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Wednesday, December 30, 2009

PB back in action on blogspot.com!

Ooohhh finally some spare time to update my blog and express certain feelings on a space totally belongs to me and only myself.

Well, it really makes me feel great being back in Malaysia, seeing lala-s in Sg Wang, smelling the blend of Tauhu busuk and sweat smell in Pasar Malam, meeting people whom I haven't met for years and etc etc. And via this I understand how much people love to come back home during holidays albeit that ticket prices are rising like hell.

Home sweet home, is what everyone says.

Went for a long marathon sing K session with Shanx and YYS. Really missed them loads. And Sherlock Holmes for dessert! Thumb up for his cute acts and Jude Law's super duple triple handsome face. Haiz, even before we departed from the Keretapi Tanah Melayu aka KTM we were still saying the same thing as what we sighed approximately 6 months ago: How nice if we are in the same uni.

Was watching movie and chatting with a close friend of mine at the same time. She is indeed enjoying her honeymoon life in Europe but was kinda emotional just now because she was so terribly annoyed by jerks and bitches. They are life-ruining princes and princesses who can convert all their money into coins and throw at you until you terlantar. But one word: SO WHAT. In this world it doesnt mean that u own the world if u have that little pathetic pounds which are even inherited from ur parents whom dont know that their daughters are so bitchy! Work hard and own ur money IF U R REALLY CAPABLE.

Dont just sit in front of that tiny lappie and scold people using words which are reflecting yourself. PATHETIC TOPLESS WOMAN WEARING ONLY BLACK BRA AND POKER DRESS POSING LIKE A PROSTITUTE. (This sentence I am scolding on behalf of my dearest fren =D)

No mood to continue scolding. Cont in next post!

But life still moves on, the clock still turns and time waits for no one. It is 2010 AGAIN!

Thursday, December 24, 2009

Merry Xmas!

Merry Christmas to all! This is the most significant xmas for me because I AM SO DESPERATELY WAITING TO GO BACK. Wohoo finally. After about 5 months staying in this crappy place.

Ok basically the place is not crappy, what is crappy is the college. I mean especially those lecturers who only shout and scream like nobody's business at innocent students but they themselves get the pay in their pockets. And not forgetting certain lecturer who crap and make people stand beside the cadaver's leg for 1 hour without benefiting us.

Cant believe I am actually going back home! Wahhh home sweet home :)

Life without
books
lecturers
lectures
tutorials
practicals

ia a life man! :))

Monday, December 21, 2009

Hulala..

1st batch of Malaysians in Mysore must be on the plane now I guess-on their way to happiness aka MALAYSIA. Aiyo envy envy envy. 2nd batch will leave this beautiful city with horrible college on Wed!

It is so awesome to get a chance to go back!

And I am still stucked here with tonnes of things to read, tonnes of things that I dont understand yet I have to squeeze it in my brain.

I know external nasal nerve is a branch of trigeminal nerve, but today only I know that external nasal nerve is a branch of anterior ethmoidal nerve which in turn is a branch of nasociliary nerve that comes out as one of the three branches of ophthalmic nerve in orbit, and yes, ophthalmic nerve is one of the three branches of trigeminal nerve.

1st to 12th cranial nerve should be all imprinted in my brain by tonight, which is so impossible :(

Saturday, December 19, 2009

No word to descibe this.

Just came back from class party for 1st MBBS JSSMC students. Horror.

Ok it is not only horror.

It should be very horror.

First time understand the feeling of culture shock-the party was held in some Chatrawana Resort located at the outskirt which is the most superb place for jungle trekking. Chairs on the field and mini stage with DJ playing musics.

First feeling: Abit expected because I can see that they are going to wear like peacocks from their over-excited faces in the class this morning. But still very shocked seeing their make-up and hair style. OMG OMG OMG. Where got people put 2-3 layers of powder on the face one. And where got people make their hair like that one. Okla dont want to condemn on their hair because mine doesnt look nice either. But the make up. Can you actually believe that the girls go to beauty parlour a day before party for hair cut, wax, eye make-up, nail polish and etc etc? They are not attending prom OK!

2nd feeling: Annoyed. Because those flies(or mosquitoes) kept flying here and there. Of course la here is jungle mah. Regretted not bringing mosquito repellant LOL.

3rd feeling: Embarrassed. They organised music chair as the first game and Vaish and I were trying our level best to escape from being called to play. Mana tahu there is this I-should-have-recognised-his-face fellow who shouted my name and asked me to join. Oklo join lo. But people who know me understand SO well that I have a very slow reflex action who cannot play this kind of game. So,
consequence=1st round already kena from a guy who sat on my lap. DAMN. He cannot differentiate between skeletal muscle fibers and plastic is it? My thigh muscles where got as hard as a chair ok. He some more sat nicely on my lap for 5-6 sec. And that makes me know that I am not the only person who is slow.

4th feeling: Trying to enjoy. Disco session started after the game and everyone in my class is crazy. Definitely crazy. They can really dance for 4-5 hours without having dinner. So obvious that they paid 300+ for dancing only. And the dance floor is, ahem, sucks.

Here we danced on the field.

Here we danced with Hindi songs.

Here we danced with people WHOM YOU CAN NEVER BELIEVE THEY DO THAT aka our classmates la who else.

Started saying about this I think I can list down from roll num1 to 153.

Some people wear like peacocks.
Some people wear like they are attending an interview.
Some people wear like they are getting married.

Eh please la this is common sense okay. Mana ada orang wear blazer to jungle one. You think you are some minister of Jabatan Persekitaran is it? I think he swallowed his common sense thats why he wore like that plus danced for few hours.

But some songs are really good la. Got pulled in to dance along by some guys whom I dont know their names. So Vaish and I were like enjoying the whole Om Shanti Om song. HEHE. Btw Ranjani is so sexy with her pose of flipping her wavy hair when she dances.

Hate people who sengaja become drunk and try to create probbies. Special credit to Vinay and the other guy whom I forgotten his name-for being so protective to everyone. Sad for them also lah cause they organised this thing and themselves didnt really participate throughout.

Anyway I got so shocked seeing people who dance till can skip dinner. Cant believe that Rajath actually dance for hours without stopping. He is MORE than crazy(although I memang know he is kaki clubbing la). What to do, like he said: just over 18 ma of course must do something that adults do.

And the girl who really follows behind lecturers, ask tonnes of questions in class with a very professional doctor look, dance like mad people for hours too.

Scary lah all my classmates. Eee..Takut!

So what we plan to do-next class party we will give excuse like WE ARE OFF TO BANGALORE :)

Friday, December 18, 2009

The Storm Warrior

11 years ago, I went to the cinema for this movie with my sisters (and dad maybe?). Tt time I was only 8.

11 years later, I am going to the cinema for this movie AGAIN! Now I am already 19. Woohoo The Storm Warrior 2 is out finally!

OMG really didnt expect to have such a nice memory anymore. That time I was crazily in love with this movie that I kept going to those little put-in-coin-and-spin machine to get the character cards. And unbelievably I am still keeping it! Quite plenty of them are still in a small red colour Hong Leong bank box under the cupboard.

聂风,步惊云,孔慈,楚楚,文丑丑。
每个角色是多么地生动及富有情感的!Every single scene was still so clearly imprinted in my mind, even after 11 years.

Hopefully the movie doesnt disappoint me. I LOVEEE THE STORM WARRIOR!!

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Happy day.


Wanna own this SO much. Sometimes really annoyed by road noises disturbing my morning peace listening to Adam Lambert. My headphone SUCKSSSSS.

And one more thing-JSS SUCKSSSSS. Yesterday were considering giving us holiday and today spent 15 min explaining the reasons of not giving us holiday-ALL LAME+BULL SHIT STUFF. What followed was physiology tutorial which took about 15-20min, and it was continued by a series of scolding and naggings from Mdm Renal(sorry forgot her name). STRESSSSS GILAAAA!!!

Eh why these people dont get bored of scolding and nagging the same thing for 100 times?

Eh why this ppl cannot giv us holiday?

Eh why this fellow wanna be so robotic that he wants the whole college (lecturers+staffs+students) to be as robotic as he is?

Eh why they just cant let us to do what we want?

Eh why we have no freedom in everything?

Eh why medical students so no life one.

And one more-

Eh why am I sitting in front of my lappie and not opening my books? :)

Sunday, December 13, 2009

Update la..

Wanna update piccies we took at Sankeertana's house! But some of de nice piccies are still in Husni and Sindhu's phones. ENJOYED camwhoring with Rebekah and Sindhu. Didnt know people here camwhore also :)

Cant stop surfing the net because:

1. Anatomy is boring
2. Physiology is also boring
3. Biochemistry is lagi boring.

HAHAHA suddenly got this joke from my roomie:

Her bf: 我很怀念你。

BUAHAHAHAAHA I laughed until cannot stop. 怀念=想念? OMG OMG OMG.

Yeh today I wanna spend my life with lappie :))

Thursday, December 10, 2009

-.-""

Bored with life. Bored with studies. Bored with tutorials.

Tired of classes. Tired of stress. Tired of expectations.

But life stil goes on. Classes still progressing. Everyone still improving. Yet I am staying at the same original point which I started.

Haizz loads of works to do and things to study but I am still stucked with drama and games everyday.

Its time to change, Phoebs.

Saturday, December 5, 2009

:(

It has been really a long time since I last showed this expression.

Dont ask me what expression is this.

Dont ask me why.

I am not feeling happy, not at all.

Sometimes accumulation of many things in your heart leads to the growth of a mountain, a mountain of grief. And when something is there to catalyse the reaction, everything explodes out.


= Mental breakdown.

Saw ChiaYin posted something on her facebook: things about distance is that they are not always there when you need them the most.

Ya nothing is ever more correct than this. Just now was terribly sad because I pondered around and nobody is there for me.

Yes I need you to talk so much just now, but where were you?

(I know you will come to read this post sooner or later, but please dont feel bad ok. I am recovering :) )

Friday, December 4, 2009

Boring leh..

1st time updating my blog in college library. Not bad wei their internet speed-abit faster than the speed of tortoise walking.

Damn bored la. Have to wait for another hour to meet with the principal-another lame fellow on earth Haizz. Definitely he is going to talk to us about nonsensical stuff like:

There's no holiday for 1st year.

Can u people cope with the studies?

U people need extra classes?

How do you all find life here?

And we will put on the artificial insincere smile on our cheeks replying him things like: No sir we are satisfied with everything here (even though we seriously dont).

Ok theory for this: They do tell us ALWAYS to look for them if we are having problems, but when we try to tell them, these are the possible consequences:

1. get scolded
2. "Ok we will fix this for you. Wait x3"

Wat for we go and talk to them since they are so inconsiderate?

Extremely annoying human beings are sometimes present on earth, I tell myself.

Ahh study!!!

Basically I dont really have the mood to study after exams. Everyday I would plan of what to study when I am too free sitting in the bus enjoying the pon-pon sound outside but when I get back home, things start to change so rapidly.

Snacks.

Eat.

Online.

Muvee.

Chat.

And time flies..Isykk whats wrong with me to think that life is so easy after exam?Not by any chance I should have thought like that! But seriously no mood to catch up with tonnes of things being taught before and after exam-plus life is so difficult since Head and Neck anatomy is started now. And the worse thing is I GOT A BAD LECTURER FOR THE MOST VITAL PART. SHIT MAN.

Ohya one more thing: ALBERT TOLD ME A COLD JOKE!

Phoebe: Still not sleepy yet?
Albert: No. Gotta sleep soon. Am trying to create panda eyes to ask mdm whether we can write that as applied aspect of facial expression or not.

OMG albert is telling me jokes. Huh?Unbelievable. Not bad, at least he stil has a sense of humour.

Was doing some analysis on email and found out that it is quite true.

They analyse people by seeing how they fold their arms+tighten their fists. This is my type:


性格:为人温婉、有人情味型
  [呜莎]型的你,让人感觉温暖、有女人味。不但能察觉对方的心情,还善于思考最佳的应对方式,折中妥协。这么一来,不知不觉中便掌控了对方的情感,让对方随自己起舞。此类型的人不会强出头,而是在背后支持他人。
  总是给人沉着稳重、待人处世佳的印象,及“无话不可谈”的安全感,是一旦被人期待、受人请托,便无法拒绝的类型,即使牺牲自我也要关照他人。不过,如此尽心尽力,对方却依然无法了解自己的心意,或是拒人于千里之外的话,对于这种自我中心的人,[呜莎]型的你会毅然决然撒手不管。相反的,若是一听到有人说“辛苦你了”、“谢谢”,心情便立刻好转,进而甘愿为对方鞠躬尽瘁。基本上是个很好的听众,遇到能够看穿自己并予以照顾的人,也很懂得对他依赖。
  生性浪漫,一旦相信一个人就深信不疑,因此若是幻想破灭,或遭人背叛,便大受打击,十分沮丧。是个好奇心旺盛的行动派,任何事都想体验看看,增加见闻。
不过,有了某种程度的理解之后,热情便急速冷却亦司空见惯。


Hoho dont dare to say that I have 女人味,但整体来说好像有点高估了我!50%是对吧!

恋爱:情义、技巧两者并重型
  爱情的开端几乎都是一见钟情。凡事以恋爱为优先,为了让对方对自己倾心,会投注全部心力。直到两人交往前,不论是对方的条件、一举一动和状况都会细心地注意,并能冷静地处理。
  不过,[呜莎]女一旦陷入热恋,与生俱来的自制力便荡然无存,完全不在乎旁人的目光,全力冲刺爱情。
但另一方面,一谈起恋爱,出乎意外地,其好奇心和兴奋感便会急速下降。尽管如此,她依然能运用来自丰富经验的高超技巧,让对方毫无察觉地享受恋情。
  基本上由于为人殷勤,具有全力以赴的本质,在性爱上也会利用自己所懂得的技巧,取悦对方,并了在其中。
  而随着时间推移,热情虽渐渐冷却,但对对方的情义和爱护的心理却愈发强烈。
  到最后变成母亲般,无法狠心舍弃对方,极可能在分手时陷入泥淖,难以脱身。
  正因为十分了解对方的感情,更容易受到当场气氛的摆布,迷迷糊糊地就被情感束缚,尽管好几次决心分手,却依然拖拖拉拉地交往着。为免对方日后纠缠、骚扰,切忌要妥善分手,与对方成为好朋友。

最后几句很对-但它应该适用于全部女生吧!不知道。Blank.



I am still not back into reality from a story told by my friend. Boys should always be responsible right? Why is it so hard to admit and pick up the responsibilities that he should carry? Sigh. Hope she is fine and has a brand new life.

Monday, November 30, 2009

What a student does when he/she is bored?

More is a mega store(ya everyone knows coz it is written on the plastic bag) which is considered OK sikit in India. Ermm something like mini carrefour/giant/jaya jusco/anything you like. So guess what is inside? (Anyone who got it right will be given 1 indian sweet-which is sweet till you drop)

Tada! Tulang seketul. Ehh not seketul is banyak ketul. Real one okay. Not dogs or cats one okay. Is human one okay.

This one is femur. Okay form2 students of Malaysia standard pun tahu because they learn it in Science I think. Where is your femur? On your thigh bingo! It articulates with your hip bone to form pelvis in which your bum bum is attached. Without this I think your bum bum will drop on the floor and nobody is going to pick up for you! Haha..

This is hip bone lah..Got one hole there where you can put your fingers in. Or you can peep through that hole also. Multi purpose hole LOL :)

Guess what is this! Saw a spine there right? Go in front of the mirror naked and touch your whole body to find a spine-like process. Those who got it right will get this for free as souvenir from India-but I will pinjam from you for a year la. Eternally yours after I finish my 1st year hehe.

When exam is going on..

Exam is going on-means you have to face with books that accumulate lik a hill-means you get bored with books-means you will find a way to get rid of boredom. N this is my way-camwhoring at 6.00pm with the same shirt I wore to class hoho. Act cute la ni.


Yeh! Still got 10 more books to go. ONLY.

Muahhh I love anatomy. (No life lah me)
.
Ok I admit that I am bored with books. See my eye bags yang macam kena tumbuk oleh Raja Tumbuk from Thailand.

See I so kelian. Kesian lah saya. Nak minta sedekah.....

Ok PB enough of ur lame acts. Getting more strength from surroundings by acting cute.

See my table. Sad lah so messy.

Yeh I am fair. But I am not square.


Ok enough I know it is lame.

Friday, November 27, 2009

I am back!!

Yeh phoebe is back in blogging!! After almost a month of nerding at home, exams are finally till the end--the best part of all..

At least for the following one week I dont have to study that hard.
At least I get to read out of interest but not for exam.
At least I can read while online-ing.

Hoho but afterall the hardest Anatomy practical is on next mon. I just want it to be over, I dont care bout my score/marks/ans or anything. Exams are driving me SERIOUSLY crazy!!

But thank God I passed physiology and biochem. Anatomy theory wasn't announced yet but I am confident that it will pass. Basically what I hope for is just a PASS. I dont want to be the highest or 2nd highest or whatsoever but I just wan to pass. Being at the borderline or what is not a probby for me-because I know I am enrolled in a course, a course where a small mistake of yours can change a person's life so easily. I rather fail 10 times than making a mistake to take away people's life. I am only a normal human being, with no power or strength to do what God can do.

Problems start to raise right after exam, Rebekah said many people will start feeling jealous if you score better than them, and they will make use of it. I kinda worried that this will happen in my life. NO NO NO!!please......

And am speechless with my sarcastic HOD-name not to be mentioned I guess. He is the world most sarcastic clown!!!

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Hoollalalala..

3more papers to go..al practicals..

Phoebe u can do it!!!

Sunday, November 22, 2009

Angry!!!!!!

Ok i'm so damn angry now till I want to kill people and after that commit suicide.

There are so many flies in my room!! This terrible insects are petite and I dont know why they like my room so much. Keep flying here and there and dropping on my study table. And some even hinggap on my laptop omg.

This weird insect of India species is never seen in Msia. And I dont know why I cant find a single way to get rid of them AT ALL..

ARGHHHHHHHH!!!

Monday, October 26, 2009

Emo.

People get more emotional at night, it is scientifically proven to be true. I am so emo.

Missing home, missing Malaysia, missing my family and friends, yet what I can do is convert the feeling into an urge to study. Facing the book and indulge in the world of anatomy, which is an endless story, word by word, page by page.

And my eyelids start to feel heavy, the diameter of eyes start to reduce inch by inch, but I see tonnes of unstudied books, tonnes of things that I am supposed to know, and am supposed to answer perfectly if somebody asks me.

I know I can do it, but it takes time. I am not a smart ass who can rmber everything after only reading once, especially things that I am not even familiar with. Please, give me time.

And God, please give me strength.

Had insomnia yesterday thanks to Faheem for his tangerine-flavoured BOH. Enjoyed sipping it but the outcome was horrible. Stayed awake until 3am chatting with Shunxing. I begin to miss her. I begin to miss everyone in KTT, or even everyone whom I encountered with.




Especially people whom I did't appreciate once upon a time.

Monday, October 19, 2009

Yeah!

Holiday gonna finish soon :(
But really had fun these few days following them to Mysore Palace, Brindavan Garden and those romantic and beautiful places in India..

More piccies in FB!!

Friday, October 16, 2009

At 12.28am


Too bored with books, so let's have a look at something cute-the gluteal region of a monkey.
So people out there, do tell ur bf/gf that he/she is as romantic as a monkey because they even have a pink heart at their buttocks!

Shopping spreeeeeeeeee. Want something different from salwar!! I want dresses, skirts, shorts and etc etc..

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Stress!

So stressful these days!!

2days one test, 2months a big test. Haizz really speechless. Had an anatomy practical test today-histology part was OK because I got a slide with its title ACCIDENTALLY written on the slide(the test is supposed to let us guess what slide is that and lecturer will ask questions prior to that). So it was a transverse section of bone! Really dont understand why they want us to learn this stupid thing. Haizz.

And I didnt do well for the gross part. I got an easy question(superficial palmar arch) and a good lecturer who used to be my dissection table teacher. But I just didnt perform as well as I thought I could, and even as well as how she thinks I can. Made a serious mistake during elaboration, and I really feel lik banging my head to the wall after that. Haizz. How can I make such a mistake, on questions that I am so familiar with. (And before that I still have the mood to answer my friends' questions about the title they get)

Totally disappointed with myself, and I know the worse is still coming. Phoebe gambate!

Saturday, October 10, 2009

It's saturday again!

Saturday again wahaha XD
Love saturday so much because it is the only day I can actually watch movie while completing my records. Dont have to use much brain power to memorize and understand facts, no chance for large amount of acetylcholine to diffuse across the synaptic cleft, and no chance to fire more action potential through post-ganglionic parasympathetic nerve transmission (because it becomes something involuntary as time goes!). Ok enough of it. Am so crazy these days due to excessive pressure and stress. (And if it is loaded on my shoulder it causes winging of scapula buahaha I haven forgotten what I revised yesterday!)

And anatomy is up to lower limb. Another LONG LONG LONG chapter to go. Study hard!!!

No much updates. Just sometimes feel so annoyed by classmates who always request for water from me. Maybe only 500ml enters into my body if I bring 1L each day. Sigh.

Texting with people is really fun because sometimes they tend to irritate you in a sweet way. I like my classmates for being funny and cute!(Only limited to some, exclude people who always annoy me by asking for water T.T")

Sunday, October 4, 2009

For a change of mood.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rexUdNhPFVI

Awhh I love this to de fullest..SO touching..

Different comments after watching this:

1. From an artistic person: Awhh this is so sad..Love is just so beautiful.

2. From a normal person with no artistic sense: Wah so kor-lian one..How nice if there is a guy who treats me lik tt (and then with de eyes full of love symbol)

Something like this:


3. From a rational person aka my classmate: Why he go n donate both eyes?Why cant he just donate one so both of them can see?

4. From somebody who is doing medicine (not me): What are the ways to make sure it is suitable to donate cornea? How come the liquid only harm her cornea but not some inner parts of the eyes?

Sweat......

Some of the greater things in life are unseen thats why I rather lose my eyes than losing you. The sightless life is terrible but what is worse is to wake up every morning without seeing you.

Aikss back to study :(

Friday, October 2, 2009

Just so bored.

Am bored with books lately, seriously. Really wonders why Albert can say that physiology textbook=story book. For me, it is more to a medicine for insomnia :)

Tests again on Mon-both Anatomy and Physiology. Will be dying so soon because I haven't finished what I am supposed to study. *sigh* No extra compartment in the brain to accommodate variations of different counts and every single branch of a thin nerve. And also Biochemistry principles which they will ask on MON itself.

So dead :(
(And it makes me feel even sadder looking at some ppl's blog posting piccies taken in Aus. Ouch can I not be here?

Saturday, September 26, 2009

Sat.

Am being VERY lazy today, kept myself online for hours, and also kept myself accompanied by Mr Chou (Chou Gong).

No mood to study.

1. Get bored of it. I want something new.

2. The room is a little bit noisy. Now I start to complain why single rooms are not available. Haizz. Hate the moment when they talk so loudly on the phone.

3. I want to go out for a cup of coffee/watching Dasara festival with people so chaotic outside.


Perhaps should ask my classmate to give me a ride on his bike :)

Friday, September 25, 2009

Fri again!

Well it is friday night again! So happy enjoying at pizza hut just now even though my legs were full of mud(it was raining so heavily, so called transition period bluff ppl wan :( ) Friday is always happy, and it would be happier if tmrow is a holiday! Sadly it isnt. Tmrow summore have to identify muscles nerves and vessels during tutorial-waiting to get scolded coz I am so fed up of reading it. How nice if the clock shows 1pm when I wake up tomorrow!

Had a slight fever yesterday but so glad to meet people I want to meet online. :) Miss yall dearrrrss!

Mood is 0.01% spoilt by a person who doesnt want to be ragged by seniors BY BETRAYING MY PHONE NUMBER. U think I really dont mind you giving my num to some unknown seniors? I will kill you if any one of them start texting me BLUEK.

And there is this very cute furniture reaching my house today--a pink fridge! They took lik 2 months to go to de shop, buy a fridge n put in our house (without plug summore).--means stil not usable for de time being.



The height is even shorter than Fish Leong.


This is India.

Saturday, September 19, 2009

感触

原来我真的把自己看得太重了。

原来他真的可以把我忘记,那么快,那么容易。
曾经,他说过把我忘掉是多么的不可能,多么的痛苦。

原来,那些不可能只是短短的5个月。

其实我不应该有这样的感触,心里觉得很不舒服是为了什么?我很努力地告诉自己,是谁拒绝了他?是谁把他搞得晚上失眠?是谁让他觉得那么自卑?又是谁把他的心再度丢碎?

是我。是我的错。

过去了就应该放手。I always tell this to myself, but how many times have I managed to do that? Not even a single time.

I cant expect him to always be there for me looking back at how I turned him down. But I just want to. I cant forget how we started to get closer to each other, how intimate we were, and everything just disappeared within a month.

I guess I shall really frame the memory up, dig a hole and plant it inside.

It used to be mine, and I know it is no longer mine.

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Pissed.

Damn pissed with some people who think themselves as GREAT people who deserve respects from everyone just because he holds the title DR even though he has done shit things at shit times.

Eventually come to know that it is really difficult to communicate to people of different age group(yes, I am saying that he is old since he keeps emphasizing that he is a dermatologist.) Don't ever think of arguing with people older than you in India. They only know how much you have to respect them without even understanding the simple theory that people will respect you naturally if you know how to respect people at the first place.

Bull shit you calling us and scold about nonsensical stuffs.

Bull shit you having had to miss call a young girl from Malaysia, expect her to call back, waste her own credit just to get scolded by you.

Bull shit you being so individualistic and always think that you treat us well. (with your heart, huh? I didnt know your heart grows at your ass, anatomy never taught me that!)

Bull shit you acting like a 6-year-old kid when you are 60 years old.

PISSED.

Saturday, August 29, 2009

Computer idiot.

I have created some collage for my lappie's wallpaper, but it is in the PowerPoint form. Sweat.

Have been texting alot with Rajath, because the messages sent after 2nd msg is FOC.

Sienss..

Friday, August 28, 2009

Updates!!

Ok point form will be better as I have to offline VERY soon. Now only 1 cable in this 1-stop wifi room so everybody must take turn to use. I HATE THEIR EFFICIENCY.

1. One month anniversary in India! This place is great, not as bad as I think at least. Everything goes smooth here even though sometimes very kek sim with how people do things.

2. I hate my Physiology HOD. Ask us to sit according to roll num(U know my initial is W). So I m like sitting SOOOO behind. Cant see his horrible cursive writing on the board and his very funny way of talking-attach a mic on his shirt but never switch it on. Silly little old man.

3. I have to say that I am a Malaysian. People always speak to me in Hindi on de street, or even in campus's canteen. They like to think that I am from North India. Ya, I am abit darker than Chinese but takkan everytime also kena misrecognised! Sobss..

4. And ahem ahem--I am popular in campus. Buahahaha. My classmates like to make fun of my way of shouting my roll num- One thirty-two. Really dont understand why they want to laugh. Isykk geram. And the worse thing is after laughing they will imitate AGAIN. And there is this very annoying Rajath who says my way of shouting is so similar to how his parrot talks. T.T""

5. And ahem ahem-I wont consider eating any other cuisines except for Chinese(if you understand). Korean and Indian food aren't suitable for me. I prefer Chinese LOL.

Kla vaish will shout at me if I still continue occupying this cable. Bye!

Saturday, August 15, 2009

Title-less.

Yeah finally moving to a new apartment tmrow! Going to stay in a triple sharing room with JJ and Vaish. Hope everything goes smoothly, we talk less and study more HAHA. Gals really cannot control themselves when it comes to chatting and shopping hehe..

Poked myself today for twice for an experiment. Life of a medical student is so saddenning-u need to poke yourself when you need blood for any experiment. Gotta be slightly anaemic when I graduate after 5years. Classes here are beginning to be hectic as I thought, study study study, understand understand understand, and memorize meorize memorize. Have to be used to it, no choice I guess. Sigh.

Keep on changing my msn PM tonight, simply because tmrow is National's Day for India and we are having holiday!You wont know how precious a free Saturday means to we people who go for class from 8 to 1 every Sat. Very happy because ChenJin and Lee YongDae managed to make it to the semifinals of India Open in Hyderabad! Hyderabad is so near yet so far to me..I want to see them so much..Second PM was about how much I like Shin Ramen. So happy to have somthing unfound in India--Korea's instant noodles! 1 Korean guy in JJ's class gave her a few packets so she shared with me. Gotta eat it tomorrow SLOWLY because it is too precious LOL.
And I changed it to another one before appearing offline. So sweet. It describes Andrew for posting such a sweet video for his hf in FB, and another one is both JJ and Kelvin. Needless to say what they told each other, but it is really sweet..Many people asked why I dont want to have a boyfriend-ya concentrating on studies is really more important for me at this stage, and the other thing is that it is not easy to find a person whom you really like. Yes, there are quite alot of people who came into my life and kind of asked for something more than a friend, but I just learnt to say sorry and reject. No specific reason for this, I always think that there must be a chemistry before anything starts. (And that is also why I doubt the appearance of so many couples among my friends all of a sudden).

Go sleep la, tired.

Saturday, August 8, 2009

BACKKK AGAINNN..

Been missing for so long without a proper reason-hoho, kiranya ponteng la hehe..Posted almost all of my piccies on facebook, and I am actually abit lazy to continue snapping pictures whenever I walk around Mysore. College days are tiring even though classes haven't started yet. Simply because TWO OF MY FRENS ARE SUSPECTED TO HAVE H1N1!! They are now being quarantined in the world most horrible hospital-my uni's hosp. We all think that this place makes people feel even sicker, and we just cant imagine that we are going to work here 2years later! OMG God please rescue me. ANyhow seeing this condition in the hospital makes me understand why India graduates are better doctors than other places-can see directly from my timetable. Everyday 11am-1pm dissection, 2pm-4pm practical-And if it is an anatomy practical on that day, it means that I am going to look at the same cadaver for whole day. Very good experience huh?

Ok, lets talk about the people here. My classmates are overall friendly, except for some of them being a little bit more arrogant. And you know what: Indians are actually more kiasu than Singaporeans. Whenever lecturers ask question, they will shout the answer out regardless it being correct or wrong. I see this as gaining attention from lecturers, how about you?
MBBS has got 1 thailand guy while BDS has 1 korean guy and 1 tibet girl. I shall admit that the korean is cute, really cute *winks*. And there ARE handsome and macho guys in my class also, but the saddest thing is: there is something called brotherhood here and they will express it by holding hands when they walk, no matter how macho they look like. There is this very macho guy who grabbed my attention on the 1st day(eventually I got to know that his name is Abysher). Really like his figures very much but everything diminished in 1 second when I saw him holding hands with his fren. OMGGGGG..

Gotta revise something before I sleep, so I better go. Bai..

Sunday, August 2, 2009

1st post in India!

It is 12,21am here. By right I should be sleeping because the breakfast tmrow will reach at 7.15am. India is nice, India is cool, India is incredible, but the most unexpected thing is INDIA IS SO COLD.

The weather here is so urm, I think FUNNY is the word. Most of the time what you see is only clouds, but the sun comes out for 5min and hides back behind the cloud, and the rain here is for 5seconds. (not synthetic rain ok!) So basically the weather here is cooling, especially when we are riding an auto(something like the tut-tut car in Thailand-which we get cheated most of the time due to our ALIENATED looks and SNOWY FAIR skin colour(for them lah of coz).

Indian food and water is okay. We had 2 dinners in hotels, 1 in Subway, and another in Briyani Paradise. I love their parota(something like roti canai) and dosa(with potatoes inside)!! India is famous for its ice-cream too, as they use pure cow milk to make it(btw their choc flavoured ice=cream is inedible LOL). Local people here love to have yogurt for every meal, but I just cant stand it! So sour and it tastes very weird.

Very sleepy already..COnt next time with some updates on my med school!

Sunday, July 26, 2009

OMG tmrow flying dyy..

Now I can totally understand what Gaya meant by mixed feeling the day we chatted in KLIA. I am having this very emo kind of feeling now, esp after Josh told me so many things. And the feeling just come all of a sudden when you know how important are you in a person's heart. I dont dare to say that everything he said was from the bottom of his heart, but having such a sweet and warm friend like him really makes me feel touched(although he is also not in Msia now).

Cant believe that this day comes so fast. Everybody left and we are the only batch in Msia.
Hope everything goes smooth for me. I know I wont be able to sleep well the night before. Lets pray hard for me to enjoy every moment on the journey to India. Muacks Msia I love you.

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Finally discharged.

Time: 10am.
Date: Few days ago
Venue: Klinik Pergigian Cahaya Suria
Mood: VERY excited.

Heard the words I wanted to hear for almost 9years-ok, gigi dah tak ada masalah kan?So skrang kita akan discharge u la. Nanti dtg ambik balik model gigi dan semua tu ya. By Dr Fatimah, a lovely orthodontist.


A person who is born with prefect teeth shape will never understand how sad we people feel about our teeth. Oral health is VERY important to me(shud have taken dentistry not medicine perhaps =P) The rightest thing my dad has ever done is to bring me to an orthodontist haha!

See la, how horrible it was. Act can see even clearer from both sides because the allignment wasn't good at all. Posterior teeth have more spaces to grow than the anterior ones, and since the upper row was grown outer than the lower one, so teeth at the lower part are grumbled together due to insufficient space.


This pic is worse:


Tada! After having a metal in my mouth for 2years plus. Suddenly feel that every single moment of pain worthes it.


Comparison! Before and after.


Hehe, so people!Lets get a "metal surgery" in your mouth for a more charming smile!

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

无不能说的秘密

第一次用华语去写这篇东西,因为我真的很懒惰去想一个最贴切的字来形容我想说的话了。华文毕竟是我的母语嘛!

昨天晚上我用了一段还蛮长的时间去写一封信,一封歌颂友情的信。不知道是不是太久没提笔写字了,所以一写就写了5页。很长吧!姐姐看我写的时候觉得很惊讶,拼命问我是写给谁,是男还女的朋友,为什么要写,怎样拿给他之类的..其实我可以说骗话,但是又觉得太没意义了。所以就坦白告诉他是写给一个男生朋友-然后她又来了:男朋友啊?OMG. 我很不想去解释这个人对我的重要性,任凭外人觉得我们是不是有东西,我都真的不介意。因为我们之间有一份很深很重的情谊-比朋友更难能可贵!

今天在客厅包礼物的时候又轮到我妈了。觉得她鼓起很大的勇气才问我-给男朋友的啊?Haizz. 为什么送礼物一定是给异性朋友呢?为什么不能送领带给男生朋友呢?

很多人都知道男女之间不一定只有爱情,但真的很难把它弄成可能的事。我觉得自己真的很幸运,身旁都有很多跟我很好的男生朋友-而我这封信的主人可以算是之中较好的一个吧!
他对我真的很重要。当我遇上困难的时候,他一定会想办法帮忙。当我被人误会,甚至开始被最好的朋友排挤时,他选择相信我是无辜的,尽全力去开导我-虽然把我搞成如此田地的是他一个还蛮要好的朋友。我们无话不聊,当我有不开心的时候都会想向他倾诉-因为他真的是个很好的聆听者。

其实我很赞同把爱说出口这种说法,因为人只会活一次,有东西没说出来真的可能会终生包憾。选择写一封信给他是想让他知道,在我心目中他是一个很好的朋友,永永远远都是我最好的朋友。他让我有了一段很好的友情,让我知道其实男女之间可以有很纯很简单的友谊。我们都知道彼此会找到自己的爱情,因为我们的友谊永远不会变质,所以自然不用担心会爱上对方。我很感谢他的女朋友是个很大方的人,她知道我是不会干涉他们之间的感情的。

希望他读完我的信后会知道我是那么地感激他,那么地珍惜这份难得的友情。就算韩诺要给我一百万去典当友情,我肯定会断然拒绝。哈哈...

有想说的话就说吧,别憋在心里!总以为终有一天会说的话,那你一定会带着遗憾了。

Monday, July 20, 2009

Cont of the previous post.

The pretty girls.

Suet Lai!!Make sure next time don't snatch business with me. Pretty Dr Liew studying in Russia.

HuiJad!!Once monitor forever monitor..

This one must introduce properly. How many ppl can own a BMW at the age of 20? And I really cant believe that de guy who sat in front of me in std5 managed to do that!

Lok Wee!!Dont know how to describe, but I know we will always be very close fren.

YiJet the China man

Loong Wei!!My driver of the day..*his gf is so pretty*

KaiLi!!One of my primary school's best friend.

Sue Jean!!Always de cheerful one..

HuiJing..damn lenglui liao..

Apple!!Our bak kut teh lao ban niang..

Back!!

Been missing for a few days. Kinda lazy to blog, and sometimes I didnt even get to browse through URLs because too many ppl are online these days!! Busy chatting with them who have just reached and settled down in India, and other friends who are in different part of the world. I enjoyed the busy-ness so much despite causing pains on my fingers.

Went for a primary school gathering on Sat. Met back many of my long lost friends that I have not seen them for the past 8yrs!!Of course, busy chatting and camwhoring.

Pic soon.

Could not contact Blogger.com. Saving and publishing may fail. Retrying...


Hate it.

Monday, July 13, 2009

The 100th post!

Oh no!Can't believe that I can write so much. No, supposed to be crap. KLE Belgaum takeoff was very nice, in fact nobody cried at all even though I can still see Sim Mee's tears rolling in her eyes. My siblings(who went with me out of curiosity) thought I will cry seeing them walking down the escalator but I didn't. Din feel like crying at all. But I almost drop tears seeing Andrew's family crying. His girlfriend, mum, and sister..He is such a lucky man to have 3 important women crying for him when he flied. Tears rolled down their cheeks told me how much they love him.
Haiz, long distance relationship-wish you two luck.

Talking about long distance relationship, I really feel like scolding some irresponsible human being who created a nonsensical excuse to rebut me on his anti-long-distance-relationship theory. Dont crap la my future uni mate!Why is it so hard to stand out and admit that XXX is your girlfriend/boyfriend?

Uploaded some long-lost piccies on fb. Miss the old times.

2 more weeks to go. Phoebe jia you!!

Saturday, July 11, 2009

This is the day.

They all flying liao. I damn emo.

Thursday, July 9, 2009

Worst day.

The shittest thing on earth is to get a bad news suddenly that a person you hate so much is SUDDENLY changed to your college.

Shit man.

Shit.

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Pre-departure preparation.

These days my conversation with friends always begin with "How's everything?packed dy?..."
And I will answer with things lik: Dont know how to pack, dont know what to buy, dont know what I haven bought.

*Now I start thanking God because I am not leaving on the 12th!*

A small mistake let me missed the chance to meet up with ChanHui before I fly. Hey dear friend it has been a year since we last ate and talked nonstop at TGI Pavilion!!Miss the time we spent together SO much.....
Met up with YYS and Nikki yesterday. Really very geng, shopped from Mid Valley to Times Square then to SgWang Plaza thinking of going to Pavilion before going back home. But we shopped for too long in Times Square so couldn't make it. Spent so much yesterday for so little things-just birthday present for sister and some clothes. Tangan terlalu banyak went to close my banking account so now I am left with no ATM card to withdraw money from -.-" Only can look at how YYS repeated the steps of trying, deciding which colour, checking and paying. Even shopping queen sat aside on the sofa and wait. What to do, Nikki and I bankrupt.

Received a message from Nikki when I was waiting for train on the way back, kinda touched la. Really miss the days we do all crazy stuff together. I bet I will never find a roommate like her-go jalan-jalan downstairs at 3am, walk to the hill at 8pm and eventually lost our way coming back college, and so many more. You always have a special spot in my heart too. I love you very much!How nice if we are to go India together..

Addicted to Bejeweled!!!!!Never mind I have time for it *kekeke*

Saturday, July 4, 2009

Aiya, sien la..












Trip to Redang!Malas nak elaborate la..

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Back back back!!

KI is officially over, graduation hi-tea in Pan Pacific was nice, and the most important event--pre-departure briefing is also gone!! I will say it a very important thing to me because they give us lots of preparation physically and mentally. Mentally to make us psychologically prepared, and physically----money la wat else.

Off to Kuala Terengganu the day after briefing. Didn't really get enough time to rest though. Came back at night then started to unpack things from KTT and fill the same luggage bag with essential items to KT.

Day 1- Reached KT airport with a mask. Influenza A is a serious pandemic now, I have been waiting for the chance to study abroad for SO LONG so I cant risk getting any kind of diseases. Went for satay with Jun's friends-Debbie and Jovin. Jovin is such a sweet girl, I love her so much!!!Couldnt get my eyes away from her at al OMG!!

Day 2-Went to a few tourist attractions in KT aka Crystal Mosque, Pasar Payang, Muzium Negeri and others. Had dinner at Jun's house as her mum cooked a SUPER NICE LOH MEE filled with many many mushrooms and many many meats.

Day 3-Off to Redang with Debbie and a new friend called Shaun Fook. Very nice guy studying in IMU. He makes me think of Kean Seng wahaha.

Redang is so fun despite me being so tanned by the UVA and UVB trapped under the water. Went snorkelling for 3 times. It was such an amazing experience swimming together with fishes. Beautiful corals and colourful fishes. I simply like the sea!! Simply cant resist the sense of peace and tranquility when I laid on the crystal clear water.

Will upload pictures in fb later. Wanna sleep dy!!

Saturday, June 20, 2009

How to express yourself.

मैं आप का प्यास हू

Don't know why I will think of you when I'm not doing anything. Whenever my handphone rings, I hope the call/text is from you. Whenever I go online, I scroll down my MSN list just to see whether you are there or not.

I know this is not a right timing, I know I missed the chance. Hope I can convert this to a friendship, a true friendship lasts longer than what we might had been.

Diet plan officially destroyed!

I bought a jeans with an extremely low price yesterday, but my main intention is on the jeans size. I BOUGHT AN S-SIZED JEANS. First time in my life YAY! Tada, my plan of eating less and exercising more works finally! But I think for the coming weeks I am going to increase my weight exponentially AGAIN. Went Shogun last week for a lunch buffet, seafood restaurant for dinner last Thurs, and steamboat buffet for lunch yeterday night! And I think I will continue eating like nobody's business next week-graduation dinner and trip to Redang!


Shogun buffet! The sushi are so tempting.


Professor busy eating. His hotte is an endless hole.

Friends.

YYS and I just woke up from a deep slumber--besarnya muka.

Yeh bowling tournament in which me, prof and yys became tahi tikus for haomin. Our group has a very funny scoreboard which made everybody laughs. Extreme score difference between members lol.


Singing session. Wonderful time when we sing those oldies together.


Andrew and YiYou being the guitarists while JunKai takes the role of digital bass guitarist.


KTT always gives people a very bad impression due to its facilities and teaching quality. However, in this suburb area, I really learned a lot of things. And after 3 days, I am leaving KTT eternally. TAK NAK BETUL...1st time in life we ever realize how sad it is to leave a place full of memories, tears and laughters.

Here, I got to know a bunch of close friends.

Here, I started knowing the meaning of competition.

Here, I did many crazy things that will even make me laugh out on my own when I recall it.

Here, I got my first medal in my life.

Here, I realize that I actually have a bit talent on sports, and that makes me fall in love with frisbee.

Here, I know how fast words spread when somebody started it.

Here, I learn the meaning of love and being loved.

And now, I am leaving it.

I dont want to pack all my memories into a big box and keep it under my bed. Because that makes me cry when I think about it. I know I am going to cry very badly this coming tuesday-graduation day as we promised that we will sing songs with Andrew and YiYou playing guitar.

The songs will be 萍聚,朋友, 祝你一路顺风.


那一天知道你要走,
我们一句话也没有说
当午夜的钟声敲痛离别的心门
却打不开你深深的沉默
那一天送你送到最后
我们一句话也没有留
当拥挤的月台挤掉送别的人门
却挤不掉我深深的离愁
我知道你有千言你有万语却不肯说出口
你知道我好担心我好难过
却不敢说出口
当你背上行囊,卸下那份荣耀
我只能让眼泪留在心底
面带着微微笑,用力的挥挥手
祝你一路顺风。
当你踏上月台,从此一个人走
我只能深深的祝福你,深深的祝福你
最亲爱的朋友,祝你一路顺风。

Thursday, June 11, 2009

L-O-V-E

I can't find a reason not to like him as much as I am now. Uncontrollable feeling and hairs standing up straight when he sings.

Oops, I don't only like him. I LOVE HIM as much as I notice- JJ Lin.

Kannada Night

Tada!Kannada Night was held last night in our small DU-the last language night. Meaning after this we will be having NO MORE dance and drama pratices. Our class decided to do fashion show, so all girls were in sarees tied in different styles. KTT is full of pretty girls, the VERY pretty ones I must emphasize.

Radzuan. We always look lik a couple when pictures are snapped.

Mei Yee!Andrew's gorgeous girlfriend..

Me with a pottu on forehead which actually looks more like a sailormoon symbol.
Deng deng deng! Me in Maleyali-style saree. Indianish enough?

*More pictures on facebook!*