Hi, 2011.

Happieeeeee Neeewwwww Yeeeaarrrrr!

Hope all of us have a great start in this brand new year. So lucky to be welcomed by 1/1/11. Love!

With respect to 2010 Guangzhou Asian Game.

Was keep browsing through pages this few days just to look for Asian Game live streaming, but all pages tell me the same thing:

"So sorry, live streaming is not available at your region."

I was like WTH. WHY NOT. Ok this is India, so keep low expectation yea.

But I will still keep track with the latest news of this game. I am a sports idiot who love watching sports.

Me and my ChenJin. As usual HEHE. Hope he beats tikus lee tmrow!

A 20yrs old cutie Lee YongDae. Korean guy. SOOOWWW CUTE. Olympic gold medalist ok.

Another cutie. Park Tae Hwan, 20yrs old, Olympic gold medalist. And he got 3 gold medals for freestyle swimming this time. <3

And not only guys caught my attention for Asiad. They say snooker is the most eventful sport for this game because almost all competitors are gorgeous. Give you all some examples:

Death.

Yea a very sensitive topic for almost everyone. Even doctors who face death everyday. Hmm few days back a junior from KTT was killed in a road mishap, and he passed away after a few hours. It was really heartbreaking to hear this because once it happened my housemate came and told me about how serious his injury was, and we started praying for him. Just right after we prayed, her bf called to tell us he didn't make through it.

Yea life is so fragile. I was not there so I dont know about the details. What would happen if that day he didn't get onto the bike? What if he died because the hosp didnt transfer him to a better-equipped hospital on time? What if he was wearing a helmet?.........

And after this incident I saw on fb that Tharan's mum passed away. Didnt get to ask about what exactly happened but everybody will definitely have a hard time when somebody close pass away. Tharan is a shy guy who always refuses to talk to me face-to-face. Hope he can be strong to face all the obstacles God gave him.

And after this incident a diabetic HK actor passed away. Since young I am always attached to HK series and stuff, family influence perhaps. Thats why I know pretty much about HK artists, doesnt matter they are famous or not. This is not a very famous one, and you might not know who he is if I tell you his name, but ur reaction after seeing his pic will be OHHHHH I KNOW HIM JUST THAT I DUNNO HIS NAME~Yea, that kind of response. Having had amputation of the right leg at 50 years old, he still insisted to continue his career as an artist. One that works on stage, in front of people, fearless of people's sights and thoughts. Brave is all that I can describe.

So life is fragile. One day you might have everything in the world-

a good career

a happy family

a sweet BF

a bunch of friends who are always there

and many more that others hope for.

But God is not obliged to give you all this. Who knows tomorrow when you wake up, everything just changed suddenly. Came across this in a sina blog:

【幸福是什么？】1.幸福就是每天早晨醒来一看表，竟然还能再睡半个小时。2.幸福就是你去自习室上自习，一推开门发现自己想见的那个人也在这间教室里。3.幸福就是整理衣服时，在去年过冬的衣服里翻出好几十块钱。4.幸福就是开心的听完一首歌，看完一场电影。5.幸福就是每天早晨一睁眼，发现自己还活着。

What is Blessedness?1. Blessedness is that every morning when you wake up, you realize that actually you can sleep for half an hour more.

2. Blessedness is that everytime you go into a class, you notice that the person you are dying to see is in that class too.

3. Blessedness is that when you are tidying your wardrobe, you found a few bucks in the pockets.

4. Blessedness is that you are happy after listening to a song, or watching a movie.

5. Blessedness is that every morning when you open your eyes, you and the people you love are still alive.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sz-6k8Wdm8U&feature=share

Updates!

This is a I-hate-India week for me. Wanna do a big campaign and huge petition with lots of Msians signing for it. Will it succeed actually?LOL.

Went to Chennai for Diwali. Hmm huge malls and great food. Yummmm =) *pics on facebook later*

Been keeping my pace on the latest episodes of Desperate Housewives and Greys Anatomy. These series are way toooooo good =)

In love with hot guys Eric Dane and Brian Austin Green. And just few minutes ago I realized Brian is Megan Fox's husband. OMG. Their kids will be damn good looking......

Bonus pic!

Oh no I am supposed to include this in a few posts earlier but I keep forgetting. A giant ovarian cyst of a patient in OT. Thats my best memory of O&G dept before I left to this dull and boring Medicine posting.

Yo~

Yo people I am trying my level best not to study I dunno wats wrong with me. Someone please diagnose for me k!

So college day was over and we Msians performed dikir barat(as usual) coz we are not gonna sing and dance on the stage like those people. Those people who are so fascinated over dancing where the whole college day events are sticked to dancing. Yes everything is just dancing singing dancing and singing again.

And I also got myself involved in the "walking event". Because I couldnt stand people mumbling beside my ear asking thousands times why no Msia

ns wanna get involved. And as a consequence I had to stay till 10 something and had my dinner at 11. Bull shit JSS.

And I have a friend who is being so psychotic cause of a guy. Keep stalking on him and asking me Pheebs can I kidnap him one day?!! (Just go ahead I am not his mother you shouldnt ask me this)

I just cant open my book properly and study. Wats wrong man!!

Idiotic bald head who says that: OMG can you put up some smoky makeup for the show! And they FORCED me to sit down and drew for me. (acting too smart =.=)

I am supposed to wear this ok. But luckily plan changed yippy!

Yes this is a cheongsam. A kinda scary one cause it doesnt really accomodate my big fat tummy.

So at last I became like this :S

So I stayed at home and caught a cold.

Ahhhh apparently I didn't step out of my house for a single minute ystday and I fell sick. (Yes, it must be the hospital's fault! *assured*) Blocked nose which doesnt't relieve even after medication. And I still have posting tmrow =.=

Sometimes, the harder you try to fix stuff, the worse it goes. This theory applies to many conditions, including relationships. I had a friend who was quite close last time but eventually turned to somekind of a stranger. Due to what? I have no idea. So what I did was trying my best to find out whats wrong, and then fix it. But I failed. Not knowing whats wrong till today. This kind of things is a two-way thinggy right? You dont work very hard for it and the other person takes it for granted. So basically I just gave up doing things for this person.

Tmrow is a Monday AGAIN. My monday blue starts on Sundays. =)

Pissed.

Its so weird because I am pissed by my people this time, not the locals.

I AM ANGRY HOW TO GET RID OF MY ANGER CAN SOMEONE TEACH ME PLEASE!

Holiday~

Tada! This is the pic I was mentioning in my previous post. An Indian labourer is peeing in front of the huge CMG banner. Hilarious huh? (source from Deccan Herald)

Act people who stay in India understand this context pretty well. I see irregular wavy stains on public walls so often, sometimes accompanied by a person facing the wall doing his business. Nothing's special honestly, this is India.

This afternoon I was craving for ice-cream, and now I feel like eating supper. Oh God even a piece of Roti Sardin plus a glass of teh-o-ais-limau can bring me to heaven now. I mean RIGHT NOW. Awhhhhh stomach starts to cry.

ON DIET ON DIET ON DIET. Trying my level best to eat less. Heard that seniors are having open house again this week and I am not gonna listen to the temptations from any monster before that. Ok for the open house I promise I will only eat 2 plates. I am serious.( and that includes desserts okay)

Why do gals have to restrict themselves from eating and guys can eat like there is no tmrow! Unfair unfair unfair.

Do your job la indians!

So freaking sad when I got to know that they are postponing the announcement of the verdict AGAIN. This is the 2nd time ahhhhhh!!! *geram*

Last Thurs 45min before the last class ended, the vice principal came in and told us that there wont be any holiday on Fri and Saturday because the supreme court has delayed the announcement to next Tue, WHICH IS SUPPOSED TO BE TODAY.

Then during pharmed class today I kept bugging on Anura coz she says that her dad is gonna text her once the verdict is out. And you know what happened next.

THEY POSTPONED IT TO THURS AGAIN. Isykk Isykk Isykk.

Meaning that tmrow I still have to wake up early in the morning and get ready and jump into the auto to go class. And sit in the smelly outpatient department for 3hours AS USUAL. And they will halau us to the ward coz we are making the department like a refugee camp. So we have to go to the worse still ward and speak Kannada to the patients.

Ok I admit I have no language talent at all because till now I cant take a proper case without the help of my Kannadicans mates. SOBS.

Cross my fingers and hope that the verdict is really out on Thurs. Let's see their efficiency!

And ohya I have a very hilarious picture showing an Indian peeing in front of the Commonwealth banner. Interested people kindly come and approach me personally(otherwise someone will say that I am racist AGAIN).

Tata =)

Monday blue how how how.

Feel so blue la coz tmrow is Monday AGAIN. HMM.

And I think I have gone crazy!!!!Been haunted by some NONSENSE THOUGHTS FOR THE WHOLE DAY.........ARGHHHHH :)

One is 21 and another is 22.

Happy Birthday Love!

Nothing else to wish except that you two will pass with flying colors and be good doctors in the future. We hate India right, do we?

To the 21year old adult-hope we can maintain what we are currently appearing to each other. Life's not easy, I promise that I will treasure this special friendship. You too promise okay?

To the 22year old adult-faster go and read patho and stop onlining. Exam in 2 months time ok. I know you will do well :)

Happy Mid Autumn Festival~

Happy Mid Autumn Festival people! aka Mooncake festival. Pity the ancient people because last time they named it as Mid Autumn but not so many ppl of the younger generations actually rmber this name already. They prefer to replace it to MOONCAKE because that is the main point of celebrating it nowadays. HEHE so the focus changed from moon to cake.

I was telling a friend how much I am craving for mooncake and he gave me a very good reply: Eat a piece of cake under the moon :) Yea I am going to do this to replace the sadness of not able to eat mooncake like how I used to enjoy back in Malaysia.

Then my sampat younger sister and I would play candles. Collect the wax and melt it again and collect again and cut it into pieces and melt it again. Ok I admit I have no idea about whats so fun playing all these but seriously I am missing it now :(

At least better than seeing some menyampah people here.

Hari Raya~

Ok I know Msia has the concept of Satu Malaysia but seriously I never really celebrate Hari Raya. Because most of my Muslim friends in school last time stayed in asrama so they dont have house warming.

But thing changes now! The boys and girls here are so into their Raya mood that every weekend they wanna throw a party keke. A raya party with theme :)

So I get to eat rendang, kerepek, kuih batik, nasi lemak, mee soto and those stuff again and again YAY.

Ok die plan failed sobs.

When life's nothing but a mary-goes-round.

So Coorg has been added to the list of destinations I visited so far. They call it the Scotland of India, which I personally cant judge how appropriate it is because I dont know whether Scotland is full of muds like Coorg or not :P

The pic above shows Iruppu fall, a kinda nice one despite the roads to get there is MISERABLE. We were like pendulums in the car being rotated again and again thanks to all those lubangs yang berlambak on the way. Biasalah India right.

Scenary taken in Raja Seat showing tea+coffee plantation around. Nice breeze :)

Abby Fall! Personally liking it so much :)

Golden temple in a Tibetan Village. Finally saw a Buddhist Temple after being here for more than a year.

Tmrow is a tuesday and tuesday is a school day. If A=B and B=C so A=C so tmrow is a school day. I DONT WANT TO GO :(

Happy Eid Festival!

Abandoned my bloggie for so long because I am so piggy these days-have been sleeping at 10 and waking at 7 everyday lol. Tmrow is the last day of class and after that will be enjoying 4days off for Raya hols+Swamiji's bday. LOVEE this holiday so much hopefully I can freeze it til I get bored and wanna attend classes again hehe.

Basically classes are really boring. Postings lagi lah boring. HMM really wonder how am I going to go through these few years in college and hospital :(

Our hospital sucks big time okay. Its about hundred times worse than the piccies I took. What to do, phone terlalu canggih.

Outpatient department. People queuing up for registration.

In front of the main entrance of JSSH.

Way to private wards and surgical wards.

Tada!Front door.

P/S: More pictures on fb. This one abit too slow.

Again.

Same style, same phone, same person, same inbox. It's all back again, but what differs is the content. We chose to evade.

We are cowards.

Started to feel bored with this semester.

I'm not a honeymoon person. So if you ask me to rest my brain for a long time I cant. This is known as kiampak aka "kurang pukul".

So I just spent my Thurs night watching Ais Kacang Puppy Love, a 100% Malaysia production film. Hmm plot is ok the flow is good the characters are funny and I didnt really feel touched by it until the last scene.

They described the feeling as eating ais kacang. Pretty wonderful description.

And I watched 2 normal vaginal delivery today, one being a preterm baby almost fell into the pail used to collect her mum's shit. Ahhh what a pathetic baby. And she is so tiny and cute.

The other one is a very disastrous one. She has had contractions for nearly 2 hours yet doesnt want to push forcefully because she says it is painful. Oh God. Luckily the baby came out before I gotta rush to the bus going back to college. So I didnt manage to see the expulsion of placenta which follows.

God cannot take care of so many children so He created mums. I love you MAMA =P

Very lazy to study hehe.

Busy fb-ing and envying people's life, esp Cindy's.

So hang fuk =P

=P

You asked me whose life was more important- yours or mine and I answered "mine" ; you walked away angrily not knowing that you are my life.

Short and sweet. I <3 this =P

Beckie~

Hehe abandoned my blog for so long and eventually people came and asked me what happened. Nothing happened la just enjoyed my holiday so much and now am back in the same routine, something that is harder, challenging yet relaxing for me-SEM 3!

Basically nothing special la. Theory classes are lesser but postings are very frequent, 3hours a day =(

I am posted in OBG aka obstetrics and gynaecology department for this 2 months. Ward rounds are bad because we have to converse in Kannada to obtain patients info. Uhh tts de worst thing on earth. The nurses laugh at your pronounciation, patients dont und what you are asking, and you dont know what the patients are answering =(((

OT aka Operation Theater is way better!Because nobody speaks so its not a matter of language HEHE. But I have so many questions in my mind yet no one is free to entertain me in OT obviously. Takkan the specialists leave some threads in the patient's stomach for 1 minute to ans our queries first right.

Outpatient department is boring. Sangat sangat boring. Always do the same thing only. And I was like YER AGAIN HAIZ. With all the seniors who thought they all are perfect students bluek. I wan vomit.

Hmm nobody has an easy life right.

Hey =)

I'm at home now with my purse filled with only 2 RM1 notes. Buahahaa means bankrupt la means shopping too much la means I shall stop already.

Results is out when I was shopping in BB just now. 2friends called and talked in their very high pitch voice. Passed! Always wanted to pass and others are extra gifts from God. I know God saw how much we worked hard for this exam and He gave us great happiness in return! Finally can enjoy my remaining holiday happily yehhhh =)

But very sad la I cant have Vaish and Ram as my good friends for the next phase. Hopefully they can pass in their next exams.

Sometimes it is really hard to understand someone. Its like you have done your best to understand a person yet he/she never appreciate your effort. Dunno lah age gap perhaps. Ask and find her stuff she likes as present during my final exam time was what it took quite alot. Yet I didnt ask for anything in return. I just want her to be happy.
And keep persuading someone to accept her choice without her knowledge. Do you think I like to do that? And who the hell knows how hard it is?Because this is about altering a person's perception towards another person in whom she has no favorite in AT ALL. Ok me know me is confusing so kindly skip this paragraph =)

I just wanna release my emotion. Ok gao dim I wanna watch drama now keke XD

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Yeh last match of World Cup finally! Watched Germany vs Uruguay at home ALONE ystday, friend called out to watch at PJ but me good gal kay stay at home one LOL. So shouted and cheered myself like a mad person only T.T

Today I study Pavilionology =) Had a primary skul gathering followed by KTT super-mini-gathering-only-limited-to-assigned-guests hehe. Saw my 5C and 6C classmates who grow up with me together!Different people have diff "patterns" I shud say.

Have you seen a person who wakes at 12pm when the gathering is scheduled at 12pm? So we ended up being super late la thanks to LoongWei cos he came and fetch me. And by the time we reached PEOPLE HAVE ALREADY FINISHED EATING. Embarrassing betul left 4 of us eating when they were chatting happily. But thanks to DaoZhuo cos he is the bday boy so everyone bei min him right. HEHE.

So many people changed dy especially Cindy!!OMG she is damn pretty now (: So proud to have a friend as pretty as her HEHE. And I realized some swt guy also la about how they really estimate a girl. Caught them visualizing girls from head to toe. See la the guys nowadays T.T

And one thing: Not a single person trusted when I say I dont have bf. What does tt mean?Then ChiaHong started worrying for me dy buahahaha.

And then I left earlier to meet up Nikki and Leon. Then through Leon I got to know one of his frens which he claims that ChiaYin is in his gang(then later at night I told her she denied it SO LOUDLY lol). Haha nice guy though. With Nikki and Leon sure no need to say la. Keep on laughing only. Nikki and I always have tonnes to laugh about =)

More Pavilionology and Botanical studies to go!
P/S: Botanical studies means you do research in GARDENS hehe.

Hehe holiday XD

From Oliver Kahn to Manuel Neuer- I LOVE Germany goalkeepers. They are, ahem, more than just great.

And Frank Lampard.

And Muller.

And Klose.

And Xavi.

I know World Cup is ending soon and now only I write this is abit outdated. But still, this is MY blog.

Kindly press the X button on the right side top most part of your window thanks!

Back!

Finally done with the screwest exam ever!I mean theory part. Pracs not that scary anyway because they wont ask the course of some arteries or nerves. And biochem we have done for like times so it is okay. Abit worried about physio because I always screw my Human experiments..AHhhhhhhhh I cant speak Kannada dont ask me to deal with the kids who cant speak english!!!!!!


Ok declare to be dead.

Another week and I AM GOING BACK TO MALAYSIA. Woohoo cant wait because so many people have promised me so many things and I wanna see how many of them actually accomplished LOL. You know I am talking about you!

Gonna watch another FIFA match later. Screwed la that James fella. And Never the great goalkeeper for Germany. I bet his full name is NEVER EVER TRY TO GOAL.

Hope I have more mood to study =)

Hmm.

Bored bored bored bored bored.

I have a very big table but now it is SO fully utilised that it cant accomodate my lappie.

Thanks to JSSMC for their super GREAT timetable for us. Where can finish everything laaaaaaa :(

The nearer the exam, the more relaxed I become. Hahaha whatever la just go and crap what I know. Lazy to study dy.

Go sleep bye people!

I am disappointed with what I had, not because of failure or wat, just coz I cant achieve what I want myself to.

Forcing myself for another 2weeks. Hmm there it comes-the scariest final. People are working damn hard nowadays. I know I shouldnt relax.

Afterall I just dont want to disappoint people who have faith in me, no matter they are friends, lecturers, parents or who. And of course myself. I wanna do the best out of everything I can.

So please God. Let me be strong for this month. Please.

I am blogging bcoz I have given up.

Yea according to the title, I have given up. Given up on my 3rd internals. Definitely flunking it bcoz there is so much to study and I am not studying.

Bcoz one of my birthday wishes is to pamper and love myself more. I realized that I have treated myself rather badly these years. Am not doing what I want. Am implanting disciplines on myself. Am forcing myself to do things that I dont want.

So the last 30 min of my birthday is used to close all my books and concentrate on what I wanna do. After that I will go to sleep and tmrow I will wake up at 12pm and kill myself. LOL JK only la 3rd internal only ma SO WHAT.

Coz they are only taking the best 2 results out of all 3 so flunk it people!!

Birthday was great because I pampered myself for the whole day. A quiet and easy one in my room doing things I wanna do.

Thanks for all the wishes and presents. Not many but sufficient for me to be happy. Actually I expected for calls from few people but hahaha not even one of them called up. So the moral of the story is not to expect too much from others =)

Tomorrow will be the 1st day of me being a 20-years-old girl. Hope all my wishes will come true!

I promise that I will love myself more each day.

Slap my own face, nope, is hand.

I have written on the previous post that am not going to blog anymore since my exam is in less than 6 days now. But still,

CONGRATS TO MY DEAR SIS!!

Ok 1st of all I admit that I REALLY thought it is so SWEAT to get KTT again because I have never seen 2 siblings kena-masuk-dan-suffer at the same place LOL.

But then I went to recom forum and found out that so many people scored like berlambak A+ and are not offered with scholarship so I start thinking maybe it is fated and you are so lucky to get it! (Even thou ur friends who are lik damn rich also get better country than you do)

But still I will introduce Mr Zaini to you LOL. He is a cute and round physics lecturer in KTT =)

And I am looking forward to visit gujie with you next time!!

A temporary goodbye.

Me is saturated AGAIN, as usual. But this time is worse because headache accompanies the saturation.

Am abandoning my blog for perhaps 1 month?

Gotta seriously prepare for last internal and final examination.

I only want to pass pleaseeeeeeeeeee.....

........

Me IS fully saturated T.T

But the fact is that I only read 2 pages of biochem. Stupid minerals.

Me IS missing my sister =( seems like she is suffering there awhhh so sad.

And tmrow is going to be a big day for my dearrryyyy boy. Ok he is not my boyfriend la of course. But he is having a super big mission to protect his country's pride at 14/5/2010 7.30pm onwards. Baby I know you can do it LOVE you lots :)


And I miss you la wicked bitch!! Faster come back to me :))

This post is out of guilt for not updating that often LOL.

Waiting for dinner time now =P Really tired of biochem :(

Actually this post is just for certain people whom I dont really know how to express words right in front of their faces. =P

There is this 'aunty' whom I knew from my sister and we only got closer when I came over here. Because she is always online and dont know since when we started to crap alot together. Hmm she had a minor operation(I think somehow I know what happened but since she didn't mean to tell me so I quitted asking) today and I hope she will rest well. She said that she is not the kind of people who sit properly and rest. So I hope at least for once she is doing this! Hopefully she will recover soon. China's trip aka World Expo is waiting ahead!

And there is this another aunty whom had something great started few days back. We two dont really talk about relationship and all those stuff. Basically we all always crap ;P Yeah I thought every family would have sisters who share every single stories together, but that doesnt really apply in my family. There are still certain things we three prefer to discuss with friends or whoever we are comfortable with.

And definitely these 3 girls are not the kind who talk to our mum about:

Mammy I think this guy named XXX likes me.

Mammy today got people proposed to me.

Mammy I have a very handsome classmate and he gave me choc and flower today and I think he is going to propose next week.

T.T""

They are 3 independent great ladies who believe that boyfriend is not a necessity and definitely not a must, in which 2 of them are still single and available and have hot markets. Kindly contact +911234567890 for further information. LOL.

Okay after all this holy crap what I want to say is that I hope my lovely sister is blessed with lots and lots and lots and lots of love. And with that me and my younger sister will also be blessed with lots and lots and lots and lots of bacon+sausage+fillet+spaghetti+crab+sushi and all. :))

Love you my sister I dunno whether your taste has altered or what (jkjk) and all blessings will be poured to those who are loved and those who know how to love :D

And one more thing I love Rebekah because she loves Leehom Wang ;P
Nothing can be more exciting than talking about him in dissection hall ==))

I should have posted his video on youtube then now he will come all the way to India to thank me!

There is this miraculous boy who doesn't speak English and doesnt have an Adam's apple. And he became so famous all over the world because he sang 2 ultimately-hard-to-sing songs on a Taiwanese entertainment show, One Million Star aka the one I am so addicted to. A person with perfect pronounciation singing Whitney's famous songs-Saving all my love for you and I will always love you. A guy OK. Original key OK. Bukan main punya OK.

During competition: (Latar belakang: He didnt actually participate in the contest, just a random person who went there to compete with the contestants)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7B5325eeiPk

And this new SuBo went so famous the next day and he was even at the 1st page of Yahoo US! Now he is enjoying his trip to USA (1st time) being invited for interviews by Ellen ____ and Lopez's Tonight.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EvB-lIhmbDQ

His "Saving all my love for you" is so touching woohoo.
Anyway interested candidates are strictly welcomed to google or youtube for his video singing Amazing Grace. Tell me how many people can sing that original key as good as him.

This fat guy made Taiwan famous to ang-mohs! And it is so touching to be able to hear Mandarin in USA live talkshows T.T

12.14am

I have wasted alot of time sleeping and watching movie and onlining and crapping with my sis and manja-ing myself and doing lotsa thing to release stress and trying to think about what is in my brain lately :P

At last no conclusion is obtained.

I always thought I am a simple person, a person who just do whatever she wants and not considering what others think about me. But I am wrong. I am not at all close to someone like that. I care. I dont do what I want because I have always wanted too many things. Bunking class?Ohya it is one of them. But I never do it without purpose. I would think of what happened in the college when I bunked for the whole day. What was taught and can i catch up later and all. Sleeping?Ohya I claimed to myself that I am super tired and having headache and this ache and that ache so that I can have another 5min sleep-and it often extends to hours actually.

Am having really terrible life these days because I am forcing myself to do things that I dont want to. I am not letting myself to love Phoebe any further. I start wanting my brain to hate who I am so that I can further concentrate on how to attack Woo Fui Bee until she eventually falls on the ground, totally unconscious. Is this call mad?I dont know. Sometimes(no, most of the time in fact) I would think that why I ended up here. Why my fingers have compound sensation last time that led me to click on Medicine on the PSD Application form. And why on earth I accepted this offer.

Feeling really fed up sometimes. With lots of works and unfinished syllabus and things that I forget after reading it 5min ago.

And most importantly, I realize the scariness of loneliness.

Fear, is conquering me.

我们暧昧，却不属于对方。

Came across this post on Facebook and I feel very sad.

暧昧是，比好朋友再亲一点，但比恋人远一点。

　　暧昧是，你会常常在QQ等他在线。当他几天没有在线

，你就会有些担心。

　　暧昧是，你会不时去他的BLOG看看有没有更新；而且你会留意字里行间，他对你有没有什么暗示。

　　暧昧是，有感觉，然而，这种感觉不足以叫你们切切实实地发展一段正式的关系。

　　暧昧是，明白人生有太多的无奈，现实有太多的限制。你知道没有可能，但又舍不得放手。

　　暧昧是，有进一步的冲动，却没有进一步的勇气。

　　暧昧是，他不是你的情人，但似乎他比你的情人更关心你和了解你。

　　暧昧是，你会编一条围巾给他，但大家从没有开始过。

　　暧昧是，虽然他不是你的情人，但他却会对你说：你对我是十分重要的。

　　暧昧是，你感冒时有一个会在晚上打电话来，特意提醒你服药，叫你盖好被子早点睡的普通朋友。

　　暧昧是，当你遇到问题解决不了的时候，你找不到你的男/女朋友，你第一个便会想起他。

　　暧昧是，每当他提及他的另一半时，你会万箭穿心。
暧昧是，为了逃避背叛的罪恶感。

　　暧昧是，甜津津又同时酸溜溜的。往往从未开始，已叫

人不安，患得患失。

　　暧昧是，别人以为你们在搞地下情时，你会沾沾自喜。

　　暧昧是，别人问你们是否恋爱中，你张口结舌。

　　暧昧是，常常挣扎表不表白。你怕表白之后，你既得不到一个情人，却又失去了一个知心好友。

　　暧昧是，见到他，你会心跳。见不到他时，你会挂念他。

　　暧昧是，两个人都会互相猜想。他是不是已经暗示了什么？我是不是自作多情？

　　暧昧是，每天大家都会聊QQ，会互传手机短讯，无规律地偶然约会。

　　暧昧是，除了情人节之外，其它的节日，大家都交换礼物。

　　暧昧是，你很想多走一步，但又怕会吓怕了他。你会很小心流露自己的感情。

　　暧昧是，两个人没有承诺过什么。但虽然如此，你愿意付出的，比有承诺的情侣更多。没有责任，但你却很渴望去承担，不问回报。

　　暧昧,是一扇门，你可以停留在门外，也可以踏进房子里面。然后你不可以停留在门下面。门--永不是终点站。

This post told everything I wanted to tell Nikki the other day but sadly she wasnt there to share. Yeah, it was here. For once it stopped like a train right in front of me but I didnt get onto it. Nikki asked me did I regret? I was, firmly, telling her No I dont, but after thinking twice, I changed.

Yes I do. I regretted not getting onto that train, and it stops for somebody else now.

Bla bla ba.

Another week is ending soon, Aiks so soon. Next week will be a very important life+future determining week for my sister! Wishing her all the very very berry berry best for interview! *Seduce the interviewers with whatever you have*

And I wasted another week again. But I think my condition is improving, because I started reading for at least an hour a day! Ok I know that doesnt sound good. Wonder how come I could be so hardworking when I first came. *Something wrong*

Spent like hours searching for entertainment programs. Am really really bored with the life here la. Everyday 8 hours of college and endless stuff to study and endless questions in dissection where we get scolded so badly if nobody answers. *sigh* I should be in 1st table because you really dont have to study if you are there. Not even a single question that nobody can answer--super different from our table hoho.

And super boh-song that cadaver. No abdominal fats. People punya greater omentum covers like an apron but his only covered 2 inches below that pathetic stomach. Mine also larger *wink*

And not forgetting that house owner who acts smart and thinks himself so great. You are a doctor so what? You are not at all in place to judge how we dress up and WHAT KIND OF SHOES WE WEAR TO MEET YOU. Annoying gila as they said.

Gotta get a little bit more hardworking because exam is coming!Haizz dunno will pass 1st year or not T.T

Here again!

I am having a test tmrow but my mind is blown somewhere else by something strange to me. I need somebody to talk to. Let me see their face by skyping or msn or whatever. But the person I was waiting for few hours didnt appear. And the next person whom I hope to see her cute face turned me down. :(

Basically too many things happened around me these days, which make me feel that this year is REALLY undoubtedly unlucky for me(I mean Chinese calendar). Mum said she went to the temple to da-siu-yan aka pukul orang kecil for me already but still the world doesnt seem to treat me a little bit better. I offended people, became more lazy, wasted so much time to go online and fb-ing, sleeping so much, met with people whom I think they are there for my money and etc etc. Sigh.

Was browsing through a few friends' blogs and they mentioned about food! Haizz I miss Malaysia's food. And someone promised to bring me for steak at some hill LAST YEAR but didn't accomplish. And me being such a bad friend reminds her everytime I get to talk to her. Wei I am missing you Lee Pui Shan :((

And Nikki our Pavilion shopping spreeee.

And YYS our laugh-till-you-drop session.

And Shanx our secret-sharing phone calls.

And CC you said we should at least meet once before I go overseas, but till now I haven seen you in real person before.

And Eldrick our talking-on-phone session which each time ended so fast because credit finished dee.

And Chanhui I miss skyping and talking nonsense with you.

I am so desperately needing a break :(
P/S: It is not easy to be a good person. Everything you do for yourself might be seen as an act of self-centered. Everything you do to protect yourself is known as an useless excuse to defend what mistake you have done.

Haizz being a human being is so troublesome. Perhaps if I am to choose what to become for my next life, I think I will choose to be a cow in India-who just dont have to care about what others think.

有种朋友，喜欢却不动情

有一些男生，很令我动心，但不动情， 怎么说呢？ 因为他们给我的感觉像朋友，真正的朋友。

我可以和他们很坦诚的谈论彼此的爱情观、婚姻观, 以及种种的人生问题。在他们面前， 我会忘记自己是女生，就不会撒娇、嫉妒、耍心眼， 我和他们各站在天平的两端。

我们可以一同看电影、郊游回来， 在车站挥挥手，各自去等自己的车，走自己的路。 这种感觉好极了！ 我觉得自己很有尊严，人的尊严。 信不信？

跟这些男生相处在一起,甚至比跟同类的女生相处来的愉快
。 女生的聚会，是黏稠稠的，像一锅浓粥，温暖在胸，但是吃
多了会撑，一眨眼又饿，而且很多女生都为情所困，谈来谈
去总是心有千千结，别人管也管不完。

跟这些男生相处，就像一同温一壶月光的酒！是给彼此的心
灵加养料，让彼此潜在的才能发酵，挥发灵魂的芳香。真的
，这些男生所散发出来的生命活力，深深感动着我。
我很惊讶，他们不必从文字、故事的迷林披荆斩棘，就能一
眼洞穿人生的奥秘，甚至开始为旁边的同行者掌灯。就能一
眼洞穿人生的奥秘，甚至开始为旁边的同行者掌灯。能结交
有智能、理想与热情的朋友，是人一生莫大的幸福吧

我是这样着迷于他们高贵的气质， 也感谢他们把我当「朋友」看待，不因为我是女生，就随便
说些甜言蜜语来哄我，或者根本不睬我

如果，追求人生的伴侣也必须如此相知相惜，那我实在「舍
不得」把这些男生当成男朋友。我害怕一旦变成男女朋友，
我就会计较他不送我回家、他不说些好听的动心话，他宁可
送我「尼采与上帝」也不送一朵小花…… 我还担心从此他只要我乖乖的陪在一旁，微笑地看他在众人
间侃侃而谈；我发问的机会都没有，遑论有所质疑。

似乎两人之间只要渗入感情元素，气氛就不一样了。比如去
看一场好电影，有几对情侣在互相依偎陶醉之余, 还能正襟危坐的讨论那场电影的成就？ 在无声胜有声的时刻，那实在太无趣了。
何况，男女朋友总会呕气，甚至最后各奔前程，这就更无趣
了. 爱情消逝，友情也跟着淡漠。说什么「我们仍然是好朋友」
，都是鬼话 就算这不是一厢情愿找台阶下，而是双方共同的心愿，这心
愿也太残忍一点，何苦把自己逼到那么窘迫的境地！

分手而后重逢,能说些什么呢？「纵使相逢应不识」 尤其是当对方的身边又多个人的时候。 对这些男生,我的确是心动而不敢、不忍动情。唯恐不小心
逾越分际,徒惹一身烦恼。

当然，偶而会有那么几剎那，会情不自禁、悄悄地流露爱慕
之意， 他感觉到了,我也感觉到了, 但是握手的瞬间也只是轻微的感觉，当我们抬头再看看澄澈
的天空， 以及对望彼此无私的眼眸

我们知道︰有些东西会比爱情恒久，更值得我们追求。这种
默契，是属于男女私情之外的，我如此相信。 男朋友或是丈夫，都是另一个封闭而完整的圆，对我这个圆
来说，可能是相交、相切或重叠，甚至根本在另一个空间，
八竿子也打不着的。无论如何，我在他面前，还是要保持一
个圆的形状，把自己扎成一个花球，随着爱情的频率跳动。

这种默契，是属于男女私情之外的，我如此相信。 可是在这些男生、这些朋友面前，我却可以松开五花大绑，
成为一条无限延长的直线，因为不用费心去画一个圆，或是
费心去和另一条直线相交叉， 我们只是各自奔跑，志同道合就彼此吸引， 成为两条，甚至一组平行直线，也许不属于同一个平面， 但是彼此知道、看得见、互相扶持、互相敬重。 我期求这样的友情，这样的男生令我动心而不动情。

Hmm.

Day: Great Friday because the afternoon class was suspended, meaning I dont have to attend Amphibian Lab this week. Hate it the most.

Mood: Good because am bloated with food from Olio Buffet. Love having food in my stomach =)

And am having a kinda mixed feeling which I feel like telling somebody but I dont know who and how to tell. It is a story of a person who is really very close to me, but I just dont know how to express what I think. Is it actually worthy to give up on a friendship if the Mr Right comes into your life? And is it worthy to re-consider and re-evaluate this person if your friends are kinda disagree with you being together with him?

Basically I dont know how to judge this thing because I have heard it from a friend, not you yourself. What I got is actually her stand, obviously not yours. But from what I know and what I can judge, maybe you are a little too blinded by love. I know she is being a bit emotional, but whatever belonged to 2 person remain theirs forever. No matter it is an object, a story, a joke or what. I will think like this because I simply understand what she means by "I dont like when people become a third party of our story". Yea kinda emotional but when you think again, it is true.

I can feel that this friendship gets more fragile since the day he appears. Is he really that important?He changed you. Maybe you are in a position that you cant see it but others still do. I am writing about this because I dont want to see another friendship broken by relationship. Yea I am pretty clear that I am not in a position to write and comment bout this. And I dont hope to get involved in this as well.

Hope you dont think that she is misleading me. She is not.

PISSED.

I GOT SO DAMN PISSED IN THAT FELLA'S CLASS.

WHAT A PERVERT.

YOU PERVERRRRRRRRRTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT I HATE YOU AND YOUR CLASS AND YOUR BELLY WHICH BLOCKED MY VISION TO SEE THE SLIDES OBVIOUSLY NOT PREPARED BY YOU.

So please dont block me with your big fat tummy that protudes out of you gigantic figure anymore.

FOR YOU WFT.

Congratulations and celebration bla bla bla I dunno how to continue the song already. Anyway I big big big congrats and a great great great hug for you =) You've done an excellent job for securing such results in SPM!

*Run to you and hug and kiss your round-like-moon cheek*

It isnt bad at all ok. Please be grateful of what you have gotten. It is an excellent results, and frankly speaking if they changed the grading system in my year I definitely wont be at where I am now. A+ is such an unachievable thing for normal people okay. Maybe my results will come out with 2A+,10A and 1A- (A+ being Math and AddMath hoho). That's even more embarrassing T.T

I really wanna assure you again that it is great!!!!!!!Dont be unsatisfied okay?I know you have done your best and you really deserve this seeing all the effort you have poured in. SPM is just a relay station of life, it determines which path you are going to take, but it definitely doesnt play a role in making you what you are eventually.

Love you lotss!Belanja you Rakuzen when I am back(craving for sushi sobss)-so now hutang dulu.

And I wanna see your result slip. Email to my inbox!

Dear friend.

Dear,

Dont be sad over what happened okay. If anything happened u just haf to call my num/text me and ask me to online. I will skype/chat/do whatever things with you ya.

I know there isnt much I can do, but at least I can still be your listener.

Please dont feel disgusted by them. I believe that they do it with a reason, and having family members like them are just fated to be. Dont hate them okay they will soon come to know how wrong they were.

Although we didnt know each other for long, we spent so much precious moments together-and that makes you a truly special friend of mine. And I want you to know that you mean alot to me. Love you much.

P/S: Applicable to everyone as well. I am always available for people who need me :)

寻找。

有时候还是用自己的语言比较善于表达。

很久都没像今天那么难过了，虽然是一桩很小的事，但它让我了解了很多。

成绩差已经是一个很大的打击了，我想也没想过会拿到这么差的成绩。上一次这么差应该是高中时的physics吧！那时候全校都没人pass，第一次觉得很伤心，但后来反而习惯了-因为过后的两次都还是没人pass。很明显是老师的问题，出了一大堆人家不会做的。现在情况回到了跟以前一样，一模一样，总之是整个batch都考得不好。

刚开始拿到考卷的时候是责备自己的成份比较多，过后他们开始说是老师的问题，自我安慰吧！我刚开始还蛮相信他们的，但过了一下我就觉得不应该怪老师。自己的成绩是自己的责任，在怪自己之前根本就没资格怪人家，现在有人把枪指着你的额头叫你考这种烂成绩吗？没有。

所以我开始讨厌自己了。

心里很难过，特别是别人来问分数还有老师问为什么考这样的时候，用沉默来回答都多余了。不发生都发生了，不考都考了，还能怎样？对自己不只是失望那么简单，有一种消失了很久的感觉-挫折感吧。我考了一个没读书的分数，真的很难让自己接受，别说自己，每个人都说怎么可能。然后我才发现到一直以来大家都很看好我，我一直生活在这种无形的压力里，很酸，很苦。

每个人说的话都带刺，有个朋友说溜嘴了-好糟糕哦，你怎么会考这样！当下真的真的很想哭，但我发现自己控制泪水的能力又进步了，这次只有泪水在眼眶打滚，没掉下来，厉害吧！:)

对自己彻底地失望，我付出了比上次更多的努力，但换回来只有大家对我那种异样的眼光。我真的开始怀疑自己为什么会在这里，感觉上之前那种热忱已经完全消失了，可能我开始觉得累了，开始讨厌被比较，被期待，被看好。

希望明天是全新的一天，我会学习期待的。

我只想做好自己，为什么结果会是那样呢?

Happy Birthday!

Happy Birthday to Nawwar!You are officially 20 now. (So old sigh T.T) HAHAHAHA..Hope you had alot of fun yesterday and today!

And hope you like the cute camel we chose for you. PLEASE CHANGE HIS/HER NAME OK. Dia Indian bukan Russian.

And for your information these were in our considerations too:


This very scary black thing with his pisang yang berlambak. We actually planned to put it in ur wardrobe until you finally discovered it. But Husni said if we do it then everyone will try their level best to hide their birthdays from us now onwards. LOL.


Dan ini juga sangat cute! Macam kembar Husni kan?

Hehehehe it is so glad to have you in this horrible India and JSSMC. We shall work harder to copy notes in Mam naik bas aka mam tak ada leher's class. And prevent ourselves from sleeping in Shamsunder's class.

Thanks for being here =)


____________________________________________________________________

And happy belated birthday to dear Eldrick. The one and only picture we took in Inti coincidentally was still with you =) Hope you had a blast and felt happy that I called you all the way from India! No matter how far we are apart, you will still be a part of my heart. It isn't easy to be friends for 12 years. Hope more 12years are coming for us! Friends forever :)

Bluek!

I want to drag him inside the boiling oil and fry him.

But in this world there is no way to find such a big pot.

And I can never drag him without any help due to his obesity.

I HATE THE HOD SO MUCH!!!

Phew!

Phew accidentally and miraculously finished my biochem practical. They have given me marks for mercy I supposed.

Me stupid dungu creature who dont know how to differentiate between creatine and creatinine.

Dear all, creatinine is the break-down product of creatine phosphate.

And most important thing is that I forgot egg white is the richest source of albumin. I can see how much the biological oxidation mam wanted to bang her head on the wall :)

Physio and Anat Practical coming soon!I cant bear so many people banging heads for me anymore. Jia You everyone!

):

Am not feeling well today. Not at all.

This morning I was awaken by the ultimately aching stomach-and that was when the disaster starts: Having diarrhoea AGAIN.

I think I didnt talk more than 10sentences today coz I have no one to talk to. And that feeling is so horrible. Maybe that is the reason for my more congesting chest?

I dont want to vomit and have diarrhoea again. IT SUCKSSSSS.

Yippyyyy +)

Yeh finally done with theory papers. No expectation towards my results. My friend asked me how was it and I came with a fine conclusion:

Physiology was bad anatomy was worse and biochem was okay.
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*Border line*

Stop talkng bout exam. Me driven to half crazy. Everyday slept at 2-3am and wake up at 7am (Ok I admit it is considered alot but me wan more sleep ma :(

Tmrow the dental students going to Ooty and I am going to stay back at home facing books. Biochem I think. :((((((((( SOOOOO SADDD.

Faster finish la I have so many personal things to do.



Including skyping and chatting nonstop with friends :)
Awhhh I miss you people.

Happy CNY!!

Hey people I know I am such a crappy Chinese girl who doesnt even update post on such a big festival!! Hope I am not too late :)

Been so busy preparing for 2nd internals all this while. Ok I gotta swear AGAIN that I am not going to do last minute work EVER AGAIN. It is so frustrating! (I say this everytime I burn midnight oil :( )
Anyway this 2nd internals approached a little too soon before I even realised that. So by the time I switched back to India mood after coming back, I didnt have time anymore. Time waits for no man. (But I am a girl so it shud wait for me right? Ok it is lame.)

Bunking class like hell these days!Because it is so annoying to listen to craps when you dont even have time to revise everything. And some childish lecturers will just walk off from the class if they see/hear/feel/sense something they dont like. CHILDISH LA U MR V.

Basically my CNY was a mess. Had to get myself indulged in world of science when everyone at home enjoys world of entertainment. SIGH.

MEEEE HOLIDAY WANNNNN :(((

大海

从那遥远海边 慢慢消失的你
本来模糊的脸 竟然渐渐清晰
想要说些什麽 又不知从何说起
只有把它放在心底
茫然走在海边 看那潮来潮去
徒劳无功 想把每朵浪花记清
想要说声爱你 却被吹散在风里
猛然回头你在那里
如果大海能够唤回曾经的爱
就让我用一生等待
如果深情往事你已不再留恋
就让它随风飘远
如果大海能够带走我的哀愁
就像带走每条河流
所有受过的伤
所有流过的泪
我的爱 请全部带走
茫然走在海边 看那潮来潮去
徒劳无功 想把每朵浪花记清
想要说声爱你 却被吹散在风里
猛然回头你在那里
如果大海能够唤回曾经的爱
就让我用一生等待
如果深情往事你已不再留恋
就让它随风飘远
如果大海能够带走我的哀愁
就像带走每条河流
所有受过的伤
所有流过的泪
我的爱 请全部带走
如果大海能够唤回曾经的爱
就让我用一生等待
如果深情往事你已不再留恋
就让它随风飘远
如果大海能够带走我的哀愁
就像带走每条河流
所有受过的伤
所有流过的泪
我的爱
请全部带走

From today onwards you will never deserve my respect.

I wont say that today was a very bad and unlucky day for me. Because there must be a reason behind what happened. Just that till now I haven figured out what the reason is.

The story is simple. I got picked on by a lecturer. A lecturer whom still deserved my respect up till yeterday. Yea, despite all nonsense he did to my fellow classmates, all rubbish he told in class etc etc..The reason of me respecting him is because I dont find a reason not respecting old folks like him. But my perception totally changed today.Yea, 3/2/10.

I dont mind if he asks me a single question or two in lectures. But I started feeling uneasy when I stood up for more than 3 times. And it didnt stop. Uncountable times of standing and giving him a blank look. Chose to give him a "I dont know anything" face is because no matter what I answer, he will still continue asking. So what for wasting my energy?And I chose not to stand up when he asked people who got 25 in viva to, is because I dont want to embarrass myself by telling nonsense in front of everyone.

Anyhow, I can accept him picking on me if he tells me what I have done wrong. But sincerely truthfully and honestly, I dont think I have done anything beyond the limit. I study for tutorial. I study for exams. I study for VIVA. I go to class regularly. I listen to lecturers of that department. I dont sleep in his class although those classes were full of crap. I do my best for exams.

What is there for him to pick on me?Anyone please tell me what I have done wrong?

Feel heart aching is not because having to answer so many questions. It is because I dont understand why am I the victim. Even in drama series you can see the similarities of all victims of a serial killer right?But why not in real life?

And at that moment I suddenly realize that all the while I was alone. Sometimes people whom you think are close to you tend to be de ones joking about what you feel sad about, especially those who came all the way from Malaysia with you. Am not going to tell some rubbish on what are the qualities of good friends, but honestly speaking, you wont know how disappointed I was at that time.

But through incidents only we will grow, and really look through people around you. I am glad to have some friends who really care, understand and even try their best to cheer me up today. And she told me friends dont say thanks. I love her so much :)

I am sure the results of my upcoming exams will not be good, and it is so not shocked to see if I fail my physiology.

Because ff he wants you to fail, you will never pass.

Arghh..

My mood is so so so so bad now :(

because:

tmrow got viva and I cant finish studying.Tts for sure.

the smell is back.I HATE IT.

the floor is going to be dirty again.I HATE IT.

I have to sweep and mop again. I HATE IT.

Sunday is so memboringkan without having the freedom to walk around the city yang memboringkan......

OMG.

Viva in a week's time.

Second internals in 3 weeks time.

Uncompleted portions for anatomy is more than what I have completed.

They started teaching BRAIN today.

I slept in the class. ALL important classes that I supposed to learn from my friends to be ultimately attentive but I failed to do that.

Hate myself.

Hate myself.

*SIMPLY HATING MYSELF*

Boys vs Girls

Too many things happened today which make me feel like concluding some points:

Boys are untrustable. I say this because my friend got cheated by her boyfriend.

Boys are unreasonable. I say this because another friend argued with her boyfriend but he doesnt want to admit his mistakes.

Boys are annoying. I say this because we turned a conversation on skype into an argue which ended so badly.

Ok screw me if you are a boy who think that I am a b**** simply accusing people.

And screw me if you are somebody deeply in love with ur hubby.

But still I want to say: THEY SUCK.

Bad day :(

Today is really not my day. Not to say that I was surrounded by bad luck and it wasnt really 头头碰着黑 in Cantonese. But so many things happened that drove me crazy and frustration started to grow. Uhh.

Woke up at 8am (the bus comes at 8.30am :P) thinking that today is gonna be a nice one because practical would be cancelled and I could go back at 1pm. Unfortunately the frog-like HOD with a huge sinis+fake smile told me that we will still have prac even though other departments cancelled it. Blek another reason why I hate him. Temporal summation of hatred will eventually bring me to hitting him with rocks ISYKK.

And since there was solar ecplise today my dear classmates thought that all classes would be suspended. YOUR HEAD LA SO EASY TO SUSPEND ONE MEH. So no lecturer came in for Anatomy theory and those monkeys started to make noise. I cant really describe their pasar-like noise in a very good way due to the limited vocabulary-but even people doing English Literature wont be able to illustrate it the way I wanted to say BECAUSE THEY WERE REALLY NOISY. In short their talents are to make head and heart aching noises that disturb people who are seeking for tranquility (Hoho this is called jia qing gao, like Bree in Desperate Housewives :D)

After that was dissection class. It irritated me more especially when some people volunteered to do dissection and after completing (so sorry to say her dissection skill was as bad as mine) just left the class without even CONSIDERING to keep the tools and wet the cotton and cover the cadaver and clean the scalpel forceps and bla bla bla. Eh please la do you know what is the meaning of responsibility? Simply threaten a person's body just like that? She had a life like you(perhaps better) before and she deserves respect from us! Donating own body for dissecting and learning purpose doesn't mean that the students can do anything they want.

And I felt deeply sorry for this woman because our table teacher had actually destroyed most of the structures on her head+neck and today the other half of her face was as well gone. Some people actually accidentally cut a part of her mandible aka lower jaw out so now she can't close her mouth and what is left is a protuded tongue. Seriously nobody can ever imagine how nasty it is to touch a cadaver's tongue. Especially for people who dont even share drinks with others via the same straw.

Bluekk dont vomit okay.

Yes WFT (I know I sound like scolding some rough words but trust me I am just calling my sister :P) this part is for you to understand why I felt so inferior today.
Had the stupid physiology practical(as mentioned above-scroll up and read if you skipped it: only applicable to WFT) and we were supposed to do some kind of Cardiovascular and Respiratory system examination. In our group there were 4 girls(including me) and 1 specimen(sorry Faheem for addressing you that hehe), where 3 of the other girls were absent for the previous class. Meaning I am the only one who knows what is happening la. And there is this very annoying PG who came to our group and asked us to demonstrate every step of examination to her. Then of course la she started pointing out mistakes-not pointing out not scolding but it was somekind like menegur in a harsh way.

And pin-pointing mistakes.

And pin-pointing mistakes.

And ask questions.

And ask questions.

Till 4pm lo. Got very frustrated la because human beings are imperfect ma. Everybody commits mistakes right. If I am SO DAMN GOOD that I dont do mistakes why do I come to your class? Last week the another PG only DEMONSTRATED and we didnt get a chance to do it at all so what do you expect?

So feel a lil inferior lo. Got what I mean?

Sien la..So many things else to study and nothing entered my brain. Tired.

And Viva is coming in 2 weeks time. OMG somebody help me please!

J-A-K-U-N

Call me jakun because only yesterday I knew who JS are. JS=Janice and Sonia (P/S: 23years, Australian-born korean, twin sister) Super pretty and they have angelic voice. How can God be so unfair! Love them singing Officially missing you! Bravo..Basically they recorded more Hillsongs but this video on youtube has already reached 1million clicks. ONE MILLION OKAY BUKAN MAIN PUNYA.



Pay attention and listen please :P

Call me jakun because just now only I knew who Pranav Mistry is. 31years old Indian, phD in some engineering thinggy from MIT, comes out with a gadget called the Sixth Sense technology. It means that you can actually write on a sticker note and it will automatically being connected to ur lappie and you will have those words on the screen!

It also means that you can draw and edit 3D objects in computers by drawing in the air in front of your lappie.

It also means that you can just wear something on your fingers and at ANY time drawing/conteng/writing/confessing/scolding some people on the nearest wall.

It also means that you can go online on a piece of blank paper by clipping a small webcam-like stuff in it. You can even play car-racing game! How nice is that..

Basically he is trying to correlate technology with humanity-in the sense that everything he does is to ease people's life and do things according to our mood. Huhu that is what makes things go so smoothly whenever I feel like expressing myself on bloggie but lazy to on lappie and get connected to the darn-slow internet. Interested friends please watch this:



These two things make me feel like the jakunest girl in the jakun city. And oops it is not a jakun city because NY Times just ranked it as the 4th must-visit place in 2010. Take a note: NEW YORK TIMES okay. MYSORE okay. 4th THROUGHOUT THE WORLD okay. My KL got num 30 out of 31 places okay.

Jangan main-main :D

:)

Thanks Albert :)

Jumbling up everything.

Going back to Mysore tmrow. Have to familiarize myself with books and cow dunks again. ISYKK.

Went for a karaoke session with sis. Lame la itu Neway-force people to buy tit-bits which is expensive and NOT worth its value at all. Nuggets and fries for RM11?GO AND ROB LA :D

Taken with Vaish before we headed to the monkey/gorilla/chimpanzee style class party.

Yeh Siti PB binti Woo propagating Rock N Roll.

Xmas present by classmate Parot. (Please exclude the air ticket. Takkan he belanja me that meh. T.T")

With Ms Nurnawaar. Her smile is FAKE okay cause I am the one going back not her. HEHE XD

With Mr Dzulhusni in front of the gate one moment before I said byebye to India.

Xmas present from Kelvin! Beeeeeee XD

Xmas presents for 3 of us from a hidden Santa Claus. WE KNOW IT WAS YOU MR LIM.

Class party with 3 cuties.

VERY nice shoes from Rebekah. Not a present though :)

1/1/09-I ended an intimate relationship with a close friend of mine (dont want to mention the reason again-for interested candidates, kindly refer to my older posts). Very surprised that he actually nudged me on msn and initiated to chat. It has been a really really really long time since we calmly sat down and chatted. Nothing special, just that we started talking on nonsenses and making fun of each other AGAIN-on topic which were once so sensitive for both of us.

"Aiya u didnt even tell me about her."

"U saw me on msn during that period? MSN probbie la."

"But u shud also informed me ma. U promised last time!"

"Ok sorry my fault. Ya I admit now enough?"

"Yeah tts great. D***** right? Congrats. Next time must invite me to your wedding dinner hoho."

"Wah dont say til so far 1st. Sometimes things dont go the way we hope it to be right? Okla I will la if it really happens. You too k?"

"Ya, but you will get married 1st."

"Where can say like tt one. Promise ya?"

"Ok, promise!"

Kinda unbelievable that we can become friends again. One year ago, so many things happened between us that made us no longer friends. And that time I really thought I lost somebody who knows me so well, eternally. But it is all back that day.

Perhaps, a sign of new hope for 2010?

Happy New Year!

Hey people it is 2010 already! How was last year?And how was last year's countdown?LOL ok I know it is lame =)


Listening to JJ's 7th album-100days. Awhh no wonder he is always my beloved. But there is still slight disappointment towards his newly released album in which I have waited for one-whole-long-year. Compared to the 6th album, this one contains less sparkles I would say. Mostly are J-style love songs which sometimes make people feel bored.


重点推荐-背对背拥抱，爱不会绝迹，转动。Yea, 3 only that actually suit public's taste. (Sad to feel disappointed towards an artist whom I am in love for YEARS-7years I think)

Had lunch with Eunice and her family just now--Secret Recipe's TomYam spaghetti+Oreo cheese. Not going to comment on the food because everything I eat in Malaysia is delicious. VERY Yummy esp things you dont even find in India. Zi Xuan IS SO CUTE NOW. And totally different from how she looks in the piccies Eunice mms-ed me last time. Piccies on facebook soon once she uploaded!

Haizz stil got 3 days ONLY-and I am going back to India. Kinda sad actually because nobody is free to layan me. Hoho nola most of my friends are not in Malaysia. Others have exam, not free, not close to me, busy with boyfriends and lalalalala. People at age of 20 never expect them to sit properly at home. It doesnt happen =)

ARGHHHH I DONT WANT TO GO BACK AND FACE ALL THOSE BOOKS THAT DRIVE ME CRAZY. I know once I go back=havta study damn hard because most of the portions are over and I am lagging like hell ==(((((

And 米修米修 I miss you XD