, and I forgot how also, that both of them can become so close until the max extend of friends(not more that tt). Rumours start to spread like how wind blows when they appear together in the library, discussing bout some phy or bio questions. Yeah library. LIBRARY!!Can you believe that?!

And there appears a girl, C. She is a fren of A and a good fren of B. When the rumour reaches her, she starts to treat A differently. Differ in the sense of not greeting A when she meets her at the corridor, and abit of ignorance is observed.

-The End-

I am A. Sigh. I really dont know what wrong thing that I have done. I am afraid that C might jealous of what is happening. Perhaps she likes B only she'll do things like that. Any other possible explanation for that?

I dun wan another rumour saying that I fight with C for B. Its so complicated. I rather not know B at the first place.

Sigh-again.

yEAh!

-Home Sweet Home-

1. My trial is completely gone!Sigh, I didnt do well. One more week to go, Gambate Pb!!

2. I am going to study like a nerd later although it is 12.30am! Omg, I am bcuming a study machine. Stupid A-level, Hate bio!

3. Finished my mechanics paper today. Feel a lil bit relaxed and suddenly tot of many things that happened to my since college started. One conclusion: I fall down, stand up, and continue walking.

4. Discussed about a nonsensical topic with a friend. I feel Adam and Hawe came from different planets and guess what reaction I got from him? Only one word- RIDICULOUS! How dare you say that to me. Sob.

Today is mummy's birthday! Happy birthday to her. Maybe I will not be here to celeb birthday with her next year. Start to appreciate the time I can spend with my family. Gotta come back from college next week and attend sis's Anugerah Cemerlang. Hope I have time to share every single happy incident that happens to my family!

Jia You PB, You Can Do It!

Miracle

Sometimes competition is not just about winning. I participated in the 1st table tennis competition in my life yesterday. Undeniably, it was really fun. Although I have losed all 3matches, I feel I did my best because I just learnt and practised for 1day!!

The first match was against Chew and Esther. I think nobody can beat their teamwork, because this two state players were couple. My partner and I losed 21-13, 21-15. Well, I surrendered myself. They are just too strong.

The second match was against my sifu-s, Li Wei and Zhen Liang. I always practise ping pong with them but impossible I can win my sifu-s right?They smashed like mad and I couldnt really focus. First and foremost, I was too tired. Secondly, I was distracted by blue house supporters who cheered loudly when I missed a point. I finished the game terribly, couldnt even get to score 20points for the 2games!

I won the first game for the third match, opposing a lenglui senior who serves with the ball spinning and the guy who is my friend. I was under extreme pressure as I do not want to lose terribly anymore. Yes! I did my best. It was the most perfect match that I had ystday. Actually we stand a chance to win the match but my partner was so anxious and nervous until several points were just delivered to the opponents easily. We losed again.

But I wasnt sad at all. Sometimes competitions are just not about winning, it is about doing your best and dont feel regret after that. I did perfectly, not even a single error is made. My friends are very proud of me, and I am proud of myself too!

The most touching part is that I realized there are so many people around me who care and love me very much. My friend purposely asked Chew not to smash at me because I am a beginner and I definitely cannot handle smashed balls. Another friend of mine is very good at smashing, but he didnt even smash a single ball to me ystday during the match. Just because he knows I will feel nervous when I hit smashed balls and I would lose points because of that. They did so many things behind to help me as much as possible.

Thank you my respective coach Jian Hui for teaching me the basic of serving. Although your words are sharp and hurting, you are the one who let me know what ping pong is.

Thank you Li Wei, Zhen Liang, Alex, Kean Seng and Jerry for teaching me. I was so touched when you all told me that I did very well.

Wei, thanks for asking Chew to not smash at me. You know who you are. And thanks for your support and cheer when I scored. I dunno wat to say except for thousands of thank you.

And lastly, thank you dear for your ultimate support. Thanks for staying up til 1am to teach me, and broke your promise to your friend just bcoz u wanna stay to watch me playing without even telling me. I would be so nervous if I know you were watching. Hope you really enjoyed my match!

Hope I didnt disappoint anybody who had faith in me. I know it is very impossible to represent my house for PingPong after a 1-day practise, but I managed to do it! Thank you for being proud of me. Love you guys much!

And yeah, I am very satisfied with my performance.

Forgiveness

In my silence I would love to forget

But restitution hasn't come quite yet

And with one accord I keep moving forth

I stretch my heart to heal some more

It used to be all I'd want to learn

Was wisdom trust and truth

But now all I really want to learn

Is forgiveness for you

As my seasons change

I've now grown to know

When one's heart creates, one's soul doesn't owe

So I wash away stains of yesterday

Then tempt my heart with love's display

It used to be all I'd want to learn

Was wisdom trust and truth

But now all I really want to learn

Is forgiveness for you

I always assume that I will never forgive him in this life, Oh No, I just dont understand myself well enough. Actually without my realize, I have forgiven him long time ago. I mean, a very long duration ago when even myself didnt realize that.

Anyhow I wont reply him no matter what he sends me. Hope this can be a very good experience for him.

Just want to tell you: I still treat you as my friend. Dont forget me when you have flied to Czech Republic next time!

Updates!!

Finally I realize that people do not like to read things that are written in paragraphs. So I just KISS--keep it short and sweet. (My mad chemistry lecturer taught us that)

Well, several updates are in town:

1. I have a new boss!! Datuk Liow Tiong Lai (sorry if I spelled his name wrongly). But sadly he is not a doctor. The first decision he has made yesterday when he was announced as the Health Minister is to shift private doctors to work in government hospitals. OH MY GOODNESS! What a lousy decision..Doctors do not wish to serve for government simple because they want to get a better pay, shorter working hours, and enjoy the fame that a doctor has. (Government doctors are known as slave-low pay as well as lengthy working hour). Now, due to his marvellous decision. private doctors are back to government hospitals again. Sigh. But not my problem right?Why am I over-reacting? Isykk.

2. I have decided to change to a twinning programme. Yeah, I love India. But I love Malaysia more!

3. Yoon Seng actually thanked me in his blog for giving him a chance to act out what he wanted to act. I didnt know that he is so interested in writing and acting until I saw his blog, where he even uploaded pictures on it. Thanks YS for thanking me, hope you make it to UGM.

4. IELTS results for 1year programme is released. 2 students of my college scored Band 8.5. Haizz nobody scored Band9, and it makes me think of him again. Perhaps I really like him, but i just dont have the gut to tell or even hint to him.

5. Entrance test for University Gajahmada Indonesia is going to be held next week. Hope all my Indonesia bound friends can pass it and fly there this coming August.

6. My hatred towards him has reduced for no reason. My friend says my biggest problem is that I am not cruel enough to hate a person. Whenever he apologizes, I forgive him no matter what he does. Just because I dont want to lose a friend who treats me so well. I wont forgive him this time, because I want him to learn a lesson- Dont lie to girls. Dont scold them no matter what they did to you, and how much they hurt you.

7. Hottest rumour in my college- Wing Seng and Variant. I pass the privilege of Variant calling me "honey" to WS. Hope you two can start officially!

8. My practical examination for all 3papers falls in the morning, i mean, 8.30am! 1st batch some more. Sob Sob. Luckily YongYau is with me..Hahaha!! Lattest name for him--P3 practical examination answers provider.

Basically thats all for the update. I am stil continuing my life as a normal student who lepak around college compound when I am supposed to stick my butt on the chair and study. Ohya, I am in love with PingPong.

How nice if he can teach me..

Sudden emo-change

When 2 friends of mine couple up, I lose 2 friends..

Recently I feel that I am having lesser and lesser friends, simply because my distance with them increases.

Yet I am still very happy for them as they finally found their true love. Losing two friends is so "negligible" compared to the happiness that they managed to find with their partners, isn't this true?

dILemMa..

I just came up with a fact- Kasturba Medical College in India is not recognized by Singapore Medical Council (SMC).



Damn it!!!

I never know that an advanced country like Singapore does not recognise the MBBS of Kasturba Medical College, both Manipal and Mangalore which is ranked 5th among medical universities throughout the whole nation of India. Damn!

https://www.smc.gov.sg/html/1153709442948.html



I am on the tough way, a long road ahead. Robert Frost said that every decision will lead to the different pathway in life, changing the whole structure of your future. Yeah, I am standing right at the middle of a triangle now. Which corner shall I hide myself at when enemies attack? IMU, MMC or KMC?



Actually I was thinking about choosing either MMC or KMC-namely Melaka-Manipal College and Kasturba Medical College. MMC provides me with the duration I want, but it seems that their course structure is simply too easy. Maybe everybody will think that what is so bad about a relaxing lifestyle of a medical student? Perhaps my mindset is different, because I think that a person has to suffer alot before he/she manages to get what he/she wants in life. The same theory applies on this condition. Without tasting the bitterness in life, you wouldnt know the sweetness of sweet. Actually I rather suffer in India so that I am generally declared as a good doctor in the future, but it takes such a long time to complete my course there! 5.5years+extra housemanship before I can proudly get my certificate from the Dean. I love my family more that anything else, that's why I feel that I shouldnt go for it. One will certainly lose something in order to gain what he wants. Answer this question honestly: What is the value of a medical degree if you have missed many other things in life: family, love, or perhaps friendship?



Well, I must be a doink. Why am I keep persuading myself not to go for the full course?



This is the first decision in my life which I make according to what I want and what my heart thinks. I will not follow blindly where my friends are heading to, or the rumours saying that which place is better than the other.



Ming keeps persuading me to go for MMC. But my heart tells me that it is not as good as what people think. I know why he hopes I will go MMC, because he is there!!!Ok, I admit it is a nonsense explaination. Sometimes I feel very grateful because God has granted me with so many things in life, including this everlasting friendship. He hopes I will be there when he is sad or despair over things, or when he finally managed to get hmself a girlfriend. I always pray hard for him to get one, he is just too cool! There was once I asked him, would we still keep in contact after we have flied to different places? He said of course, but his answer is so uncertain. I am worried. Sometimes when you are used to having a person in your life, you will really feel sad to think about being apart.

(Pure friendship is impossible in my college, so we are trying very hard to let people think that we are strangers. I HATE rumours!)



Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,

and Sorry I could not travel both.



Robert Frost chose the one less travelled by. How about me?

Hilarious..

Watch this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-TSWaKWiAhY

Memoirs of A Geisha by MadTV. Funniest video ever.

Rating: 9.5/10
- 0.5 marks of deduction due to the physical appearance of main character--should be uglier I think

Comments: I was wondering who came up with such an idea to alter the main theme of this movie, or perhaps the aura of a geisha. Proven that mankind has unlimited creativity and innovativity to create laughters.

Good job MadTV!

Triumph.

It was a great success.
For the past 11years, there wasnt a lion dance being performed in college compound, and we made it!
For the past 11 years, there wasnt any CNY celebration in college, and we made it!

The first peak in my college life. I have never expected it to be so successful. Thank you very much for the hardwork everybody contributed, sacrificing their study time, sleeping time, dota time, pakto time, crapping time and so many others!

Inviting lion dance to our college was definitely a smart choice, so many people enjoyed it!Luckily Uncle Parang didnt come down and stab us with parang for being too noisy and chaotic.

The 3 dances were great! Fan dance which portrays our tradition has made everybody indulged in it, great job Anna and JuoPei! The couple traditional dance was so sweet! MJ dance was such a success!

Thank you Xiang Wei for her GuZheng performance. Although she has not been touching it for te past 5years, she was willing to try again and present to us. Her "aura" is so irreplacable!

Thank you for all instrumental performances: Piano, Guitar, Violin which had created "ohm-s" for the night! JunJun, XiaoChien, Fiona, WenMei, YiTeng, Muruga, Rooben, Andrew, Jesse, YiYou, you guys did the best!!

Not forgetting my beloved sketch. I could still remember the dilemma and the arguments I had with so many people because I wanted to protect them. My determination to let you all perform for the sketch was proven to be correct! No matter how hard it was to convince people that you all could do it, it was very worthy. Thank you YoonSeng for not disappointing me, and bared with all my rules and regulations to produce a script of exactly what I want. You are a man!!
Honestly I was very touched with their performance in the sketch. Although they have to prepare for IELTS, entrance exam, and A2 syllabus all at once, they still manage to practise and perform the best. Thank you WingSeng, LianJae, Leon, Yan Yii, Hsiao Suan, Zhung Shen, Tharan and Chew. I cannot message you all one by one to thank you guys, but I hope you guys enjoyed the performance. Love you guys so much!

Thank you Lee Suan for your marvellous skills of being the MC!

Thank you Kean Seng for helping me throughout the whole program. He was the one who worked even harder than many other committee members who didnt make any effort throughout the night. A great applause to you!

It's time for me to change my bad habits. I have very low EQ and I got irritated very easily, especially when people do not play their roles at very moments. I am sorry if I uttered some words which hurt people during that moments, but I really dont mean it. I just want to make sure everything is on the right track. I promised myself that I will try my level best to increase my EQ level!


Anyhow I think that this will be the last fun we Chinese had in the college. I cannot guarantee that we will still remember each other after we have graduated. 6years is definitely not a short period right? But I will definitely remember this event throughout my life. It gives me the motivation to work harder for things and makes my life more contented than before like a rainbow after the rain!

Raymond Lam in town!

Hottest topic for my family: My brother-in-law is in town!

Proudest topic for my family: I am going to meet him in a fans gathering!

Actually I did not have any special feeling about the gathering when my sister just told me at first, because I just see him as a normal TVB actor who tries very hard to succeed in his career. But my sister is deeply in love with him, maybe because he is TOO handsome with the 100TW eyes which act as electrical generator, or mayb she sees his talent in this field.

When he first came into the broadcasting room of 988, I was kinda $%%(^&#!) (Please take notes that I am not scolding him, just that the feeling is kinda indescribable)

Perhaps I have not seen his real person before, so I have the feeling that I am dreaming!

But the dream is very real as I could touch him. His hand I mean. After the gathering we are supposed to go back but some of them followed to the next destination of his promo tour-Sg Wang.

Well, miracles do happen in life. My sister and I were supposed to squeeze into a lift where most of the participants of the gathering were in. But my shoe lace dropped so I have to tie it before I walk further. Obviously meaning that we have to wait for another lift. When the door opens, guess who I saw?

Hohoho..Raymond Lam was inside. Thanks to God of Fortune, who brought me moments of precious time to be in the same lift as him. I requested to take a picture with him since I couldnt have a chance just now, but the irritating 988DJ-who-must-not-be-named rejected my request with the lame reason: erm, we are short of time now.

^%*#*$^@ (this is meant for scolding)
How long it takes to capture a picture? What can you do in the lift except for waiting for it to go down to de ground floor? Why cant I take a picture with him? Do you think there is always a chance to stay in the same lift with a celebrity?Why?Why?Why?

Anger+Frustration keeps nagging me to stab that DJ with a knife if I had one tt time. ISYKKK!

After that I went to Sg Wang and again, I met Raymond Lam there. My sister and I had lunch before queueing up for him to sign one of our unsigned album. He saw me on the stage but he doesnt seemed to recognize my face. Impossible, his memory power is not that bad to the extend of forgetting a girl whom he saw tt morning. Perhaps he was too tired tt time, after signing for so many albums and calendars. I forgive him. (wakakaka as if he knows that i forgiv him)

There was another fans gathering following that, but it consisted more fans there.(The one which I attended in the morning only give the golden opportunity to 20 lucky ones) I didnt follow my sister there as I stil prefer shopping. Wakaka XD

Attached to this long draggy old grandmother story are some pictures captured by my sister that day:

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My friend who went to further her studies in Aussie sent me a card before she left. I was kinda surprised with it because I have never thought that she stil rmber sending me one. Thanks Siaw Wei! It is a CNY greeting card of course, but the first sentence she wrote was "Bao Chi Le Guan" (be optimistic).

Kinda terasa, becoz she used to read my blog (i dunno whether she stil reads it now or what)

Ok then, be optimistic!
This is the brand new year, 8days after CNY..
My new year resolutions which I plan every year but none of it can be done:
-force myself to study
-stop watching drama
-stop chit-chatting downstairs when students are supposed to study in the apartment
-stop walking aimlessly around the college compound
-stop thinking about impossible things, thinking that I can make myself happy through that
-stop daydreaming!!!!!

Well, these are basically my resolution for the year.
I heard that Horse doesnt really have good luck this year because they are opposing Mouse. Being a superstitious one, I trusted it and it makes me feel SO sad..Anyhow, life has to be continued and I cant do anything to oppose God.
I believe that if I am diligent, I still can pass my Alevels with flying colours, and of course with a good band for my IELTS.

Wish me good luck in life, thanks!

Goodbye, 2007

Supposedly I should write this post yesterday, i mean last year. 31st Dec 2007.

Basically I dont know how to describe the feeling of now, but there is a surge of blood that runs through my body, wanting me to conclude wat I encountered throughout 2007.

Well, 2007 is the first year I left skul, de skul tt I hated so much. But when I think back now, I dun think I can have wat i am having now without SMK Puterijaya.

Lets make it short and sweet.

Jan 2007: It was the brand-new year, after being a skul leaver. I am no longer a secondary school student who have to wear the maid-like pinaform to school. And I enrolled in a college, doing SAM. Actually I dunno why I chosen SAM at the first place, probably because money plays a pivotal role in my family. My sister gave me a long lecture about my family's financial state after I told her that I wanted to do MUFY in Sunway. Hah, I was too naive that time. It was so not possible for my family to support me financially to step into that "kolej yang berstatus tinggi". So later on I made up my mind to go Olympia, since it is nearer to home and it is considerably cheap.

Feb 2007: Knew a bunch of friends from that college, and sooner or later, I realized that I picked the wrong college. Although the Indian frens that I met are alright, but this college really sucks. Lecturers dont speak proper English, management is having a big problem and etc. Well, I am fed up. What I can do now is wait for my SPM results to be released, and see wat are the choices for me ahead.

Mac 2007: First time in my life feeling successful: I got 12As for my SPM. Perhaps it may be easy for some people, but it is definitely not for me. Uncountable sleepless nights, mental emotions got up to the maximum level, problems with friends, tension and pressure from everybody..... I know I have to bear with it, or otherwise the string is going to break. And I combated it at last, getting cheerful and proud faces from parents especially mummy, and siblings, I felt that everything that I encountered is worthy. Really worthy. Busy photostating certs and results slip, applying for scholarships was what I did for half a month. Ohya, not to forget the exposure programme organised by JPA, Thanks to JPA, I know another bunch of friends and I really learnt many things from de professional medical practitioners. (And experience the labour pain within 0.2m from a pregnant woman)

April 2007: While waiting for the several notices from scholarships boards, I continue attending my SAM classes. But life was too easy for me, attending classes as I want to. Perhaps this is the time I enjoyed my life to the fullest. Received interview announcement from JPA, and I went for it without any high hope. JPA is just not my standard.

May 2007: My birthday! Basically I didnt get any surprise for that, but I think it is a nice birthday experience spending with family. I truely love them.

June 2007: Out of my expectation, I got JPA--medicine in India. I know I am going to spend my whole life to the medical field, curing countless of patients and sleeping with thick scary encyclopedia. Because of this scholarship, I started writing blog. I wanna share my life with everybody, as well as giving myself a place to vomit out dissatisfactions.

July 2007: Started my college life on the 2nd. Orientation week was the nicest of all because I got to know frens from all over Malaysia, and I really appreciate their presence in my life. Stress hasnt overwhelmed me at the beginning, as there is still time for me to chit-chat with my frens downstairs talking nonsense: commenting who is the most handsome guy, the prettiest gal, the most horrible lecturer, and of coz, the new-born couples that pop up every single day.

Aug 2007: Started to be eaten by pressure. Books, revisions, exercises, tutorials..My time for TV and online decreases as I am surrounded by the growth of tension. I started thinking, am I supposed to be here?

Sept 2007: Totally regret with my choice of choosing medicine at the first place. The great force exerted on my brain nearly caused me to break down. Am I a human being, or just an electronic device?

Oct, Nov 2007: Reason of combining two months together is easy--I have nothing to do in my life except for studying. Feeling guilty for not bringing books back home during weekends has already become a constant emotion. I just couldnt control myself from feeling guilty! I couldnt!

Dec 2007: This year is going to end. Classes going on as usual, and I undego a robotic life. Anyhow an interesting incident happened- There was a night at home where I finally say hi to a senior, a senior whom I admire for long. Dont simply think! Definitely not what is passing through ur brain now. Keeping him in my heart is a nice thing, for he is my first idol in 17years of my life. I was even more overjoyed when we chatted for 2hours, and he is just not as cool as what other people commented!!

The anxiety and curiousity for 2008 started. This year I am going to sit for my another major exam--A level, a boarding pass for my entrance in medical faculty. And I know I am going to start another long journey, settling down the problems that I am facing now.

Goodbye 2007.
Welcome 2008.